The Family Gathering (Sullivan's Crossing #3)(39)

She gave him a look. “You aren’t really going to ask me if I can keep a secret, are you, Tom?”

“Even if we’re mad at each other?”

“Even if I hate you and want you dead! Of course, I’m going to suffer the worse fate. I tried to stop you but now I’m going to love you till I die.”

“Oh, Lola, you are so good to me. I don’t feel like I even had a life before you.”

“You had one, Tom—it was full of jobs and kids. You want to get the families together to save money?”

“Nah, that’s the least of it. Not that I have any money,” he added. “It’s always been paycheck to paycheck for me. But I’m really good at that, by the way. Nah, this is about my marriage.”

“It’s not required, you know,” she told him. “We both had lives before. We’re both beyond them now...”

“I might need a little advice, too. See, I married real, real young. Becky was just my undoing. And I was a boy, thinking with my dick, like boys do. But I loved her and I kept loving her. It’s taken me a long time to understand. Becky didn’t have a happy childhood. Her family struggled and it just brought out the worst in ’em. My family wasn’t well-off, either, but my folks never let it get ’em down and they were good parents. They are good parents. But Becky was always looking for more. First it was to get married and have a baby.” He laughed without humor. “I should’a looked out for that one.

“Then she wanted a house, so we started fixing up that Victorian we shared with our landlady. Then she got pregnant, then she got pregnant again... Oh, jeez, why am I telling you all this like you don’t already know it? I think I might be a little nervous.”

She smiled and ran her soft hand over the back of his neck. “Not anymore, Tom. Not with me.”

“You’re not ready for this, Lola. Becky left when Zach was only two. He’s fourteen now. We were just separated a couple of years but then got our divorce. Even after the divorce, I still let her spend nights. Weekends. It was easier if she just came home. We were in that big house and she didn’t have much space of her own, not enough room to take four kids back to her apartment for a weekend. They’d have been miserable. And I—” He shook his head. Then he looked at her. “I welcomed her into the bed even though we weren’t married and I was pretty sure she was dating around. I’m not an idiot, I know what dating means when you’re a grown-up. I knew there were men, though I didn’t ask her and she didn’t tell me. But I didn’t care...”

“Tom, please go easy on yourself. You’re human. You had a bond with her and you were lonely. Not to mention overworked and raising four kids. So you got shagged by your ex-wife? Is that the worst thing you could—”

“It’s not the worst thing,” he said. “Becky eventually seemed to have a good life, a nice place in Aurora, a decent job and girlfriends. I never even questioned how she could afford a nice car and a great town house on her salary working for a plastic surgeon. She was just an office worker. Then she got in trouble and called me for help. She got arrested for soliciting. She said it was all a misunderstanding. Then I found out it was the third time she’d been arrested—all misunderstandings, she said. I hooked her up with Cal Jones. He’s a criminal lawyer. He got her case thrown out so she didn’t even pay a fine. But, Lola, my ex-wife was a hooker. She probably still is.”

“Holy smokes, you weren’t kidding! If you’d dared me to guess what personal stuff you were going to tell me, that would be way down on the list below ‘my ex-wife is a space alien.’”

“I know,” he said. “She has a lot of excuses. She was an escort, she said. There are a lot of men, particularly older, very rich men, who want a woman to spend an evening with them when they’re in the area. There were several ‘regulars’ and they didn’t necessarily have sex. They had relationships, she said. Conversation. Someone to take to the restaurant rather than eat alone.

“Then I took in her lifestyle and realized these men she escorted paid her a fortune and I may be just a country bumpkin but you don’t give a woman a lot of money to watch her cut her meat. So, she said she stopped doing that. But her lifestyle didn’t suffer at all so I don’t believe her. It changed everything. She can only see the kids here in Timberlake, she isn’t allowed to stay over at the house and the kids aren’t allowed to go to her house. And she wasn’t crawling in my bed again, that’s for sure.”

“Oh, Tom, you must have been so upset.”

“Yeah, I was,” he said. “I can still get all pissed off about it if I chew on it awhile. What kind of example is that for your kids? Huh? But you know Becky—she’s so pretty and so sweet, she really can manipulate things and get her way. Once I thought about it, I had no trouble picturing her as an escort. Or whatever that was.”

“Did the kids notice that you weren’t letting her spend as much time with them?” Lola asked.

“Nah. They’re fourteen, sixteen, nineteen and twenty-one. They’re busy. They’re trying to hatch their own plans. Jackson said something about a year ago. He said he noticed I wasn’t inviting Mom to stay over. And I said, ‘We’ve been divorced eight years now, maybe it’s time I accepted the fact that we’re divorced.’ And good old Jackson said, ‘’Bout time, man. You’re not that old. Maybe you’ll get lucky like me and get a nice girlfriend.’ At the time he said that, having a girlfriend was the last thing on my mind.” He squeezed her hand.