Darkest Before Dawn (KGI series)(79)

If that made him a primitive, chest-beating beast of a caveman, so be it. He’d certainly been called worse.

“What are you thinking?” he asked softly. “Did I hurt you? Do you regret what we did?”

Her eyes immediately became fierce. “No. Never! I will never regret this. It’s just that . . .”

Her eyes lowered and shame burned red on her cheeks.

He tilted her chin up with a gentle finger. “What is it, Honor? You must know you can tell me anything.”

“Even if what I say breaks a promise I made to you?”

This time his brow furrowed. She hadn’t made many promises. Only not to ask for another thing. Ah. That must be what she was grappling with. She had another request, but she felt honor bound not to ask because she’d promised she wouldn’t ask for more and she was a woman who kept her word.

“Tell me what you want,” he said, stroking his fingertip along her jaw until she leaned into his touch, closing her eyes with contentment.

“I know I said I would ask for nothing more than for you to make love to me, but . . .”

“But?” he prompted.

“But I would very much like to touch you. To make love to you,” she said earnestly. “I want to taste you. I want to give you as much pleasure as you gave me.”

He groaned. “Baby, if you don’t think you gave me pleasure, then we need to have a serious come-to-Jesus meeting right now. I have never felt more pleasure in my life than when we made love. Never.”

Her eyes widened with surprise. “But, Hancock, I was a virgin. I had no clue what I was doing! How could it possibly have been enjoyable to you?”

“Trust me, baby. If it had been any better, I’d be a dead man.”

Her eyes laughed at him, but then she sobered. “Would you mind so terribly much if I touched you and tasted you like you did me?”

“Men would kill for an opportunity for what you’re offering, Honor. I’m no exception. But I want a promise from you in exchange.”

She sent him a puzzled look.

“You will do nothing that hurts you. If I even think you’re in pain, it ends. I won’t budge on this, Honor,” he said, his tone grave so she’d know he was utterly serious. He didn’t want to piss her off, but neither did he want her in pain while trying to pleasure him, for f*ck’s sake. He who didn’t deserve anything but hatred and cold disdain from this beautiful woman, inside and out. Who shone like a radiant ray of sunshine, warming places in him that had only ever felt cold and darkness.

But she only smiled, her eyes lighting, her expression so giving and generous that it humbled him.

“I promise,” she said solemnly. “But Hancock, just so you know? Getting to touch you and give you even a tenth of the pleasure you gave me will never hurt me. I want it too badly for pain to even register. Give me this. Give yourself this,” she added gently, almost as if she knew he felt he didn’t deserve it but that he also wanted it like he wanted to breathe.

Then her eyelashes fluttered and cast downward, her cheeks a dusty pink as though she were embarrassed.

Once more he slid his fingers underneath her chin, coaxing it upward so he could see into her eyes and see what bothered her.

“Tell me what is frightening you, Honor,” he said, injecting every ounce of patience and tenderness he was capable of into his voice.

She swallowed and then took a deep breath. “I’m not sure how to please you, and I want that very much, Hancock. You gave me so much. I never imagined it could be like that. I don’t deceive myself into believing I can give you even a fraction of what you gave me, but I want you to feel good. I want what I do to you to feel good. But I don’t know how.”

The last came out in frustration, almost anger. Self-directed anger.

“Can you show me how to please you?” she whispered. “Can you show me what to do and how to do it?”

Already moisture beaded the tip of his dick, and her gaze was drawn to the pearls, seemingly fascinated. Almost as if she couldn’t help it, drawn to the sight, she leaned down and delicately licked one of the drops away.

His entire cock jerked and his hips bucked, curses tearing from his lips. His fingers formed tight fists, gathering the sheets in his hands as he held on for dear life.

She immediately pulled away, her eyes stricken, tears welling in her eyes.

“I’m sorry,” she rushed to say, as if fearing she’d made him angry. Then she pounded her fist against her leg, causing him to instantly catch her hand to ensure she didn’t reopen the stitches at her wrists. He rubbed his thumb caressingly over her skin and then brought her hand to his mouth and kissed each knuckle. Every fingertip, drawing each into his mouth and suckling them.

Then he allowed each finger deeper entrance, licking at the tip and then the underneath of her smooth fingers, taking it to the back of his throat and then swallowing around it.

Her eyes widened in sudden understanding. He was showing her how to please him. How to take his cock in her mouth and please him.

“Honor, you did nothing wrong,” he said, not recognizing the tender caress that suddenly became his voice. He sounded throaty and seductive, like he was wooing the most important female in the world. One he must make his or die.

“God, if you did anything righter I’d shatter. Look at me, baby. See me. Really see me.”