Crush(40)

“Up,” that sweet little voice urged.

More than happy to comply, I lifted her and cradled her in my arms. “Have you eaten your lunch, sweet girl?” I asked.

“I was just preparing it,” the new nanny, Heidi, said in her German accent.

Heidi was in her mid-twenties and at almost six feet tall, she looked like she should have been a supermodel, not an au pair from Germany who’d just moved in with Michael and my niece.

“Great, I’ll sit with her.”

As I walked toward the kitchen, I glanced at the photos around the house. Michael’s mother, his sister and her family, him and Clementine, just Clementine, but there were none of him and Lizzy, or Lizzy and Clementine.

Out of nowhere, but not for the first time, it struck me that Michael and Lizzy might not have been happily wed. I’d never asked. Yet, there were no pictures of the two of them in the house, no wedding mementos anywhere, and he very rarely talked about her. When he did, she was Elizabeth, a name I know she’d have never allowed, as that was the name our father called her.

“Where’s my girl?” Michael called from the front door.

I looked over at him and pushed all of my craziness aside. Today was a day to mourn my sister. Tomorrow, I’d worry about what came next.

“Daddy. Daddy!” Clementine yelled in a burst of excitement.

Right there was the problem. The hex to all the negative theories I had about Michael. He loved his daughter and she loved him. No matter what he was, he was a good father.

And what I wouldn’t have given to have had a father like him.





LOGAN


I had a teacher in the sixth grade who used to nag me about my lack of focus.

If only she could see me now. Every fiber of my being was focused on figuring out what the f*ck had happened to not only the rest of the stolen cocaine, but also where the hell the five million dollars in cash was. Gaining this knowledge would help me prove or disprove that O’Shea was way more involved than he let on.

In addition, I still had to figure out what Patrick was really after when he made the demands on O’Shea.

The money?

The drugs?

Lizzy?

The connection?

Everything?

If he was after Lizzy, she wasn’t in the picture any longer. Had he taken her out, not O’Shea?

Or was my gut right and there something—someone—else also involved?

Obtaining this information was key to keeping Elle safe, on all fronts. It would not only take Tommy and Patrick out of play for the rest of their natural-born lives, but could possibly implicate O’Shea. Fighting fire with fire was my game, and my hope was that Tommy and Patrick were the ones who would get burned. It was also going to help me see just how involved O’Shea was.

Agent Meg Blanchet had gone freezer on me. She hadn’t spoken a word to me since she blew a gasket over the hotel fiasco. Of course, she was still also pissed about my lack of delivery and follow-through in the cocaine bust. I wasn’t certain whether that was good or bad news. Sure, part of the drugs had shown up right in the Blue Hill Gang’s backyard, and as hard as they tried to deny the connection, the evidence was hard to negate, but still the pipeline was unknown. The source a mystery. The kingpin missing.

My cell rang.

“Yeah,” I answered.

“Hey, you’re never going to believe this,” Miles said excitedly.

“What is it?”

“One of my guys at the BPD said a gang member has agreed to turn state’s evidence.”

“RICO?”

“Yes, sir.

I slammed the wheel in excitement. “No f*cking way.”

“Keep it to yourself but I wanted you to know the charges will be filed soon, and then Blanchet will be able to try Patrick and Tommy for the crimes they ordered other members of the gang to commit. Murder, torture, robbery.”

“Best news I’ve heard in a while.”

The Racketeering Influenced and Corrupt Organizations Act allowed the DEA to gather enough circumstantial information on someone for him to be formally charged for crimes not directly committed by him but linked through his assistance. If a gang member spilled Tommy and Patrick’s outlaw behavior, it would be a huge win for the DEA.

“I thought you’d think so.”

“Yeah, thanks again for the heads-up. At least I know for certain they won’t be getting out anytime soon.”

“Right. I think they’ll be locked away for a good, long time. I’ll talk to you later if I hear anything else.”

“Thanks again,” I said. “Miles, wait, what about—” I called, but he had already disconnected. I tried him back and got voicemail. Hopefully Declan had taken care of the Tommy visit arrangements with Miles.

I downshifted the Rover to take a turn. God, I loved this vehicle. Loved to drive it when I had steam to burn. As long as I was moving fast, I wasn’t overthinking everything or doing anything stupid.

Right now, my life felt like it was spinning out of control, and it scared me. Not because I needed to be in control of those around me, but because I wanted to be in charge of my own destiny for once in my life. And that call might have put me one step closer.

Slamming down on the accelerator, I hit the turnpike at high speed. I weaved in and out of the traffic. Faster and faster I took my speed until I was forced to slow down. The exit ramp had a sharp turn and I needed to get to my destination in one piece.