Vendetta (Blood for Blood #1)(53)

It was the sixth time I had seen him since he had gone to prison almost eighteen months ago, and each time was harder than the one before. I tried not to dwell on the fact that I still had four more years of these visits ahead of me.

After presenting my identification and passing through the security check, I met my father in the visiting room. Around us, other prisoners sat on metal stools at white tables with their families; kids as young as one and two mingled with heavyset grannies and Gothic teenagers. Prison guards lingered by the walls, eyes narrowed in pursuit of a forbidden embrace or any other illicit exchange, above or below the tables.

My father was paler than I expected and there were new dark creases under his eyes. I knew it could have been a lot worse. Since my father wasn’t gang-affiliated, he was technically, in prison parlance, a “neutron,” which meant the violent inmates mostly left him alone. He could not, however, avoid the effects of meager food and limited physical exercise. He was losing weight and losing sleep.

“How are you?” I began to chew on my pinkie nail — a nervous habit that usually returned in his company.

My father shook out his scruffy gray hair so it fell across his forehead and hid the faint bruises above his eye — they only mostly left him alone. “Getting by, Soph.” He tried to smile, but it was crooked and yellowed. “It’s so good to see you.”

It took everything in me not to crumple in my cold metal seat. How did my father end up in this place? He was a shadow of the man who had raised me on sweeping fairy tales, swashbuckling adventure movies, and faraway hiking trips. The worst things he ever did were yell at me when he lost his temper, forget to wash the dishes, or stay out too late with Uncle Jack every once in a while. He didn’t belong in here with murderers. Even if he had killed a man.

“Dad, you don’t look so good.”

“We don’t get lots of fruits and vegetables in here,” he teased, but the joviality didn’t reach his eyes. He leaned forward and took my hand in his; I could feel his rough, calloused skin against mine. “Happy belated birthday, Soph.”

“No contact across the tables!” shouted a nearby prison guard. I resisted the urge to slam my head against the table as we pulled our hands apart. I kept my gaze on my fingernails instead. “Thanks, Dad.”

“So how is everything at home?” His eyes lit up with interest, brightening his face and pulling my attention away from the new lines that had formed around his mouth.

“Boring, as usual,” I lied, purposefully omitting the part about me being drugged at Millie’s house party. I knew he would hear it from Jack or my mother soon, but it wasn’t going to be from me.

“I started a new book yesterday …” he began.

I listened as he told me all about the books he had been reading. When he finished, I traded some of my own safe topics, including how my mother had gained some new clients in Lincoln Park and Millie’s recently formed harebrained intention to go Greek-island-hopping after high school. We spoke about Mrs. Bailey’s weekly visits and touched briefly on my fast-approaching senior year. My father smiled and contributed at all the right times until the conversation drew to a natural close. As much as I wanted to pursue less threatening topics, I knew I had to prioritize my true intentions, because the visit would soon come to an end. As it was, I hadn’t even scratched the surface of the real reason I had come to see him.

“Dad,” I interjected before he could launch into another ambling conversation. “I have a question.”

He perked up in his chair and regarded me seriously. I loved that about him — he had always treated me like an adult worthy of respect, even when I was a small child. I knew that meant he would answer me as best he could. “What is it, Soph?”

I decided to dive straight in. “Remember I told you how a new family moved into the old Priestly place? There are five of them and they’re all boys.”

His eyelids fluttered, but he kept his mouth closed in a hard line, waiting for me to finish.

“Well, I think you might know them.”

“Have you spoken to this family?” he asked, rubbing the stubble on his chin. “Have they approached you?”

“Yes,” I said. “I’ve spoken to them.”

My father buried his face in his hands and released a heavy sigh. “Jesus,” he said, half-muffled. “Jesus Christ.”

That horrible sinking feeling came over me again, pricking at my eyes and sticking in my throat. “Dad?”

“Sophie,” he said, but this time it was weary, and heavy with disappointment. He uncovered his face, letting his hands fall to the table with a heavy thunk. “I thought Uncle Jack told you to stay away from them?”

“How do you know that?”

“Because he came to see me when he found out they had moved in. And we decided — ”

“Hold on,” I cut in. “What do the Priestlys have to do with our family?”

My father double-blinked, his mouth twisting to a frown. “The Priestlys? Who are the Priestlys?”

“The — ” I stopped abruptly. My whole brain shifted. Think. Who were the Priestlys? We had all just assumed the connection between Nic’s family and the old house. After all, it had never been put up for sale, which meant it was inherited or passed down, surely. Even my mother hadn’t questioned it. But now …