The Death of Mrs. Westaway(59)
There was a long silence, broken only by Kitty still humming “Let It Go” beneath her breath, and the subdued hiss of Freddie’s earphones.
“Well,” Mitzi said at last, her tone bright and rather brittle, “I call that very handsome of you, Harriet.”
“It . . . it’s certainly something to consider,” Harding said. He stood, tucked his shirt more firmly into his pleated trousers, and paced to the window. “I believe there is something called a deed of variation, which enables beneficiaries of a will—providing everyone involved agrees—to vary their shares of the inheritance . . . but we must of course consider whether that would be morally right, given Mother’s wishes—”
“I don’t want her money,” Ezra said bluntly. “I don’t want it from her, and I don’t want it from Harriet.”
“Look,” Abel said. He put his arm around Hal’s shoulders, squeezing her tight. “It’s a lovely gesture, there’s no doubt about it, and I’m very proud of Harriet for suggesting it. But it’s not something to be decided lightly. I suggest we all sleep on this—not least Harriet—and perhaps we”—he glanced at his brothers—“ought to talk about this separately. And then discuss, before we meet Mr. Treswick on Monday. Agreed?”
“Agreed,” Harding said. “Harriet?”
“Okay,” Hal said. She realized that her fists were clenched inside the sleeves of her jumper, the muscles tensely resisting Abel’s hug. “But I’m not going to change my mind.”
CHAPTER 25
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It was several hours later, and Hal was walking the grounds in the growing dusk, trying to work out what the hell to do. Her sense of intrepid Robin Hood daring had completely vanished, and she felt only a growing panic, swelling inside her, threatening to suffocate her.
Abel had tried to take her aside after the tea and talk to her, but she had broken away, unable to take his well-meaning concern. The pats on the arm, the platitudes, the overaffectionate hugs, they were all making her feel stifled, and she had made an excuse about feeling tired and wanting to go up to her room, and he had let her go.
When she had got up there, though, the feeling of suffocation had only increased, and she lay in the narrow metal cot, with the bars looming over her like a prison cell. She could not stop thinking about the bolts on the door, and the tiny, crabbed HELP ME on the glass of the window. What had happened here? Why had her mother never mentioned this part of her life? Had something so terrible happened that she could not bear to talk about it?
In the end, she had got up and tiptoed quietly down the stairs, past the drawing room, where Mitzi was holding forth to her children about homework and revision, and out into the twilit garden.
Dew was falling, turning the grass silver in the light from the drawing room windows, and when she looked back up the hill she could see the trail she had left, and feel the wetness of her jeans, the damp seeping through her boots.
She walked without purpose or aim, until she found herself back at the copse of trees she had seen the first day, the one she had noticed before Abel pointed out the maze.
This time, she could see clearly through the trees the glimmer of water, and she made her way along the overgrown path, weaving past nettles and brambles, to the shore of a small lake. Once, she thought, it might have been a lovely spot. But now, with night falling and the winter coming, there was something terribly sad about it, the lake choked and peat-colored with rotting leaves, the shores impassable banks of black mud. In the center was a little island with a scraggle of trees and bushes, and across the other side was a dark shape, some kind of building, Hal thought, though her eyes struggled to make it out in the dim light.
She took off her glasses, polishing them to try to make out the shape better in the gloaming, when she heard a crack behind her and whipped around to see a tall figure silhouetted against the lights of the house.
“Who—” she managed, her heart thudding in her chest, and she heard a laugh, deep and amused.
“Sorry.” It was a man’s voice, and as the figure came closer, she scrabbled her glasses back on with shaking hands, and recognized the face. It was Edward. “I didn’t mean to startle you. It’s dinner—didn’t you hear the gong?”
“How—” Hal found she was trembling, her shock out of all proportion to Edward’s looming presence on the dark path. “How did you kn-know I was here?”
“I followed your footsteps in the dew. What on earth possessed you to come here? It’s a pretty depressing spot.”
“I don’t know,” Hal said. Her heart in her chest was still thumping, but it was slowing. “I—I wanted a walk. I needed to get out.”
“I’m not surprised,” Edward said. He put his hands in his pockets, digging for something, and for a minute Hal wondered what it was, but then he pulled out a cigarette, tapped his forefinger to his nose, and lit up. “Don’t tell Abel. He doesn’t like it.”
The smoke drifted up, pale against the darkening sky, and Hal found herself wondering about this man. She had barely seen him since his appearance last night. What had he been doing?
“Shall we head up?” she asked, and he nodded.
“Slowly, though, I need to finish this.” He took another drag, and Hal began to pick her way back towards the lawn. It had grown much darker since she came down this way, and it was hard to see the path now. She felt a nettle swipe at her arm and winced, drawing in her breath with a hiss of pain.