Seeing Red(118)

Besides, if he went back to say a proper goodbye, he didn’t trust himself to walk out a second time.



Between Kerra’s condo and Trapper’s office building, not a word passed between him and the driver of the hired car.

After being dropped at the address, in order to get to the entrance, he had to step over the parking meter, which still lay flat against the sidewalk. It crossed his mind to wonder about the status of his car, but he couldn’t work up any real interest or concern over it.

He entered the building, and immediately the door to the law office was jerked open. Carson took one look at him. “I guess you’ve heard.”

“Who told you?”

“Kerra was on TV doing a standup outside Wilcox’s gate.”

“That didn’t take long,” Trapper muttered. Then to Carson, “I ought to strangle you with that brassiere you bought her.”

“I didn’t buy it for her, I bought it for you. Like it?”

Trapper gave him a scornful look and tried to go around him so he could get to the elevator, but Carson sidestepped and blocked him. “They cleaned up your office.”

“Who?”

“I authorized the janitor only to change the lock and replace the glass, but I guess he saw a chance to make some extra coin. Couple of guys were banging around up there yesterday afternoon. I took a peek. Looks good. I settled the bill for you.” He fished in his pants pocket for a key and handed it to Trapper. “It goes in with teeth side down.”

“Thanks.”

“Of course I’ll have to tack those charges onto your bill.”

“Whatever, Carson, just let me by, okay?”

Carson stopped him this time by placing his hand on Trapper’s chest. “Wilcox getting iced sucks for you. Right?”

“Genius deduction.”

“They’re saying his old lady killed him with his own fancy six-shooter.”

“Jesus.” Trapper had replaced the revolver in the drawer, but apparently Mrs. Wilcox had known where to find it. “Have they estimated time of death?”

“Around two o’clock this morning.”

Shortly after he and Kerra had left.

Carson said, “They got a sound bite from one of the wife’s friends saying she’d suffered from severe depression since they lost their kid. So, you know, all things considered, Trapper, maybe this ending is for the best.”

Trapper’s eyes narrowed in anger. “Don’t make me hit you, Carson.” He pushed the lawyer’s hand off his chest. Carson judiciously backed away. Trapper continued on to the elevator.

As soon as he stepped off on his floor, he smelled fresh paint. The frosted glass pane in the door had been replaced, but no stenciling had been done yet. Which was just as well. It would save the new tenant the hassle of having it redone.

Trapper planned to move out as soon as he had the wherewithal to go through the necessary motions. He didn’t know what he was going to do or where he was going to go, but he knew he was finished here.

It wasn’t the finish he’d hoped for. He had wanted it to end with clarity and absoluteness. He’d wanted vindication, yes, but, more than that, he’d wanted closure. Solid closure, which, either way, left no niggling ambiguity or debilitating doubt.

As it was, he would remain in limbo. Limbo for life.

And although he’d told Wilcox that he was fine with that, he wasn’t. Especially after this week. After Kerra.

The floor of his office had been swept clean of broken glass. He checked the file cabinet. The meaningless paperwork that had been scattered about the office had been arranged into meaningless stacks inside the drawers. The sofa was a carcass, but the stuffing that had been pulled out of the cushions had been gathered and removed. All the furniture was upright.

He hung his coat on the rack behind the door, walked over to his desk, and sat down behind it. The surface of it gleamed with polish, which was, to his knowledge, a first. He opened the drawers one by one. The bottom one contained basic office supplies. The middle held empty file folders and a roll of the plastic bags he used to preserve the photos he took of illicit rendezvous. The only thing remaining in the lap drawer was the magnifying glass.

He left it where it was and closed the drawer.

Swiveling his chair around, he noticed that the electrical outlet plate had been replaced, the Sheetrock patched and repainted.

He wondered who had watched the dirty videos on the flash drive. Jenks? Glenn? Wilcox himself? Wilcox had pretended not to know what the flash drive had on it, but Trapper trusted nothing anymore.

He stretched out his leg and dug in his jeans pocket for the other flash drive. He bounced it in his palm, thinking with self-deprecation how clever he’d believed himself to be, shipping it to Marianne and then pretending to Wilcox that his hidey-hole had been discovered and his own insurance policy heisted.

He’d played it up big, but just subtly enough to make the ruse convincing. Wilcox had been fooled. Even Kerra had fallen for the bluff.

Trapper bounced the flash drive one time more, then his hand fell still. He went still all over. He even stopped breathing.

Seconds later, he came out of his chair as though it had launched him. He left it spinning as he dashed from the office, barreled through the fire stairs door, and leaped the treads three at a time until he reached the first floor.