My Lovely Wife(93)

I think of Kekona, wonder if she is my friend, if she would believe me if she were here. We’ve known each other for at least five years, and we have relaxed into an easy banter at our lessons. Even when she misses a lesson she still pays, and when she has a party she always invites us. Does this make her a friend? I don’t know anymore.

I am not used to being this alone. For seventeen years, Millicent has been with me, and for most of that time so were the kids. I’ve had a family to worry about, to worry about me. After the first few years back in Hidden Oaks, my old friends started to get married, move away, start their own families. It didn’t seem to matter that they weren’t around. I was busy enough without them.

Now I see my mistake. Focusing only on my family has left me isolated and alone, except for one old friend who can never know the truth.



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My pity party is broken up by Claire Wellington, who I bet hates parties. She’s that one who checks her watch, sips a glass of water, and waits for an escape. I have no idea if this is correct, but I believe it anyway.

She holds another news conference at five o’clock, just in time for the evening news. Today her suit is an ugly color of grey, like flannel, though it isn’t, because this is Florida and that would be ridiculous. Her hair is dull, and so is her skin. Claire is not getting much sleep and should probably stop working so much.

“As everyone knows, we have a team of people working to identify the women found in the church basement. Twenty-three-year-old Jessica Sharpe was the first to be identified. Now we have identified the other two.”

She takes a deep breath, and so do I.

Easels are set up on either side of her. Both pictures are covered, and a uniformed policeman reveals the first.

I am right. It’s Beth.

She is wearing no makeup in the picture, and her hair is pulled back into a ponytail. This makes her look about twelve.

“Beth Randall was twenty-four, originally from Alabama, and she was most recently employed as a waitress at the Hidden Oaks Country Club. Not long ago, her parents received a letter they thought was from her. Whoever wrote it claimed Beth was moving up to Montana to work on a farm.”

Millicent. I would know her sense of humor anywhere. The only thing she hated more than fishing boats was farms.

“At the same time, her employer received a letter saying that she had a family emergency and was returning home to Alabama to help. Neither knew their letter was a fake.”

Claire pauses for a moment as the cameras zoom in on the photo of Beth. She then turns to the other easel. I still think it must be Petra. I cannot think of anyone else who has disappeared or moved away. And I haven’t checked on Petra in a long time. If I could have left the house, I might have.

The policeman unveils the photo.

This time, I am wrong. It is not Petra.

Crystal.

The woman who used to work for us.

The one who kissed me.



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I’d never even thought of her. Now that I think about it, I should have, but I haven’t seen Crystal in more than a year. We haven’t been in contact at all since she stopped working for us.

Did Millicent know about the kiss? Is that why she killed Crystal? Or was she just collateral damage, part of Millicent’s bigger plan?

I may never know. Of all the questions I would ask Millicent, those would not be in the top ten.

But my guess is that Crystal told Millicent. She was tortured into it.

I do not want to think about that.

The press conference is still on, and Claire introduces a man whose name I recognize from a documentary about Owen. He is a rather famous profiler, now retired, who is now an independent consultant and has written several true-crime books. This man—this tall, thin, decrepit-looking man—steps up to the podium and says he has never encountered a killer like me.

“He kills women he knows in a peripheral way, such as this cashier, and he also has created a separate persona, a deaf man named Tobias, that he uses to find more victims. The variety of methods used may be what has kept him from being discovered for so long.”

Or maybe it’s all a lie. But no one says that.

Piece by piece, my life is destroyed, like it was never real at all. It was just a line of dominoes set up by Millicent. The faster they fall, the less likely it seems I can get myself out of this.

And still I watch.

I watch until my eyes blur and my head feels like its crumbling into my neck.

Definitive proof. This is what I need. Something like DNA evidence on a murder weapon, or video of Millicent killing one of these women.

I just don’t have it.



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The phone wakes me up. In the middle of watching my personal apocalypse, I dozed off. Kekona’s theater seats are just too comfortable.

I pick up my phone and hear Andy’s voice.

“Still breathing?”

“Barely.”

“I can’t believe they haven’t caught you.”

“You underestimate my intelligence.” On TV, they are showing a picture of me at my high school prom.

“More like dumb luck,” he says.

On top of everything else, there is the guilt. Andy believes in me because he doesn’t know the half of it.

Another profiler is on TV. He has a deep, twangy accent that makes me want to turn the channel. But I do not.