What I Thought Was True(97)

“No, I wasn’t thinking of those, but now that you mention it . . . anyway . . . where’s his hand?”

“Isn’t this it?” I point.

“I thought that was her, er—”

“No, it’s his hand. I’m sure.”

“Then what’s that?”

I peer at the book cover. When you examine it closely, she does indeed appear to have too few appendages and he too many.

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shoulder, and then you sort of collapse back, like she’s doing— farther, Gwen—I’d need to have a hand right here on your back so you wouldn’t fall off that cliff. But instead, his other hand is all over her tits . . . so why doesn’t she hurtle to her death?”

“Tits, Cass? Ew.”

“I know. There are no good words.”

“Maybe she’s a gymnast with superior muscle control.”

“She’d have to be in Cirque de Soleil to manage this. See, if I take away this hand, you—”

I fall back on the glider with a rusty clang of springs.

“—wind up exactly where I want you.”

I’m not someone who forgets where I am. But I have not spent any time lying on a gently swinging glider on a porch by the sea kissing a beautiful boy. Don’t think. All my focus, every thought, narrows to this moment, the soft sounds we’re both making, a few squeaks from the glider springs, the whole world faded to background music.

Until—“What in the name of God is going on here?” and Cass, scrambling, slides off me, landing on his butt and looking up at Henry Ellington with the same stunned expression I must wear.

Behind him is Gavin Gage, his face poised, neutral. Henry, however, is a thundercloud. An apocalyptic thundercloud turn-ing darker and darker red. Cass moves in front of me. I shove my shirt back down. He starts to say, “This isn’t what it—” then falters because that’s one of the lamest lines ever, right up there with “It didn’t mean anything” and “We can still be friends.”

He switches to, “It’s my fault.”

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“Where’s my mother while all this is going on?”

I hop up next to Cass and hurriedly explain, face flaming, that it’s okay, she’s napping.

Which makes things worse.

“If this is your idea of what’s acceptable while a helpless old woman is resting—in her own house—on my dime, you are very much mistaken.” Then: “Who the hell are you?” to Cass.

“Uh—the yard boy.”

“Not anymore,” Henry returns succinctly. “Nor will your dubious idea of caretaking be needed from now on, Guinevere.”

His mouth is screwed up in a line, he’s ramrod straight. If he were a teacher in an old-fashioned book, he’d be hauling out a ruler to rap us across the knuckles.

Anger rises in me, steam in a kettle edging toward a boil.

“Henry, maybe we should all take a moment and calm down,” Gavin Gage interjects unexpectedly. “Back when you and I were their age—”

“That’s not the issue here,” Henry barks. “Take whatever you brought with you and get out.” His voice is softer now, but no less deadly. “You’ve abused my trust, and the trust of a helpless woman. There will be consequences beyond the loss of your jobs, I assure you.”

I hate that he can do this. And he can. And with an impact far beyond this small island. My mind flicks fast. I think of our first “conversation”— itemized—his veiled threat. His muted discussion with Gavin Gage on the other side of the kitchen door. The way he folded that check and held it out to me, set it down on the counter like the ace of spades. And I can’t do it—I can’t keep my mouth shut, I— 337

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“Listen,” I start, “what makes you think you—”

Cass puts a warning hand on my arm.

I make a strangled sound, fall silent.

This isn’t just about me now.

I need the money, yes. But Cass’s dad got him the job. Get-ting fired would be one more screw-up, and I can tell just by the way he won’t meet my eyes that this has already occurred to him “Gracious, Henry. Do be quiet!” calls Mrs. Ellington through the screen porch door. “If it’s not bad enough you’ve woken me up, your bellowing is likely reaching all the way to Ada Partridge’s house, and you know how she’ll respond. It would be most embarrassing to have her call the police and have you arrested for creating a public disturbance.”

Henry offers an explanation that is unflattering in the extreme to both Cass and me, in which the words lewd, depraved, and wanton appear more often than you’d think possible, since, maybe, The Scarlet Letter. Jesus, we were only kissing.

Instead of a shocked gasp at the end, Mrs. E. gives her low belly laugh. “That’s what all the fuss was about? The dear chil-dren were simply—obeying my request.”

Henry, Cass, and I all goggle at her. Gavin Gage sits down in one of the wicker chairs, crosses his ankles, amusement gleam-ing in his eyes. All he’s missing is a box of popcorn and a soda.

Mrs. E. edges the porch door open with her cane and steps out. “You know I adore the theater,” she observes serenely.