Shelter(27)

“Thanks,” he says, taking his change from the bar. “I have to go now.”

“Fifty cents?” Dee looks at the quarters still stacked on his coaster. “I buy you a drink and that’s all the tip you’re leaving? Fifty cents?”

“Oh, sorry.”

From his original twenty, he now has a five-and ten-dollar bill—neither of which he wants to part with. He pats down his pockets, hoping he has more change.

“Forget it,” she says, waving her dishrag at him like a fly. “You have a good night.”

The street is empty when he opens the door to a rush of cool air. The only sound he can hear is the vague thump of music leaking from one of the bars nearby. He takes his keys out of his pocket, dropping them on the sidewalk, and then dropping them again not five seconds later. As he starts his car, the whiskey hits him all at once, two doubles drilling straight into his stomach. He can’t remember what, if anything, he ate that day to absorb the blow. Kyung leans back on his headrest, trying not to think about his heart, the way it keeps pounding louder and faster than it should. It sounds like something out of a horror movie, ready to burst through his ribs. His chin bobs toward his chest, and his lids begin to blink, weighed down with lead. He can barely see, so he closes his eyes and tells himself to relax, don’t panic, and don’t throw up. When he opens them again—a minute, an hour later?—someone is shining a light into his car. Kyung swats at the armrest, locking the doors while the man outside raps on his window.

“License and registration.”

Kyung’s head is spinning; he thinks the man might be wearing a uniform, but the light is too bright. He rolls down his window an inch. “Officer?”

“License and registration, please.”

“Why? I wasn’t driving. I was just sitting here.”

“I’m not going to ask you again.”

Without the flashlight shining in his face, Kyung can clearly make out a uniform and badge, a gun in a holster. He slides his documents through the cracked window, being careful not to drop them.

The policeman examines the license, squinting at it as if it’s a fake. “You know this is expired, right? It expired in December.”

“No, that can’t be right.” As soon as Kyung says it, he remembers the notices that came in the mail. The first was printed on plain white paper, the second on urgent pink. He had a choice between paying the water bill that month or paying for his renewal. It wasn’t hard to decide which one to ignore.

“I still don’t understand what I did wrong. I wasn’t driving. My car was in park.”

“Step out of your vehicle, sir.”

“For what?”

“If you haven’t been drinking, then you won’t mind taking a field test.”

Kyung sits up straight, trying his best to look sober, although he knows his breath stinks of alcohol. His whole car does. This can’t be happening, he thinks. This can’t happen.

“Officer McFadden,” he says. “Will you call Officer McFadden? I’m married to his daughter.”

The policeman shines the light on Kyung’s face again. “You’re Connie’s son-in-law? The one whose parents were involved in that thing up in the Heights?”

That thing. So this is what they’re calling it now.

“Yes, that’s me.”

“Stay put,” he says.

Ten minutes later, as a second cruiser pulls up behind the first, Kyung braces himself to say everything that he rehearsed during the wait. I’m sorry for bothering you. I wasn’t actually driving. I know better than that. He repeats these words over and over again, reminding himself to speak slowly and clearly so he doesn’t sound drunk. He looks in his side-view mirror as the car door opens and out steps Tim, not Connie. Somehow, things have just gone from bad to worse. His brother-in-law is an idiot, an *. He’s always turning Kyung into the butt of a joke. His favorite is the one about teachers, how they teach because they can’t do anything else, harharhar. Gillian tells Kyung to ignore him, to be the bigger man. She says her brother is insecure around educated people because the kids at school used to call him “retard” when he was little.

Tim circles around to the passenger side and stands with his hands on his hips, surveying the neighborhood. Kyung already knows what he’s thinking. The topless bars are hard to miss—both of them have blinking neon silhouettes of women hanging in their windows. He unlocks the doors and waits for Tim to climb into the passenger seat.

“So who’d you manage to piss off tonight?”

It’s not the first question he expected to hear. “No one. Why?”

“You must have. Someone called in a possible DUI. People don’t normally do that in this neighborhood unless they’re pissed about something.”

Kyung thinks of Dee, having a laugh inside MacLarens at his expense. He wonders if this is what she meant when she told him to have a good night. “I wasn’t driving—did the other guy tell you that? I was just sitting here, trying to sleep it off before I went home.”

“You don’t have to be driving. You started your car—that’s all it takes to get a DUI in this state.”

In his mirror, Kyung notices the first officer turn on his headlights and drive away. He’s relieved—a little. At the very least, he won’t be arrested. Now all he has to do is listen to his brother-in-law gloat.