Every Single Secret(52)

All of the boys at Mount Olive Christian were greasy haired and acted weird when they got around the Super Tramps, whooping and giggling and clobbering each other like a bunch of chimpanzees.

None of us girls had more than three or four pairs of underwear to begin with, and even those we had to wash in the sink just to have enough to make it through the school week.

If Omega was going to give a boy her panties, I’d seen enough TV to know she would never, ever give him a faded-out pair like that. She’d give him filmy, delicate, lacy panties—the kind none of us had ever owned and, if we did, we sure wouldn’t throw away on some greasy-haired chimpanzee.

Even if Mrs. Bobbie was dumb enough to think Omega had done that, Omega knew I hadn’t done anything. So why wouldn’t she speak to me? Why was she angry? Didn’t she understand we were both being falsely accused?

She had to know Chantal had set the whole thing up. Omega knew everything that went on in this house. She ran the place. Orchestrated every event that went on inside these walls, every change in temperature, every passing storm, every ray of sun.

I knew somehow, even though I was young, that it had to do with the fact that Mr. Al liked to hang out at the clubhouse with us. That must have made Mrs. Bobbie really jealous. Which made sense but also seemed odd to me, because Mrs. Bobbie was an adult who could do anything she wanted. We girls got stretched-out hand-me-downs and mac and cheese out of the box, and she got weekly manicures, bubble baths, and Pepperidge Farm cookies. Plus, she and Mr. Al had been married for a long time, over ten years, I thought. Seemed like she wouldn’t mind him spending an hour or two with the kids he was house dad to. That was his job.

I shoved my binder in my book bag, rocked back on my heels, and pushed my new glasses up my nose. I had to do something—something big and real to prove to Omega that I’d never betray her. To make her know that her friendship was more important to me than anything else in the world. But I would wait until the time was right, like I’d done with Chantal and the stolen food. I would wait until an opportunity presented itself, then I would make my move.

I went to sleep easily that night—Chantal’s regular jolts didn’t bother me. Her whispers—Fat Fuck, Four Eyes, Egg Salad—barely registered as I nestled deep into the warm covers. The girl was beneath me in a literal sense and a figurative one too, I thought with satisfaction. And she would be sorry for ruining my friendships with Omega and Shellie and Tré. She would be very, very sorry.



Two weeks later, we had a brilliant blue-sky October Saturday morning. Orange leaves drifted and the smell of far-off smoke in the cool air lent an air of expectancy. For most of the girls, the anticipation had everything to do with the camping trip.

For me, it meant destroying Chantal.

Mrs. Bobbie had assigned Omega and me a list of chores as long as our arms. Omega had torn the list, thrust half of it at me, and gone to work spraying Lysol on the grout in Mrs. Bobbie’s pink bathroom without even a glance my way.

She was still mad. But she’d also stopped talking to Tré and Shellie, which made me feel somewhat better. I was more determined than ever to bring our leader back to life. To see the spark in her eyes again. To hear the house filled with her mocking laughter. Things had grown so gloomy.

I’d found an excuse to walk to the main office—picking up a box of fabric that had been sent to Mrs. Bobbie from some church in Atlanta—and was dawdling near the small parking lot. I was wearing a new sweater—pale-blue angora with a white stripe across the chest. Well, it wasn’t new. It was one Omega had outgrown and thrown into the box in the hallway closet. I’d seen her do it one afternoon, and the minute she’d disappeared back inside her room, I’d tiptoed down the hall and fished it out. Now, I ran my fingers lightly over a downy sleeve. The day was too warm for it, but I didn’t care. I felt like the new Daphne wearing it.

I watched the girls who were going on the camping trip swarm around the three white vans parked in the lot. They dropped their duffels and sleeping bags and pillows in a pile that grew rapidly. They clumped in groups, one or two separating and joining another group, chattering excitedly. They didn’t seem to notice me, and I didn’t join them or wave or anything. I wasn’t mad or even really disappointed anymore about missing the trip. I was thinking.

This wouldn’t be my big moment. I hadn’t come up with that one yet—the final, glorious act of revenge that would bring Chantal to her knees and show her she’d better never mess with me again. But the camping trip . . . it did provide an opportunity.

I went inside the office and told Miss Lacey, the lady who answered the phones and sorted the mail, that I was there to pick up Mrs. Bobbie’s package. She went into the back to get it, and I glanced around the office. It was done up in a Western theme, with horseshoes hung on the wall and cactus plants in pots. The curtains were made of red bandanas stitched together. By Mrs. Bobbie, probably.

A large omelet flecked with bits of orange cheese and pink ham sat on a paper plate, a few bites taken out of it by Miss Lacey. I heard a thump from the back room and quickly lunged forward, scooping up a handful of egg and cheese and ham and dropping it into the pocket of my jeans.

Miss Lacey reentered the room, box first, huffing. “Can you carry this all the way home, Daphne?” she asked. “It’s a booger.”

“Yes, ma’am.”

I took the box and pushed against the front door with my rear end. The sun nearly blinded me. It really was too hot for this sweater. I set the box down on the porch and leaned against the hitching post. The mountain of camping gear had grown substantially, and now there were two houseparents milling around the vans too. Mr. Barry, the marine, and his wife, Mrs. Vessa.