Where the Stars Still Shine(11)

“Ow!” He pulled his hand away as if mortally wounded, but his eyes were laughing and so was his smile. He moved closer, until his thigh was pressed tight and warm against mine, and his breath tickled my ear. “I was only trying to get your goodies.”

“I know,” I said through a mouth of chili-cheese. “But you weren’t invited.”

“What do I need to do to get an invitation?”

As it turned out, the answer was a couple of warm beers in the Big Chief parking lot.

We drove out to a gravel access road between a couple of fields and had sex in the bed of his Ford F-150. At the time it felt good because I was the one who wanted it. I gave him the goodies. But when it was over, I couldn’t help thinking about all the shit that had been hauled around in the back of that truck.

His jeans were still down around his knees, and I could see the stars looking down at me from over his shoulder when I asked him to take me home. He wasn’t bothered by my request, and at the curb in front of the apartment, he gave me his number.

“Or I’m usually at the Chief on Saturday nights,” he said. “But if you see me with my girlfriend, pretend you don’t know me, okay?”

“I don’t.”

He didn’t get it. He flashed me his I-just-got-in-your-pants grin and drove off. I didn’t call him, but the next night he showed up at the apartment when my mom was at work. And the weekend after that, I met up with him at the Big Chief and we hooked up in the back of his truck again.

I reach the sponge docks by way of Athens Street this time, and I’m met with the scent of fresh bread from one of the bakeries, luring me away from thoughts of Danny. Across the street from the bakery, a pair of old men with white bristly mustaches and black fisherman’s caps sit at a table on the sidewalk outside some sort of Greek social club, smoking cigarettes and drinking coffee from foam cups. They’re a living postcard.

I enter a bakery, where the cases are filled with pastries with names I couldn’t possibly pronounce. Baklava. Galaktoboureko. Kourabiedes.

“One, please.” I point to the one vaguely resembling cheesecake with a label that says galaktoboureko and order two cups of coffee to go with it. Almost immediately I change my mind, feeling silly that I’m buying coffee and baked goods for a stranger. Who might not be down here. Who might not even drink coffee. And for no other reason than because he’s breathlessly good looking and we nearly hooked up last night?

“Can I make that one cup?” I ask, but the woman behind the counter has already poured two coffees and gives me a stern look that tells me I’m buying both whether I want them or not. The change she gives me from my ten-dollar bill is the last of my money.

I reach the docks and my eyes go straight to the boats, seeking out the one from last night, but it’s not there. Instead, there’s a big empty space. My vision blurs with tears as I sit down on a bench facing the water. Not because he’s not here—crying over a stranger would be even more stupid than buying him breakfast—but because in all my ridiculous excitement, I forgot why I’m even here. I forgot about Mom.

“Hey, you okay?” A girl about my age sits down on the bench beside me. Her dark hair—nearly the same shade as mine—falls over her shoulder in a thick braid. An invisible cloud of floral scent surrounds her.

“Yeah.” I wipe my eyes with the sleeve of my T-shirt. “It’s just—it’s really nothing. I’m fine. Do you want some coffee?”

“Ooh, yes, please!” She snatches up one of the cups and sips. “So, considering we’ve never met, I’m assuming you didn’t buy this coffee for me. What’s the story there?”

I’m not sure what to make of this girl. Clearly she has no qualms about taking coffee from strangers, or prying into their business. Or, more accurately, their lack of business.

“There’s no story.” I hand her the white paper bakery bag. “Have this.”

She peers in, then looks up at me. “You—are my new best friend.”

I take a drink of coffee and my eyes drift to the empty spot, as if the boat is going to magically appear. As she bites into the galaktoboureko, she shakes her head in a way that’s slightly violent. Her braid whips back and forth.

“No,” she says, her mouth full. “No, no, no, no, no.” She chews quickly and swallows. “Tell me you did not buy this for Alex Kosta.”

“I don’t—” My cheeks get warm and how can I tell her that I didn’t catch his name? “I’m not sure.”

“Insanely good looking? Works weekends on the sponge dive tour?” She points a piece of pastry in the direction of where the boat should be. “And if he were here now, he’d be right about there?”

“Yes?”

“You are so lucky I found you when I did,” she says. “Listen, I work with him, so I’ve seen the way he operates. Alex Kosta can be described in two words: man whore. Or maybe that’s one word. Hyphenated?” She shrugs. “Either way, just … no.”

I take another drink of coffee and swallow words with the bitter brew. The words that would admit it doesn’t matter to me. That I’m not that discriminating. Danny is proof. So is the guy before him. And the one before him. I don’t even remember the first guy’s name, only that afterward I felt exactly the same way I did every time Frank left my bedroom. I don’t know—maybe it’s a good thing I walked away from Alex Kosta last night.