Mists of the Serengeti(44)
“You go ahead,” Jack said to us. “I’ll be in shortly. I’m almost done with her.” He patted the sleeping calf in the stall.
“Twende, Scholastica.” Bahati held his hand out for her. “Let’s put Aristurtle in his new home and see if Goma approves.”
“How is the calf?” I peered into the stall as Bahati and Scholastica headed back to the house.
“She’s fine. Just making sure this cut doesn’t get infected.” He flushed it with some kind of medicinal solution, applied salve, and bandaged it up again.
“Poor thing.” I knelt beside her and stroked the abrasions on her skin. She stirred and opened her big, brown eyes.
“Thankfully, those are superficial. She’ll be good as new in a few days. Won’t you?” Jack nuzzled her. “But you need to rest right now. That’s right. Close your eyes. You’re safe now.” He rubbed her hide in broad, gentle strokes, as the light of the setting sun fell in golden beams around them.
Suddenly I was in the presence of a flesh-and-blood man that no book boyfriend could ever live up to. He wore a crown of dried twigs and hay, but he was more royal, more magnificent than all the jeweled kings in all the fairy tales because he walked in real life—mortal, vulnerable, broken, jaded, but still a king—with the heart of a lion, and the soul of an angel. I ached to touch him, to feel his golden energy. My hand moved heedlessly toward him, the sides of our palms touching briefly as he soothed the calf. It was the softest sweep of skin against skin, a little nibble for my hungry heart before I withdrew.
Anyone else would have brushed it off as accidental, but not Jack. He knew. Perhaps because he was just as acutely aware of the currents that spiraled between us. His gaze shifted to my face, searching my eyes. I don’t know what he saw in them, but the air between us felt locked and loaded, like it was rigged with dynamite—one false move and we’d both get blown to bits. I didn’t care though, not in that moment. His closeness was like a drug, lulling me to euphoria. I drifted toward him, slowly, helplessly, until my lips tasted the full, intoxicating essence of his.
Kissing Jack was like kissing a slumbering lion. He barely moved, but I could sense the raw power behind his restraint. And deeper still, lurked something wild and dangerous, something that could obliterate me if unleashed. But I wanted it, because it was magnificent, because it swirled over the loss and pain running through his veins, because it was the part of him that was alive. It made me want to thread my fingers through his thick, tawny hair even though I knew it was a bad, bad idea.
Jack didn’t respond, but he didn’t push me away either, and that was okay with me. There is special kind of hell that comes with remembering, in full-blown Technicolor detail, a kiss that never happened. And I had just freed myself from it. I pulled back, my eyes still closed, knowing that I had just stolen an epic moment from life. Someday when I looked back, I would smile in the middle of the street and no one would know why, because it was just for me, so that I could say to myself:
Once in Africa, I kissed a king . . .
I got up, smoothed my dress, and walked away, leaving Jack kneeling by the calf.
“Rodel,” he said, just as I was about to step outside.
Rodelle. Another thing I would always remember—the way he said my name, elle-vating it beyond the ordinary.
He was between me and the exit before I could turn around. He swung me into the circle of his arms and kissed me—not softly or tentatively, like I had kissed him, but hungry and demanding, crushing my body to his. His mouth moved wildly over mine, his tongue exploring the recesses of my mouth, as if I had stolen a piece of him, and he wanted it back. I tasted the whole universe in Jack’s kiss—the blue heat of spinning stars, the birth of distant suns, atoms buzzing and colliding and fusing.
And just like that, in an old red barn at the foothills of Mount Kilimanjaro, I found the elusive magic I had glimpsed only between the pages of great love stories. It fluttered around me like a newborn butterfly and settled in a corner of my heart. I held my breath, afraid to exhale, for fear it would slip out, never to be found again.
When Jack lifted his head, my pulse was beating hard and fast at the base of my throat. He traced it tenderly, in gentle fascination, before meeting my eyes.
“Rodel,” he said my name again.
I tried to mask the swell of emotions running through me, but he caught the flicker of something, because his expression turned grim.
“Come with me,” he said, leading me outside by my hand.
We walked past the house, in the soft half-light between afternoon and evening, to the giant acacia tree I’d seen him standing under, the night of the thunderstorm.
“Everyone I love ends up here,” he said, pointing to the four tombstones at the base of the tree. His grandfather. His father. His mother. His daughter. “And this here is my spot.” He marked out an area next to Lily’s grave. “I was born here, and this is where I’ll die. God knows, there are days when all I want is to be with Lily, wherever she is. When I met her mother, I was young and naive. I thought we could make it work. But not many women are cut out for life on the farm, removed from everything and everyone. At first Sarah was taken by it, then she tolerated it, then she hated it. It took away everything good between us. After she left, I vowed never to put anyone else through that again.” He shoved his hands into his pockets and turned around.