The Wedding Veil(29)

“Well, yes. I don’t want to overstay my welcome.”

“You can’t go back,” he continued, “because we have to go to Foxy’s after dinner.”

Foxy’s was one of the most famous bars in the BVIs. A can’t-miss. Even I knew that.

“And then,” Conner continued, “have you ever seen Mars?”

I gasped sarcastically. “You have a boat and a spaceship?”

I tried to stay serious, but we both laughed. “Noooo. But Mars is rising at 4:03 a.m., and I think it would be irresponsible—nay, reckless—for us to not sleep on the bow, under the stars, to see it rising.”

“I don’t have an overnight bag,” I said lamely. It was only partly true—I had packed a change of clothes and a few makeup essentials in my beach bag. I didn’t have everything, but I had enough. I thought of Babs always saying she never went anywhere without her passport. You have to be ready for adventure when adventure calls, she always said. I would usually agree with her. So why, lately, did I feel so afraid of everything?

“Would Amelia Earhart have said she couldn’t complete another flight because she didn’t have the right clothes?”

I cocked my head. “I hardly see how that relates.”

“She’s an adventurer. You’re an adventurer.”

Babs would love this guy.

The trip back to the boat was much less eventful than the trip out—still wet, but less bumpy. All the while, I had to shake the feeling that I was doing something wrong, that I was cheating on Hayes. But I had to remind myself that wasn’t the case; I was free to do as I pleased. Hayes wasn’t the one for me because I couldn’t trust him. No one could pull me back in, make me forget myself and my self-worth, better than he could. And I deserved better than that.

Once we reached the boat, Conner helped me up, and then, grabbing a huge plush, black-and-white-striped towel from a basket on the stern, wrapped it around my shoulders like no one had done since I was a child.

He ran his hands up and down over my arms to warm me. But he was still standing there, towel-less, looking so adorable—and a little cold. So I spread my arms out to open the towel. He stepped toward me, and as he wrapped his arms around me, I wrapped mine—and my towel—around him.

I felt the unexpected heat of being so close to him rise in me.

“You’re so warm,” I whispered.

“Am I?” he whispered back, just inches from my face, leaning in to kiss me.

My entire body felt tingly. This was fun and exciting and, best of all, new. No backstories, no old wounds. Just an intensely passionate kiss on the back of a gorgeous yacht on a day drowsy with rum and full of expectation. I knew I would never see him again, but that was maybe what I liked best of all about this. I didn’t have to think or plan. I could just kiss.

I kissed Conner over candlelight on the stern of the boat eating shrimp and fillet. I kissed him on the crowded sandy dance floor of Foxy’s. I kissed him as I lay on his chest at 2 a.m. on the bow of the boat. I kissed him at 4:03 when I opened my eyes to see the Red Planet in plain view and again at seven when the sun was too bright to allow us more sleep.

And now, on the dock in front of my resort, I was kissing him again.

“I have to go,” I said flirtatiously as he grabbed my arm, pulling me back in.

“Just one more kiss,” he said.

The rum had long worn off, but I felt drunk on Conner, on fresh feelings, on butterflies in my stomach and a type of desire I hadn’t felt maybe ever.

“I need to go shower,” I protested.

“Here on the islands they strongly suggest showering with a friend to conserve water,” he said, his cheek on mine, his scruff feeling masculine and right.

I know I shocked him when I said, “Anything for Mother Nature.”

I turned and started walking. A few seconds later, I glanced back over my shoulder. “Well, are you coming or what?”

His face looked like I’d just told him he’d won a Pritzker, architecture’s most coveted prize. He caught up and took my hand, our arms swinging like we were children on the playground, the crushed shells crunching under our feet. What had been so light between us was now heavy with the promise of what would come next.

At the bottom of the stairs to my treehouse room, Conner folded me into his arms and kissed me again, and I could scarcely believe how natural it felt to be with him. I didn’t delude myself that this would be more than a onetime thing. But maybe I’d be able to take it for what it was: the fling that reminded me I could open my heart.

Conner put his hand on my back to let me go up the stairs first. I turned to smile at him halfway up. I was almost to the top when I stopped so abruptly that Conner ran into me.

My eyes went wide as the man sitting on my porch turned to look at me. “Hayes?” I whispered.

I had no reason to feel guilty, and yet, here I was, bathing in shame. Conner hooked his finger through the back belt loop of my jean shorts in a gesture that was oddly comforting. He could have run off. But he stayed. Maybe it would have been better if he had run. But knowing that he would be by my side as I faced the music soothed me. And I couldn’t help but wonder if maybe this was more than a vacation fling after all.





EDITH Swept Away

July 21, 1916