Every Single Secret(20)

I held my breath, watching her. She tucked a water bottle into a small backpack, then slung it over her shoulders and took off at a brisk clip, crossing the yard and then the drive, moving in the direction of the mountain.

After a second or two, I pushed the knife between the cracked barn doors, hoping no one would venture in and find it on the floor. Then I followed her.

The trail was astonishingly steep. A twisted path—merely a rut in a few places—that seemed to climb forever. I stayed far enough back that Mrs. Sieffert wouldn’t hear me, which was easy enough to do, because apparently she was in excellent shape and covered an impressive amount of ground with a practiced stride. As for me, after three days of no running, I felt like my lungs had atrophied.

Trees crowded the path, blocking the sky and turning the light around me gray. The leaves were close to peak color—oaks and maples and dogwoods in blazing yellows and reds—with hemlocks and ferns and moss on the fallen trees providing the evergreen accents. The woods smelled faintly of smoke, from campers, most likely. The musty scent made me queasy.

I never could quite believe that people did that voluntarily—drove to the middle of nowhere, pitched a tent, and sat around a fire all night. The people who ran the girls’ ranch took the girls up to Amicalola Falls once a year for a while. I hadn’t gone, my first year there, and then after that they’d cancelled the trip indefinitely. I hadn’t felt like I was missing anything. Even now that I was an adult, the mountains spooked me, with their overhangs and gaps and twisting paths. You never knew what was just around the next corner.

After what seemed like forever, the land leveled out, and I stepped out onto a wide rock ledge. It, in turn, opened onto a stunning vista. The spreading ranges of southern Appalachia. A sea of mountains at my feet. The wind was fierce up top—it whipped my hair into my mouth and stung my eyes—but the sun was strong too, beaming some of that late Georgia heat, now unimpeded by the canopy of trees. I squinted one eye in the light. The woman was standing on the far side of the ledge, hands on her hips, gazing out over the view. She seemed perilously close to the edge.

Alarm filled me, and I had a nearly irresistible urge to run up and grab her by the arm.

I blew out my breath and forced myself to look away from her, out over the scene.

There was no single range that I could identify, no straight line of mountains like on a map. These mountains were different. They moved like ocean waves. An endless undulation of green and gray spreading out in every direction, hiding towns and houses and farms, rivers and creeks and waterfalls, between their slopes.

I turned from the view just as Mrs. Sieffert tipped up her water bottle and caught sight of me. Self-conscious, I raised my hand in greeting. She lowered the bottle and stared at me. I waited, snapping the band on my wrist nervously. She wasn’t exactly waving me over, but didn’t look annoyed either. Then, just as I’d made up my mind that I should head back down the mountain, she started toward me. I straightened, tucked my tangled hair behind my ears, but she stopped several yards away and shaded her eyes with one hand.

“I didn’t mean to disturb you,” I called out. “You seemed like you knew where you were going, so I followed. But I’ll go, if you’d like to be alone. I know Dr. Cerny—”

“It doesn’t matter what he says,” she broke in. “We can do what we want.” Then she grinned—a bright flash of white teeth that made her look at least twenty years younger. And she was beautiful. Definitely in her midsixties, with barely lined skin and light, arresting eyes. I wondered, suddenly, what her husband could’ve done to make her so sad.

“You thirsty?” She held up her bottle. “Take it. I have another.”

I approached her, accepted the bottle, and gulped down half of it in one swig. “Thank you. That’s one hell of a hike.”

“You’re not a hiker?”

“No. I’m a runner, actually. I mean, I run around a track for exercise. But I mostly sprint. So that”—I jutted my chin in the direction of the trail—“nearly killed me.”

“Yes, up here you find the mountain challenges you in ways you’d never expect. Anyway, you can’t set out with no provisions, not under any circumstances. It may not be the Rockies, but things can still go wrong really quickly up here.”

I averted my eyes from her penetrating gaze. Things going wrong on mountains wasn’t something I liked to think about.

“So you don’t think we’ll get in trouble for talking?” I asked.

“Not if we don’t tell.” She smiled again. “Your husband’s in his first session?”

“Fiancé. And yes, he is.”

“I’m Glenys, by the way,” she said.

“Daphne.”

“Nice to meet you, Daphne.”

I studied her, trying not to think about how I’d spied on her and her husband. How I’d watched them fight and her cry and how I’d defended my eavesdropping to Heath.

“It’s Sieffert, right?” I said to shut up my mind.

“Yes.”

She looked out over the panorama. “My husband’s doing his required reading. So I thought I would come up here. Collect my thoughts. It’s very peaceful up here. Wild, but peaceful.”

She pulled off her bandana and ran her fingers through her hair, and I sent her a sidelong glance. The woman seemed so calm, so together, like she had a handle on this place. I wondered if her marriage had been a rocky one for years or if she and her husband had just recently encountered a new, insurmountable problem that could only be solved with the help of therapy. Was it an affair? Some knotty financial issue? She looked so placid now, it was hard to believe I’d seen her sobbing last night. Maybe she had that much confidence in Cerny’s ability to fix her marriage.