Geekerella (Starfield #1)(69)

I strain a smile. “We’re doing great.” I show her my phone. “Found it.”

The last message I sent—that Brian sent—is harsh, a hard farewell. But the thing is—and this is what kills me—it’s right. I can’t see her anymore. What did Elle say—that this was the impossible universe? I had scoffed at that, but now I’m not so sure it’s silly. My life is impossible. My luck is impossible.

And me and Elle? Together? That’s probably the most impossible thing of all.

Gail gasps. “No way! Where was it?”

“Pocket,” I lie. Gail wilts with relief.

“Thank god.” She straightens. “Well, you ready?”

“Ready for…?” I try to keep my vision straight as I welcome another fan, toting what looks like an action figure of me. Good god, I’m an action figure now.

“The whole point of this con?” Gail shakes her head and takes me by the elbow. “Come on, Carmindor. You’ve got a contest to judge.”





I SMOOTH THE YARDS AND YARDS of night-sky fabric to disguise my trembling hands. Through the smudges in the mirror, Sage frets with my hair. It never does what anyone wants it to do, and today is no exception—it’s not staying in its braid at all. When a lock falls out again, she throws up her hands.

“I’m sorry,” I say. “I should’ve warned you my hair sucks.” I try to thread my fingers through the strands to remove the rest of the braid, but they wrap around my fingers and the more I tug, the knottier the knots get.

“Ten minutes!” yells a stagehand. “All contestants to the wings—in order!”

Sage curses.

The other Amaras and Eucis and Carmindors—some genderbent, some AU, some strictly canon—shuffle around us and out of the bathroom until only one other Amara cosplay remains. I wonder if my Carmindor is in the lot. He has to be, right? He has to be in a contest or on a panel here or something. Otherwise he never would’ve texted me about the con in the first place.

The other Amara fixes her black lipstick in the mirror and pauses. She glances over. “Oh my gosh. I’m sorry, this is probably super creepy but…are you the girl who writes Rebelgunner?”

“I—um—yeah?” I’m too shocked to be embarrassed.

“Oh my god, I love your blog! I loved it before it got popular!” She envelops me in a hug, even though I don’t know her at all. Is she a commenter? Or just a reader? Does it matter? It feels like a real hug. Friendly. I hug her back.

“I recognized you from your avatar—I hope that’s not weird.” She steps back and looks at my costume. Yards and yards of Amara’s fabric, and the scraps of my father’s jacket as the shoulder pads, golden tassels dangling. “Is this your costume? The one you were talking about in your post?”

I hesitate. “Sorta. My dad’s, and my mom’s. Kind of a mashup. It doesn’t matter, though. This is all just so…so cool.” I say, motioning out of the bathroom to the larger con. “It’s everything Dad hoped it would be.”

A thoughtful look crosses the girl’s face. “Your dad?”

“He started ExcelsiCon,” I reply. “Well, one of the people who did—”

“Wait. You’re Robin Wittimer’s daughter?”

“I—yeah.” I nod. “He would’ve loved your outfit, by the way. I mean, it’s amazing. You look like Amara.”

“Thank you, but…” She flicks her eyes down the length of my costume, from the torn uniform to the broken starwing badge to the noticeable lack of a crown, and then, to my utter surprise, she plucks her own crown from her head.

“There.” She rests it on my brow. “Better.”

“What?” I touch it gingerly. “I can’t take this—”

She holds up a hand. “Don’t say no. I’ve been coming to this con for years. I love it. So consider it a thank-you.”

In the mirror, behind my mess of hair, Sage’s face flickers. I wait for her to complain about a new crown throwing off her whole look, but instead she snaps her fingers.

“That’s it!” she cries.

“What’s it?”

She digs a pack of makeup removal wipes out of her bag. “Wipe that makeup off. I’ve got a new idea.”

“But—”

“Shush! We’re against the clock. The contest starts in literally ten minutes.” Then she turns to our new friend. “Do you think you can get us a—a starwing? Or maybe a gold rubber band?”

“I can get you more than that,” she replies and hurries out of the bathroom.

I give Sage a strange look. “What are you doing?”

“Do you trust me?”

“Is that a trick question?”

“Do. You. Trust. Me?” She enunciates slowly.

What can I say? “Yes. Of course.”

Behind her, the bathroom door bangs open, bringing in a flood of Carmindors and Amaras and Eucis and Nox Kings. So many Starfield characters, crowding around me, some I recognize from the message boards, new faces and old. They pick off pieces of themselves, handing them to Sage.

“If it wasn’t for Mr. Wittimer…” I hear them say.