Practical Magic (Practical Magic #2)(64)
“I’ve already decided,” Sally says.
“To do what? Go to his motel? Get down on your knees and beg for mercy?”
“If I have to. Yes.”
“You’re not going,” Gillian says.
Sally looks at her sister, considering. Then she opens the car door.
“No way,” Gillian says. “You’re not going after him.”
“Are you threatening me?”
“Maybe I am.” She isn’t going to let her sister screw up her future just because Sally feels guilty about something she didn’t even do.
“Oh really?” Sally says. “How exactly do you plan to get to me? Do you think you could possibly ruin my life any more than you already have?”
Wounded, Gillian takes a step back.
“Try to understand,” Sally says. “I have to set this right. I can’t live this way.”
A storm has been predicted, and the wind has begun to rise; strands of Sally’s black hair whip across her face. Her eyes are luminous and much darker than usual; her mouth is as red as a rose. Gillian has never seen her sister look so disheveled, so unlike her usual self. At this moment Sally seems to be someone who would rush headlong into a river, when she hasn’t yet learned how to swim. She’d jump from the branches of the tallest tree, convinced all she needed for a safe landing were her outstretched arms and a silk shawl to billow out and catch the air as she fell.
“Maybe you should wait.” Gillian is trying her sweetest voice, the one that has talked her out of speeding tickets and bad affairs. “We can discuss it. We can decide together.”
But Sally has made her decision. She refuses to listen; she gets into her car, and short of jumping behind the Honda to block it, Gillian can’t do anything but stand and watch as Sally drives away. She watches for a long time, too long, because, in the end, all Gillian is watching is the empty road, and she’s seen that before. She’s seen it much too often.
There’s a lot to lose when you have something, when you’re foolish enough to let yourself care. Well, Gillian has gone ahead and done it by falling in love with Ben Frye, and her fate is now out of her hands. It’s riding along, sitting shotgun in that Honda with Sally, and all Gillian can do is pretend that nothing is wrong. When the girls come home, she says that Sally’s out running errands, and she orders from the Chinese take-out place on the Turnpike, then phones Ben and asks him to pick up dinner on his way over.
“I thought we were having lasagna,” Kylie says as she and Gideon set the table.
“Well, we’re not,” Gillian informs her. “And can’t you use paper plates and cups so we don’t have to mess around with washing dishes?”
When Ben arrives with dinner, Kylie and Antonia suggest they wait for their mom, but Gillian won’t hear of it. She starts dishing out shrimp with cashews and pork fried rice, the sort of carnivorous fare Sally would never allow on her table. The food is good, but it’s a dreadful dinner anyway. Everyone is out of sorts. Antonia and Kylie are worried, because their mother is never late, especially on a night when there’s packing left to do, and they both feel guilty eating shrimp and pork at her table. Gideon isn’t helping matters; he’s practicing his belching, which is driving everyone but Kylie completely crazy. Scott Morrison is the worst, gloomy as can be at the prospect of a week without Antonia. “What’s the point?” is his response to just about everything this evening, including “Would you like an eggroll?” and “Do you want orange soda or Pepsi?” Eventually Antonia bursts into tears and runs from the room when Scott answers the question of whether or not he’ll write while she’s away with his same old “What’s the point?” Kylie and Gideon have to plead Scott’s case through Antonia’s closed bedroom door, and just when Scott and Antonia have made up and are kissing in the hallway, Gillian decides enough is enough.
By now, Sally has probably spilled her guts to that investigator. For all Gillian knows, Gary Hallet has gone over to the mini-mart on the Turnpike that’s open all hours and rented a tape recorder so he can get her confession in her own words. Trapped with no recourse, Gillian has a major migraine, one that Tylenol couldn’t begin to cure. Every voice sounds like fingernails against a chalkboard, and she has absolutely no tolerance for even the smallest piece of happiness or joy. She can’t stand to see Antonia and Scott kissing, or hear Gideon and Kylie teasing each other. All evening she’s been avoiding Ben, because for her Scott Morrison’s philosophy really holds true: What is the point? Everything is about to be lost, and she can’t stop it; she might as well give up and call it a day. She might as well phone for a taxi and climb out the window, with her most important belongings tossed into a pillowcase. She knows for a fact that Kylie has plenty of money saved in her unicorn bank, and if Gillian borrowed some she could get a bus ticket halfway across the country. The only problem is, she can’t do that anymore. She has other considerations now; she has, for better or for worse, Ben Frye.
“It’s time for everyone to go home,” Gillian declares.
Scott and Gideon are sent away with promises of phone calls and postcards (for Scott) and boxes of saltwater taffy (for Gideon). Antonia cries a little as she watches Scott get into his mother’s car. Kylie sticks her tongue out at Gideon when he salutes, and she laughs when he takes off running through the damp evening, clomping along in his army boots, waking the squirrels that nest in the trees. Once those boys are gotten rid of, Gillian turns to Ben.