Until You (Fall Away, #1.5)(36)
What’s in it for u? K.C. asked.
Well, I couldn’t tell her the truth.
Fun.
I don’t know, she texted. Tate’s already mad at me.
Tate won’t know, I lied and threw the phone on the bed to go get dressed.
“Do you want to come over tonight?” I rested my forearm on the wall above K.C.’s head and leaned into her, almost touching.
Her breath caught as I trailed my fingers on the sliver of skin peeking out between her shorts and shirt. “What are we going to do?” she played along, looking absolutely turned-on and helpless.
Her idiot ex-boyfriend was in the cafeteria, and we were outside the double doors, hot in each other’s space.
Her back was against the wall, but he could see her, and he could definitely see me.
I just wished Tate could see this, too.
My lips hovered just a hair away from hers as I ran my hand around her back, about to dive in for the kill. “We could play Monopoly,” I suggested, pressing my body into hers. “Or the Wii.”
Her eyes got wide, and her lips tightened, trying to hold back a laugh. While we looked like we were about to get it on, our conversation didn’t deliver.
“I don’t know,” she moaned. “I’m not very good at Wii.”
“It’s not that hard.” My whisper fanned over her lips. “Watch.”
And I pulled her into me, kissing her long and slow.
Her slender frame molded into mine, and she tilted her head to the side as I trailed a line to her ear.
She was easy in my hands. Small, soft, bending when I pulled…she knew what to do.
K.C. definitely wasn’t innocent. I could feel that.
But she was an easy target right now, and I didn’t go for that.
And… I definitely felt like I’d lost my heartbeat somewhere in the middle of making out with her.
Jesus.
My lips and hands went through the motions. Kiss, kiss, bite, squeeze…and nothing f*cking happened.
What the hell?
I knew I wasn’t interested in her, but damn! I should feel some kind of jolt. Some kind of reaction. She had tits, after all.
But no. Nothing. I was dead. I was doing my Literature homework. I was playing golf.
I hate golf.
And that’s when I pinched my eyebrows together, still kissing her and realizing that I hadn’t pursued any girls in a couple of weeks.
The second bell rang. K.C. jumped, and I leaned back, still held hostage by the fact that the only time I’d gotten a hard-on lately was around Tate.
Christ.
I backed off K.C. and tipped my chin at her. “Text if you want to come over later. Liam will hear about it.” And Tate will see you, I thought to myself. “You don’t want him thinking you were sitting at home alone all night, do you?”
I knew that would push her.
But before she had a chance to answer, I slapped her on the ass, knowing Liam would see.
K.C. just smiled, her eyes wide with shock before she turned and ran to class.
I let out a sigh, watching her disappear down the hall.
I wasn’t going to class. I had a meeting with the f*cking counselor this morning. College-talk time.
No, actually that was last year. Now, since I hadn’t made any plans, it was the make-a-decision-or-make-your-own-bed-and-lay-in-it talk.
“Hey, man.” Madoc came through the cafeteria doors before I’d even moved. “Was that K.C. that ran off? You haven’t tapped that yet?” He fastened the cap on his Gatorade.
I turned, knowing he’d walk with me. “Who’s saying I haven’t?”
“Uh, because you’ve never been seen with a girl after you’ve f*cked her. I doubt you even wait until the condom is off before forgetting their names.”
I halted in front of the staircase I needed to take. Was he serious? A judging tone, from him? “And you do?” I asked, shoving my hands into the pockets of my jeans.
Madoc had probably scored more tail than I had.
“Yeah, yeah. I know.” He shrugged it off. “I’m just saying, you never had to work this hard to get a girl into bed.”
Madoc looked at me expectantly through his bruised eyelids.
“I’m in no hurry. I might want to play around with this one for a while.” I couldn’t tell Madoc the truth.
I never told anyone anything.
“Tate’s going to be pissed,” he pointed out, like I hadn’t thought of that.
“The whole point.”
Madoc nodded. “Oh…so that’s the plan.”
Well, what the hell did he think I was doing? Actually dating K.C.?
Enough. “Thanks again for backing me up last night.” I changed the subject and turned to climb the stairs.
But Madoc spoke up again. “This thing?” he started, and I stopped. “With Tate? Why do we do it? I know I’ve asked before, but you don’t tell me shit. I just don’t get it.”
Jesus Christ.
I turned back around to face him, done talking about this.
He’d asked lots of times before, and each time I’d targeted that girl it was for a different reason.
I liked playing games.
I wanted control.
I was protecting her.
I never had an answer that satisfied me, let alone worth repeating. In my head, it always seemed reasonable, but saying it out loud sounded crazy.