Hotshot Doc(96)

He shakes his head and his finger presses to his lips as he slowly pushes the diaphragm of his stethoscope a few millimeters to the left. I’m splayed out on my back on our bed with my shirt tugged up to my bra, trying and failing to lie still.

Matt’s expression softens, a little spark flares in his eyes, and I know he’s got it. He’s listening to our baby’s heartbeat. I’ve heard it a few times, but the moments in the doctor’s office are always too fleeting and too clinical. My OBGYN is usually busy adjusting the settings on the ultrasound machine, checking the baby’s vitals, printing photos. It’s always over before I’ve really had a good listen, but now that I’m a little over four months pregnant, our baby should be big enough for us to hear the heartbeat at home, just like this.

Matt glances down at his watch and I know he’s counting the beats per minute. He’s checking the baby’s heart rate and listening for any murmurs or abnormalities. Even in this setting, he can’t resist the urge to check up on his most precious patient: his son. He nods a few seconds later and I know everything is as it should be.

I release a deep breath—one I didn’t realize I was holding—as Matt tugs the earpiece off. His other hand stays steady with the diaphragm in place. “Here, listen. He’s moving a lot, but you should be able to hear it.”

I place the earbuds in my ears as fast as possible, but I’m not quick enough. I can’t hear a thing. Wait! I hear— No. That’s my bowel.

I frown and shake my head. Matt adjusts the diaphragm a smidge to the left.

“There?”

“No.”

He adjusts it again and—there! I can hear it!

I grab his wrist to still his movements. Our eyes lock. My other hand flies to my mouth. There’s no doubt about what I’m hearing. It’s like a galloping horse echoing through the earpiece, the most distinct, awe-inspiring sound in the world: a tiny heart beating inside me.

“It’s so fast,” I say, amazed.

Tears collect in the corners of my eyes.

Matt nods. “I counted 152 beats per minute, and no murmurs.”

I smile then lean my head back on my pillow and close my eyes, listening. I could stay here all day. At this stage, our little boy is still so small that most of the time I can’t feel any sign of him at all. Listening to his steady heartbeat is a reassuring reminder that he’s in there, hanging out right where he should be.

I feel Matt’s hand flatten over my small bump and then he whispers something I can’t quite hear. I wink one eye open and watch him as he brushes his hand lovingly back and forth across my skin, as if he’s touching our little boy.

“Your mom is listening to your heart right now, so you have to hold still,” he says. I smile and reach down to ruffle his hair. He presses a kiss to my bump and then glances up. “I’ve been thinking about what we should name him.”

“Oh?” I tilt my head to the side and take out the earpiece. “Josie has quite an opinion on that. She presents me with new ideas every day. Half of them are just the names of characters from her books. The latest round included: Peeta, Cedric, and Dumbledore.”

Matt smiles. “I’d like to name him Thomas.”

My gut clenches. “After my father?”

“Yes. What do you think?”

“I love it,” I say, my tone betraying how touched I am that he would suggest it. “But Josie will be so disappointed we aren’t using one of her suggestions.”

He laughs. “Why don’t we let her pick the middle name?”

I groan. “The power will go straight to her head.”

Just then a chorus of screams crashes through our closed bedroom door. Josie and four of her friends are having a sleepover to celebrate her birthday. It’s been planned for weeks. She’s been talking my ear off about it. I had a very specific list of items to purchase at the grocery store after work: popcorn, chips, soda, candy, and birthday cake. I snuck apples in the cart too and Josie shoved them to the back of the fridge to make more room for soda. They’ll all need to go straight to the dentist first thing in the morning.

It’s currently half past nine, and there’s no end in sight. After making pizza and feeding them dinner, Matt and I decided to hole up in our bedroom in an effort to save ourselves and (our ears) from five very chatty, very loud high school girls. Since then, we’ve snuck out twice. The first time, Matt and I needed to steal more of their pizza. We found them sitting on their pallets in the living room prank calling boys from their grade. Hilarious. I might have had them pass me the phone so I could participate but would firmly deny that in a court of law.

The second time we ventured out, it was because they were all screaming bloody murder. Matt and I rushed out to make sure everyone’s limbs were still intact. We found all five of them huddled around Josie’s phone watching ghost videos on YouTube and trying to scare the crap out of each another. Matt and I watched one of the videos too. I pursed my lips and swatted my hand, tacking on a heartfelt “That is totally fake!”, but to be honest, I’ll be sleeping with the light on tonight and Matt will be on ghost duty.

Now, they’re at it again. Their laughter and shouts have hit an all-time high.

The stethoscope is forgotten. I need to teach this little baby how to execute a stealth mission. I roll off the bed like a massive walrus dumping itself into the ocean then scurry to the door in time to hear one of them shout, “Did he seriously just text you ‘hi’ and nothing else?! What are you supposed to say to that?”