There Is No Devil (Sinners Duet, #2)(12)

“He was … in the car?”

“That’s right. He had driven home late from some bar. Fell asleep in the garage. Never turned off the engine.”

I let out my breath in a long sigh.

“It was a ‘67 Camaro—his baby. I told him that car would be the death of him if he ever got in an accident on the freeway. I guess I was half right.”

“And that was the end of the custody battle.”

“That’s right.” Sonia nods. “Will came to live with me full-time. Cole even gave me a raise to pay off what I owed my lawyer.”

“He’s generous like that,” I say, my voice coming out faint and slightly strained.

“Oh yes,” Sonia says quietly, her pale blue eyes fixed on mine. “He can be very generous when it suits him.”

Sonia stands up, still holding the tea that has now gone cold in her mug. She only drank half of it.

“I’ll always be grateful to Cole for everything he did for me during that time,” she says. “It was the darkest point in my life.”

She’s walking toward the door, leaving so I can get back to work.

“That’s interesting,” I say.

Sonia pauses in the doorway, looking back at me.

“What’s interesting?”

I swirl my brush through the silvery gray, loading the horsehair with pigment. “I also met Cole on my darkest day.”

Sonia’s lips curl up, her smile enigmatic.

“That’s his gift,” she says. “He knows how to choose his moment.”

I start to paint again, thick clouds of gray, just the color of car exhaust.

“By the way,” Sonia says as she departs, “I love the new composition.”

I finished my Sinners and Saints series. There were six paintings in all, and each sold for more than the last.

Actually, seven sales occurred, because my painting of the beautiful devil has already resold for twice its original price to Betsy Voss herself.

“That’s a very good sign,” Cole told me. “Betsy has an eye, and she doesn’t make purchases just to inflate value. She really believes it’s an investment.”

The giddy trajectory of my bank account is terrifying. I try not to look at it. The numbers seem impossible.

I hardly need to access it anyway, living at Cole’s house. I don’t need more clothes. And I’d prefer not to spend the money in case it evaporates as quickly as it came.

I do withdraw $1000 each for Frank and Joanna, who lent me money in my most desperate moments.

Cole drives me back to the old Victorian, waiting at the curb while I climb the uneven steps to the front door.

The house already looks smaller and infinitely shabbier. I feel ashamed, not of its ugliness, but that I’m now perceiving it. Judging it. I loved this house—I felt at home here.

I knock at the door like a stranger. The flutter in my stomach when Joanna answers tells me that I was hoping it would be Frank instead, or even Melody.

Her dark eyes are unsmiling. She doesn’t say hello—just waits for me to speak.

“I brought you some money,” I say awkwardly, trying to put both envelopes in her hand. “You and Frank. For the times you gave me slack …”

Joanna looks at the envelopes, unmoving.

“You always paid me back,” she says.

I don’t know how to make her take them.

Her eyes flick down to the Tesla pulled up to the curb. Cole sitting behind the wheel.

“He give you that money?” she says.

“No. I sold some paintings.”

“Congratulations.”

There’s no warmth to the word. We might have only met this morning.

I helped her clean out her grandfather’s house after he died, stopping regularly to hug her while she cried. Joanna sublet her studio to me, over all our other roommates who would have jumped at the chance.

Friendship feels so real, until it pops like a soap bubble.

Her coldness doesn’t stem from jealousy or the belief that Cole is giving me an unfair advantage.

This is about Erin.

Joanna doesn’t know what happened, but she knows it’s my fault.

I’m the one who drew the evil eye upon us. I was attacked first. And I didn’t finish the fight—instead, I began to change.

I didn’t want to be the old Mara—the loser, the unlucky one, the victim.

Cole appeared in my life like a dark genie, offering me everything I ever wanted: money, fame, success.

I took his offer before I even knew the terms of the contract. Before I knew the price.

I shed my old life like a molted skin. And I left Erin to die in my place, in my bed.

For that, I feel as guilty as Joanna could wish.

I just don’t know what to do about it.

I have no evidence against Shaw. No way of fighting back against him, of getting justice for Erin.

Cole wants to kill him. That would break my vow to always keep swimming to the surface, never sinking to the bottom, becoming more vicious than the monsters trying to devour me.

My worst fear is to become like my mother. When I catch myself doing anything her way, I want to slap my own face. I won’t do it. I refuse.

“If you don’t want the money, will you give it to Frank?” I ask.

Now Joanna does consent to take the envelopes. I have no doubt she’ll give them both to Frank. Joanna’s principles are as iron-hard as her posture. I always respected that about her.