Busted (Promise Harbor Wedding)(39)
Cody elbowed Brent in the gut. “Dude,” he chastised.
Rubbing his side, Brent looked confused. “What? She arrested Jackson. That takes serious—”
“I think she got it,” Jackson cut in.
Brent rocked back on his heels. “But that goal…priceless. So when do you think we can get into the rink next, Hayley? Feels like I haven’t been on my skates in months.”
“It’s only been a few weeks.” That didn’t stop Cody from looking just as eager.
Both their expressions reminded Jackson of his and Coach’s conversation, and he found himself grinning, their enthusiasm increasingly contagious.
It was on the tip of his tongue to change his mind about road hockey, but something about Hayley was off. He needed to deal with that first.
The kids left shortly after confirming hockey drill plans with Hayley.
“Nice limp. Sprained it on a ladder, huh?” She shook her head. “You could have just told them your knee was bothering you. They would have understood.”
Maybe they would have, but Hayley didn’t get that they wanted to play with a pro full of tips and advice and encouragement.
With a bum knee, no career and according to some a drinking problem that brought it all about, he wasn’t exactly the best choice As of right this moment, the only thing he had going for him was two feet away.
Gorgeous. Smart. And…glaring at him?
Hayley didn’t understand why he wasn’t what those kids needed, and he didn’t expect her to. He didn’t want to get into it, though, and since they both knew his knee was just fine, there was nothing slowing him down when he walked toward her.
“I want to show you something.” He grabbed Hayley’s hand and led her down the hall.
“Jackson,” she began.
“It took me most of the day and maybe it’s too much, but…” He deliberately trailed off, wanting her to make her own decision. “I think it really adds to the room. The corners were tricky.”
Hayley gazed around. “You finished the room.” She crossed to touch the detailed crown molding he’d added in place of the older, outdated trim around the doors and walls. “It looks great.”
He tried to ignore that she sounded more upset than impressed, and held up his hands. “Gave myself quite a few splinters and screwed up a couple times getting the angles right.” More than a couple times, actually. “I’m thinking the kitchen would look great with the same molding. Hallway too.”
She held up a hand. “Stop.”
“Hayley?”
“What are you doing?”
Confused, he shook his head. “I thought I was helping you out.” And helping himself out at the same time. He’d forgotten how much he loved working with his hands, whether he was holding a hockey stick or a hammer.
Sadness blinked across her face so fast he might have imagined it. “I don’t think that’s such a good idea.”
“You don’t like the molding?” he guessed, but wasn’t sure why it would bother her that much. He’d been convinced while buying the supplies that she’d love what it added to the house.
“I am not a rookie puck bunny.”
Where the hell did that come from? “Right,” he answered carefully. The conversation had just taken a complete hundred and eighty degree turn, and somehow he knew it was damn important that he get back on the same page as Hayley. “Who called you that?”
“Doesn’t matter.” She rubbed at her eye. “I’m just tired and my head hurts.” She started out of the room and then spun back around. “You can’t just waltz into town, cause trouble and then smooth things over with a few repairs.”
“I didn’t realize that’s what I was doing.”
“You wouldn’t. You’re not worried about what happens when you get your coaching job and go back to your normal life.”
Normal had gone flying out the window when he’d struck the barricade and flipped his car.
“Those kids just want a few minutes of your time. Gramps just wants someone to help him remember what it’s like not to be sick. Matt just wants his friend back so he doesn’t have only his sister to vent to about his dating life being in the crapper while he tries to figure out how to run two businesses.”
He processed that all in stride, filing every word of it away for later, and took a step toward her. “And what do you want, Hayley?”
The question seemed to take her by surprise, but her answer came easily. “I don’t want to get in over my head.”
Chapter Eleven
“In over your head,” Jackson repeated slowly.
It was a stupid thing to say, and Hayley regretted it the moment the words left her lips. It would only lead to more questions, questions she didn’t even have answers to.
Jackson waited, his expression calm, but his eyes determined to figure something out. They’d both be better off if he turned around and went back to work and she…
She let out a breath, unsure of what the hell she was supposed to be doing. She’d put the robberies completely out of her head after this morning, focusing on cases she could make headway with.
The renovations had become a way for her to wind down, and since Jackson had those under control, she didn’t know what to do with herself. She’d already stopped by to see Gramps on the way home from work, not really anticipating Jackson being here when she got home.
She should have known better. What she couldn’t wrap her mind around, though, was why he continued to come back. He wasn’t gaining anything from the renovations, and she’d done enough damage, accidentally or not, that he shouldn’t even want to be anywhere near her. He could be with Josh or hanging out at Stone’s with Matt.
“Are you hiding out here?”
Jackson cocked his head. “Not following you.”
“I cuffed you, tased you. Hell, I pulled you out of a freaking tree.” All of that couldn’t be worth the little bit of positive publicity stemming from a fake romance. It just didn’t make sense. “Is it safer to hide out here where no one can make demands of you or ask you about your accident or your plans?” Because that would make sense to her. He’d avoided anything to do with the kids and had avoided the subject of not playing hockey a few times.
“Is it so bad having me around?”
Okay. That hadn’t been the response she’d been expecting. Truthfully, she’d half expected to annoy him with the comment, maybe even piss him off and send him on his way. That she would know how to handle.
“When you’re not avoiding me, that is?” he tacked on. “I know you like me.”
“Liking you isn’t a problem.” Liking him a lot apparently wasn’t a problem either.
“Good. Now what happened earlier that upset you?”
“It doesn’t matter,” she insisted.
“It does matter. You can’t let what people say get to you.”
“That’s awful easy for you to say. You do what you want while the rest of us have people depending on us. We all can’t be reckless without thinking about the consequences.”
“The only opinions that matter belong to the people who care about you.”
She shook her head. “It’s not that simple.”
“It is,” he pressed. “It has to be—otherwise you end up turning into the person everyone else is convinced you are.” He grabbed her hand. “I’m sort of an expert on these things.”
She looked around the room, looked at anything but him.
“Young Hayley may have been a hellion,” he continued, “but she understood whose opinions counted for something. Maybe you had a rough time dealing with your dad’s death, but in the end you straightened yourself out without giving a crap what people like Bernice Cabot or Eric thought of you. Are you really going to waste time worrying about it now?”
Part of her knew he was right, knew there was more to him than what the media portrayed.
“If people look at you and see only the rebel you used to be or the woman caught kissing the notorious Jackson Knight—” he wiggled his brows, “—and not the great friend or hockey coach or kick-ass police detective, then isn’t that their loss?”
She was afraid to admit he was right, afraid that if she did she wouldn’t have a reason to keep her distance. He wasn’t staying in Promise Harbor and she didn’t want to be left with any more holes in her life. She’d have a huge one to deal with soon enough with Gramps.
“Let me help you, Hayley.”
“For how long? Another day? A week?” Until Gramps dies? She kept the latter to herself, the pain of it clutching viciously at her heart.
“Hey.” He caught her hand.
She tried brushing him off, but part of her desperately needed a shoulder to lean on for just a second. The depth of that need stunned her as she wrapped her arms around his neck and pressed her face against his chest. The scent of him—soap, sawdust, male—surrounded her as fully as the arms holding her close.