BAKER (Devil's Disciples Book 1)(64)

“Remember that asshole I told you I used to date?” I asked from my seat at the bar. “The one that beat me?”

His jaw muscles flexed. “Yeah.”

“What he did to me was ten times worse than this. I’m fine,” I assured him.

“Leave her alone,” Cash said from the kitchen. “Girl says she’s fine, she’s fine.”

They’d covered the dead cop with a blanket and rolled him up in a rug. I stared at it for some time, thinking about what my father had gone through. No differently than me, he’d been held hostage by my mother the night she shot him.

My perspective on the entire event changed. I no longer felt hatred toward him. Nor did I cherish her the way I had for all those years. A decision was made, and in an instant, lives were forever changed. Not just theirs, either. The repercussions of such an event ripple outward, touching everyone in their path until there’s no one else to touch.

I shifted my eyes from the dead cop to Baker. “He was looking for something. Around the bar. That’s where he was when I came out of the bedroom.”

Baker searched the bar and found a small listening device tucked into the molding that surrounded the brass railing used as a footrest.

He walked into the living room and looked at the rolled-up blanket. “That motherfucker.”

“I’m going to guess by the way he was acting, that he’s not on the up and up,” I said.

Cash barked out a laugh from behind me. “You think not?”

Baker flushed the device in the toilet, and returned after a moment. He looked me over and shook his head. “What about some rest? How about getting some rest?”

I needed a shower, but there was no way I could sleep. “I just woke up,” I said in protest.

“You need a shower.”

I was still wrapping my mind around what happened. I’d gone from making a bed to seeing a cop murdered, and it wasn’t even noon. There was no doubt in my mind that if Cash hadn’t shot the man, I would have been the victim. It wasn’t easy to accept, but it was the truth.

Grateful for what happened, but angry that I had to spend a lifetime carrying the baggage, I stood. “I’m going to take a shower.”

“Some of the fellas are coming to help out with things,” Baker said.

“I’ll be gone right after I clean up.”

He raked his fingers through his hair, pulled it away from his face, and paused. “You’re not going anywhere.”

“I’m going to shower.”

“Take your time.”

I went to the bathroom. As if I was traipsing through hip-deep mud, I dragged my feet across the floor. Each step grew more difficult than the last. Once in the bathroom, I all but collapsed on the floor.

I stared at the shower’s drain as the blood washed away. Shorty, the water ran clean, giving no hint that there was anything else to clean up. I stared blankly at the drain for some time, mentally arguing with the message it was trying to send. I felt filthy. I wondered how they did it. How they coped. If time would make it easier to accept.

I turned off the water. Like a blanket of anger, the steam hung thickly in the air. I wiped the mirror with my hand, and looked at my likeness in the mirror. I raised my hand to my neck, touching the discolored skin where he had choked me.

It was easy to joke about the dead man in front of the men. They seemed unaffected by the event, entirely. I, on the other hand, wasn’t so fortunate. I feared the memories would haunt me for a lifetime.

I lowered my hand and turned away.

Wearing nothing more than a towel, I stumbled to the bed. I needed to take time to digest everything. To find a way to make it all seem sensible. Making sense of such a morbid act wasn’t going to be an easy act.

When I woke the first time, it was dark. Baker was at my side. I got up, waking him when I did. Silently, I apologized.

I walked to the living room, turned on the light, and scanned the room. There was no blood. The rug had been replaced. It smelled not like gunpowder, but like a hospital.

I flipped out the light and turned toward the room. Baker stood in the doorway. As I walked past him, he draped his arm over my shoulder.

I nestled against him on his side of the king-sized bed that night. In his arms, I slept until morning came. As the sun’s light filled the room, we both woke at the same instant, naturally.

He rolled to the side and looked me in the eyes. “I love you, Andy.”

His eyes told me they weren’t simply words. He meant what he said. My eyes welled with tears, and eventually a few of them escaped. Not because of what had happened. Or because of what he’d said. The tears were those of gratitude. I knew the only way I could get back to normal was to make the trip with him. With love in his heart, he could guide me through anything life had to offer me.

I kissed him, knowing that in time, everything would be fine. “I love you, too.”





FORTY-TWO - Baker





My life hadn’t been plagued with death, but I was no newcomer to how it smelled. We found out the cop wasn’t a cop, he was a private detective. He’d either been hired to look into my life, or was simply someone who believed there was something valuable to find in my condo.

He’d been disposed of, as had his car, phone, and all his personal effects. I was confident that they’d never find enough of him to perform a DNA test. Remnants of his car were in Arkansas, crushed into a ball of steel no bigger than a kitchen stove.