The Wife Between Us(5)
Instead I’m drawn back to the black-and-white dress. Three are on the rack. I scoop them into my arms and take them to the stockroom, hiding them behind a row of damaged clothes.
I return with Nancy’s credit card and receipt by the time she is slipping into her work clothes.
“Thank you,” Nancy says. “I never would have picked these, but I’m actually excited to wear them.”
This is the part of my job I actually enjoy—making my customers feel good. Trying on clothes and spending money causes most women to question themselves: Do I look heavy? Do I deserve this? Is it me? I know those doubts well because I have been on the inside of the dressing room many times, trying to figure out who I should be.
I slip a hanging bag over Nancy’s new clothes and hand her the garments, and for a moment I wonder if Aunt Charlotte is right. If I keep moving forward, maybe my mind will eventually follow my body’s propulsion.
After Nancy leaves, I help a few more customers, then head back to the dressing rooms to restock unwanted items. As I smooth clothing on hangers, I overhear two women chatting in adjoining booths.
“Ugh, this Ala?a looks awful. I’m so bloated. I knew that waitress was lying when she said the soy sauce was low sodium.”
I recognize the Southern lilt immediately: Hillary Searles, the wife of George Searles, one of Richard’s colleagues. Hillary and I attended numerous dinner parties and business events over the years together. I have listened to her opine on public versus private schools, Atkins versus the Zone, and St. Barts versus the Amalfi Coast. I can’t bear to listen to her today.
“Yoo-hoo! Is there a salesgirl out there? We need some other sizes,” a voice calls.
A fitting-room door flies open and a woman emerges. She looks so much like Hillary, down to the matching ginger locks, that she can only be her sister. “Miss. Can you help us? Our other salesgirl seems to have completely vanished.”
Before I can answer, I see a flash of orange and the offending Ala?a is flung over the top of the fitting-room door. “Do you have this in a forty-two?”
If Hillary spends $3,100 on a dress, the commission is worth enduring the questions she’ll throw at me.
“Let me check,” I reply. “But Ala?a isn’t the most forgiving brand, no matter what you’ve eaten for lunch. . . . I can bring you a forty-four in case it runs small.”
“Your voice sounds so familiar.” Hillary peeks out, hiding her sodium-bloated body behind the door. She shrieks and it’s an effort to keep standing there as she gapes at me. “What are you doing here?”
Her sister chimes in, “Hill, who are you talking to?”
“Vanessa is an old friend. She’s married—uh, she used to be married—to one of George’s partners. Hang on a sec, girl! Let me just throw on some clothes.” When she reappears, she smothers me in a hug, simultaneously engulfing me in her floral perfume.
“You look different! What’s changed?” She puts her hands on her hips and I force myself to endure her scrutiny. “For starters, you little wench, you’ve gotten so thin. You would have no trouble wearing the Ala?a. So, you’re working here now?”
“I am. It’s good to see you—”
I’ve never been so thankful to be interrupted by the ring of a cell phone. “Hello,” Hillary trills. “What? A fever? Are you sure? Remember the last time when she tricked you by— Okay, okay. I’ll be there right away.” She turns to her sister. “That was the school nurse. She thinks Madison is sick. Honestly, they send a kid home if they so much as sniffle.”
She leans in to give me another hug and her diamond earring scrapes across my cheek. “Let’s make a lunch date and properly catch up. Call me!”
As Hillary and her sister click-clack off toward the elevator, I spot a platinum bangle on the chair in the dressing room. I scoop it up and hurry to catch Hillary. I’m about to call her name when I hear her voice wafting back toward me. “Poor thing,” she says to her sister, and I detect real pity in her tone. “He got the house, the cars, everything . . .”
“Really? She didn’t lawyer up?”
“She turned into a disaster.” Hillary shrugs.
It’s as if I’ve slammed into an invisible wall.
I watch as she recedes in the distance. When she presses the button to summon the elevator, I head back to clean her discarded silks and linens off the dressing-room floor. But first, I slip the platinum bracelet onto my wrist.
Shortly before our marriage ended, Richard and I hosted a cocktail party at our home. That was the last time I saw Hillary. The evening began on a stressful note when the caterers and their staff failed to show up on time. Richard was irritated—with them, with me for not booking them an hour earlier, with the situation—but he gamely stepped behind a makeshift bar in our living room, mixing martinis and gin and tonics, throwing back his head and laughing as one of his partners tipped him a twenty. I circulated among the guests, murmuring apologies for the inadequate wheel of Brie and triangle of sharp cheddar I’d set out, promising the real food would soon arrive.
“Honey? Can you grab a few bottles of the ’09 Raveneau from the cellar?” Richard had called to me from across the room. “I ordered a case last week. They’re on the middle shelf of the wine fridge.”
I’d frozen, feeling as if everyone’s eyes were on me. Hillary had been at the bar. It was probably she who’d requested that vintage; it was her favorite.