Breaking Her Rules(17)

He actually looked sheepish for a moment, the normally hard lines of his face turning soft, almost boyish. “I don’t know what else to call it and that’s what I’m doing. So no sex.”

She blinked, feeling a very real disappointment punch through her at his last three words. Ever since she’d left Vegas a month ago she’d been dreaming non-stop about his talented hands and mouth all over her body. Sex was the one thing that definitely worked between them. “So…what exactly do you mean, courting me?”

He shrugged and slid a few inches closer so that his knee was touching her outstretched thigh. Reaching out, he cupped her cheek before sliding his hand back into her hair. He gently held the back of her head. None of the dominating forcefulness she was used to from him was in that grip. Just sweetness. Of course the look in his eyes wasn’t exactly sweet, it was full of hunger. “I should have taken things slower with us. I…shouldn’t have demanded that you marry me.”

She snorted softly. “You didn’t demand anything. And I said yes.”

“Yes, you did.” His expression darkened a fraction, but she couldn’t get a read on him.

Silence hung in the air, so loud her ears buzzed with all the things they weren’t saying to each other. She wanted to lean forward and kiss him. Well, kiss him, strip him naked and let him sink deep inside her. She wanted to hear him gasping out her name. Of course she wanted it now even more that he’d taken sex off the table. Yeah, she was pretty sure she needed her head examined. “So no sex?”

He withdrew his hand but didn’t move from the bed, a smug grin forming on his face. “You sound disappointed.”

She shrugged, not denying it, even though it was probably the one thing guaranteed to keep her sane. If they weren’t sleeping together, maybe they could figure out if they were compatible in other ways. Which was clearly his intention. “Thanks for bringing me breakfast in bed. Did you or Ellie pick out the flower?” There was a single purple iris in a tiny white vase in the corner.

He actually scowled, as if surprised by the question, but it was the first time he’d done anything like this so she didn’t know what to think. “I did, and you’re welcome…And before you ask, Thorton and Keibler were released a couple hours ago. The cops didn’t have enough to hold them on. Harrison’s got someone digging a lot deeper into their financials this time. They’re going to rip apart any and all information available on Thorton Enterprises and anyone close to those two.”

Iris has a feeling that no matter what, Wyatt planned to dismantle Thorton Enterprises or maybe something worse. She wasn’t going to ask right now. “What about the assassin?” Iris forced herself to breathe normally as she thought of the woman who’d tried to kill Wyatt.

Wyatt’s expression darkened a fraction. “In the hospital. She stabbed herself.”

Now that was surprising. “Suicide attempt?”

He shook his head. “They don’t think so. It’s likely she was attempting to injure herself so she could try to make an escape, but they’ve got guards posted outside her room and inside. She’s not going anywhere.”

“And she still won’t talk about who hired her?”

“Nope. And she has no reason to. She’ll talk for Interpol though.”

Iris hoped so. “Until we know who hired her, you’re going to need to keep your extra security and take every precaution possible. I know I’m not on your security team anymore but…” She trailed off, unsure where she’d been going with that train of thought. Wyatt was smart, but she just needed to know that he’d be careful even if she wasn’t around. She felt crazy over-protective of him in a way she’d never thought possible.

“I won’t live in fear but I plan to be smart. Especially if you’re going to be living here with me?” She wasn’t sure if he meant it, but the last part came out as a question.

She hadn’t told him everything she and Harrison had talked about last night so she nodded. “I will be staying here. I’m taking a few days off, but I’ll likely be taking a new job in a couple weeks if something opens up. I won’t take anything out of town though.”

“Good.” Wyatt let out a small sigh of relief and leaned forward, brushing his lips over hers. At first the kiss was light, almost teasing as he stroked his tongue along the seam of her lips.

Just as he slid his hand into the curtain of her hair again and started to tug her close, he abruptly stopped and pulled back, his breathing ragged. He looked down at the tray still propped in her lap and took the silver cover off her plate. “Eat…please.”

She managed to get her own breathing under control as she looked at the stack of chocolate chip pancakes topped with whipped cream. There was also a fruit cup, three slices of bacon and two eggs over easy. All her favorite things. She wouldn’t be able to finish it all, but she couldn’t believe he’d remembered the chocolate chip pancakes. She hadn’t had those since she was a teenager. Her heart squeezed in a way that told her to run. To run far and fast before she got sucked too deep into life with Wyatt that it would slay her if they ended. But she couldn’t and more importantly, wouldn’t. Not anymore. Even if she lost him, she was taking this chance. “This looks amazing, thank you.”

Grunting a non-response he just leaned back on one elbow, stretching out on the bed alongside her so that they were facing each other. His head was next to her feet and vice versa. He was dressed casually today, wearing pressed slacks and a button down shirt that probably cost more than she made in a week. But no tie and no jacket.

“Are you just going to watch me eat?”

That wicked glint was back as his gaze strayed to her mouth. “I like watching you eat.”

Her cheeks heated, but she tried to ignore the reaction building inside her. Just being close to him got her hot. As her fork cut through the stack of pancakes she said, “If you’re courting me, you have to tell me something about yourself that no one else knows.”

He was silent for a moment. “I’d rather jerk-off to thoughts of you than be with anyone else.”

She choked on her food, coughing until he moved up the bed and patted her on the back. Iris took a sip of coffee, trying to clear her throat. “That’s not what I meant,” she rasped out, still lightly coughing.

“Okay then…I’ve been masturbating to thoughts of you for longer than you probably want to know about.” He didn’t move back to his original position, but stayed where he was, sitting directly next to her, crowding right into her personal space.

He wasn’t touching her though. It was like there was an invisible line he was forcing himself not to cross. Because if he did, he’d throw his no-sex idea right out the window. Iris knew if she pushed him she could get him to do just that. They could be naked in seconds. But the more she thought about it, the more she liked the idea of getting to know each other more. Sex was easy for them. The rest of their relationship was complicated. They might already know a lot about each other, but marriage was a whole different ballgame. One she had no clue how to navigate. Maybe he was on to something with his idea.

“Now it’s your turn,” he said quietly.

There was no way in hell she was admitting that she also thought of him while touching herself. It would make him too smug. “Okay. I don’t think I ever told you, but the reason I joined the Marines is because when I was nine, I had a sort of crush on one of my mom’s boyfriends.” Iris snorted at the memories. “He was the only decent man she ever dated and she ended things with him because, and I quote ‘he’s too nice’.” Iris hadn’t understood her mother then and now that the woman was deceased, she still didn’t. It was like her mother had intentionally gone for the *s. As if she liked being treated like dirt. Iris finally realized that she’d had no self-esteem, but it didn’t make sense to her. “Anyway, this guy was a little older than my mom by about a decade. He’d been in the service for twenty years and he bought me a kitten.”

Wyatt frowned at her last statement. “I don’t remember you ever having a pet.”

“It’s because my mom made me get rid of him. She actually made Hank take Mr. Buttons when they broke up.” That was when Iris realized that getting attached to people or things was a waste of time. Well, Wyatt had been an exception. When they’d become friends at ten years old, she had to make the exception. He’d just pushed his way into her life, trying to look out for her even though he was just a kid himself trying to avoid beatings from his old man. Her mom might have been a terrible role model, but her home had at least been a safe haven for Wyatt.

Wyatt didn’t say anything, just watched her thoughtfully so she continued. She stabbed a bite of pancake and stared at it as she spoke. “At the time he was the only decent man I’d ever met. So I just knew that being a Marine was a big deal, something important. And I was determined to become one myself. My mom always said that was stupid, that I should marry one and let him take care of me.” Iris shrugged again, but the action was jerky, not casual as she’d intended. Her mom’s stupid ideas of letting a man take care of her had only made Iris even more determined to become a Marine, to be able to take care of herself and defend herself from anyone. Everything she’d learned in the service, no one could ever take that away from her. Her skills were now a part of her and she treasured them.