Pew(45)

Might not tell him ever //

            know I did not pay // don’t like the looks of them //

                           hate this time of year //

            slash their tires in the parking lot //

never ask forgiveness //                           why can’t I hate them //

         lie all the time about everything //      said I didn’t have any //

               I stole my sister’s clothes and threw them out //

I saw a murder and //

            take the Lord’s name in vain // I know who did //

            I want a divorce // don’t want to pay taxes for the //

can’t manage to forgive //

            all year I’ve wanted to run away // but I’m lazy //

                           I watch pornography //

                        really do hate her and can’t stop //

didn’t really hear God’s voice when I said I did //

                                                                        I take more than my //

            she thinks I’m clean //

told my wife I was on business when //               pay for sex //

            don’t want to give money to the poor //   don’t trust //

not sure if the Bible really tells us that all men are //

                                    what if there’s just no God //

                  I resist my husband //            I’m glad he’s dead //

we were both drunk // I despise the new preacher //

         it’s a struggle to believe // I steal money from my father’s //

no one knows that I’m the one who //

         I wish I was dead // made up speaking in //

don’t love my children equally // I lied //

         I hide my money because //

afraid everyone can tell that she’s not //

      never actually read the Bible //

               women and can’t figure why I shouldn’t //

I have been sleeping with one of //

      lied to //         I’m not really sure the festival is //

I know I’m not fair to // can’t stop being glad he’s gone //

want to have sex with almost anyone but my husband //

      I do not want to forgive him //                     premarital //

               cries every day at her desk and I pretend not to hear //

      dug up my neighbor’s tulip bulbs //

            a beer this morning //            I wish I was dead //

might never forgive him //

      every year I try to figure out who said what //

                                       blame them //

forced her to //

               pretended I didn’t know why they didn’t bloom //

      hate this stupid thing and //                  I threatened him //

I don’t think I’ll ever really forgive her //         even right now //