Drawn to You (Lover to Stepbrother)(4)

At least I thought I did.

I’m looking back over the words I just wrote, trying to hum a tune for the lyrics when Nicole and her best friend Sissy sits down in front of us giggling and looking to the back of the room. I saw Nicole and Colin leaving before the last class started and it doesn’t take a genius to know what the two of them were doing.

“So, you fucked him?” Sissy asks. Sissy, just like Nicole, has blonde hair, blue eyes, big boobs, and long legs. Just two of the Goddesses who walk the halls.

“Yeah, and fucking hell Sissy, that boy can fuck. I swear my vagina felt so full of his cock that I have no idea how he got the whole thing in.” Sissy giggles and I roll my eyes.

“He’s that big?” Nicole nods.

“My toes curled when I got off and, trust me, I saw stars. Best fuck ever.” She annunciates each word, making sure they are clearly heard.

“Wow, you lucky bitch.”

“I know.”

“Okay, I know the two bimbo-queens just said he fucked bimbo queen number one but I still go by what I said,” Karen whispers in my ear.

“So, you think Colin is crushing on me but fucking other girls?” I can’t help but smile at her; it makes no sense.

“Men are weird. The only time they aren’t going to fuck another girl is when they are in a relationship, but I guess some still fuck other girls when they do have a girlfriend but those guys are just assholes.”

“And you are saying Colin isn’t one?”

“Maybe,” she says, lost in thought.

“Yeah, I’m convinced now that you explained it all to me. Colin and I are going to fall madly in love and live happily ever after now that you convinced me he likes me even though he fucks around.”

“Do you know how many times we’ve said fuck in the last five minutes?”

“Probably a lot.” I lean back in my seat.

“We do like saying it.”

“Or maybe it’s our self-conscious telling us we need to get fucked.”

“Probably.” We both laugh. “We need to lose our V-cards before college or I swear I will feel like a total loser.”

“You saying you don’t feel like one already?” She nudges my shoulder with hers.

“Ha, ha, ha. Just because we are classified as nerds doesn’t make us ones. I think we’re hot, just not in an obvious way. We need to expand our horizons and fuck someone and soon,” Karen says, completely serious.

“What about…”

“If you say Phillip, I will hurt you,” she interrupts me and I pretend to zip my lips and throw away the key. “They say the first time is always shit so I may just find someone with no strings attached. Like…” She looks around the room. “Aaron.” My mouth hangs open.

“Aaron as in Aaron Scott? Colin’s best friend? He is a complete tool. He’s, like, the class clown, no one can really take him seriously.” I try and convince her not to go there. “He is a player.”

“Exactly. He knows what he’s doing and there would be no feelings involved. Just straight A fucking.” I roll my eyes.

“Come on, how many movies and TV shows have we watched that involve no string attached relationships? It doesn’t work.”

“It would only be one night and that’s it. I haven’t even fully decided on Aaron, I was just picking someone at random.” I turn around and look to Aaron and, yeah, he is good looking. Messy brown hair and brown eyes. With him being on the football team, he obviously has a good body, but he’s a joker.

“Do you really want to lose your virginity to someone like him? Shouldn’t your first time be special?”

“Hey, missy, you want to lose your virginity status, too. First times are never what they say in books. If you find Mr. Right, then yeah, it’s a bonus, but we haven’t and we don’t know when we will and like hell I will be a virgin when I find him. Knowing my luck, I’ll be in my twenties and he’ll want to be with a girl who knows what she is doing.” Everything she is saying is exactly how I feel. I was hoping before I graduated high school I would have ended up in some sort of a relationship and lost my virginity to them, even if we did break up. I at least wanted to give it to someone I connected with in some way, but like hell am I going to wait and end up a thirty-something virgin who ends up too scared to have sex because she waited too long. That’s why I made sure I got the implant last year, just in case it ever did happen.

I want to make sure I’m fully prepared.

“Whoever you pick, just make sure he respects you and doesn’t treat you like a blow-up doll.” She sticks out her hand for me to shake.

“Deal.” We shake hands. “So, who are you going to fuck?” I don’t mean to, but my eyes wander back to Colin. His eyes connect with mine and I know this time I’m not seeing things. His gaze stays trained on mine.

“Hello, class.” Mrs. Prepp, the principal’s secretary, walks into class. “Those organizing the talent show or participating, please head to the gym now.” Karen and I stand up, gathering our things.

“Oh, sweet, we get to get out of classes. I guess this isn’t going to be so bad after all,” I hear Aaron say and I turn around just to bang into someone’s hard chest, their hands going to my arms, steadying me.