The Tyrant Alpha's Rejected Mate (Five Packs #1)(103)

And I know what he felt when he sank inside me. The overwhelming awe.

He felt at peace. All the noise faded, and there was nothing but my breath, my soft cries. His soaring heart.

I am his reward.

And in a burst, I know why he’s done all the things he’s ever done. Every win in the ring. Every beatdown outside of it. Every hour of training in the brutal heat or cold. Every time he roused the males from their beds for a midnight run through the mud and rain and snow. Every rule. Every piece of justice dispensed with his fist or claw.

It was for me. To make me safe.

I see the echo of a memory—a faint glimmer that ignites an answering memory buried deep inside me.

Killian and I are children, huddled together in a bed, bandaged, dried blood still caked in our nail beds and hair. Abertha and Killian whisper, but I can’t follow the gist. I’m in too much pain. I have to trust him. When he raises a cup to my lips, I have to believe he is doing the right thing. And I do. Because he is my mate. I trust him in my bones.

And then I understand it all.

I sway. Kennedy steps forward to brace me up.

Killian did it all for me.

He changed this pack and everyone in it through the sheer force of his will, for me. Because of the kind of world he wanted for me to live in. Not our young—me.

In his imperfect, clumsy, hypocritical way, he made a pack where I could build beehives alone without worrying about a male coming by and taking advantage. And Old Noreen is in charge of the kitchen instead of begging for leftovers outside of the lodge. Where Dierdre can go on runs with Liam, and Conor and Jimmy can live together, and no one would consider driving them out of camp because we don’t do that kind of shit anymore.

And Killian didn’t even mean to change everything. It’s just when you start insisting that folks behave decently to each other—I guess it kind of snowballs.

I’m not sure how to feel now.

When we were children, he gave me up. We could have fought together, side-by-side, but he took the choice away from me.

But we were so young. Too young to make those kinds of decisions.

It all clicks into place.

I need him.

I need to go away with him, be alone, piece this together. Remember everything.

But we’re in the middle of a coup, and Killian is going to blaze in any second, rip the heads off half our fighting males, and roll them at my feet.

I know this because the image is flashing through the bond now. He’s close, approaching from the north, upwind, and he’s scouting the situation through my eyes.

I try to let him know the positions of the other males, but I’m not sure if I succeed. I don’t know how to work this connection between us, especially since he’s sending me a flood of desperate reassurances tinged with bloodthirsty rage. It’s hard to get anything through that mess.

I signal I’m okay. To be calm. Smart. I have no idea if it gets through.

My shoulder aches from where I hit the rock wall, my leg throbs from rough handling, and my heart lifts in happiness. Here comes my mate. He’s racing to me, and he’s going to do what he’s always done—protect me. Rescue my girls. Make the pack safe.

And he’s going to decimate our numbers. None of these males are leaving these woods. There’s no doubt in my mind.

My wolf’s hackles raise. She senses her mate closing in, and she’s eager to watch him bleed out her enemies. I want that, too. They put their hands on me. They terrorized my girls. Destroyed our cabin.

Worse, this whole plot is about taking us back to a time where the males are the only ones with a say, and there’s no need to work anything out with a female because might makes right. They look around at happy females, and think: There’s something wrong with this picture.

It’s a little ironic that my mate is about to shut down their little insurrection with the might of his fists. Or claws. Probably both. But I have no pity for Eamon or Lochlan. They’re trash. The Last Pack males are enemies, pure and simple.

But for the other Quarry males—especially Fallon—it doesn’t have to be this way. They must have been convinced somewhere along the line that females with phones and ice cream dates are a hell of a lot more dangerous and offensive than they are, and that points to them being stupid, not necessarily evil.

They’re going to die in these woods, too, though.

A lot of females will lose mates. Ma Campbell—who took me in when she already had five of her own— will lose her son.

And in the chaos, what happens to my girls? The one called Justus is still laser focused on Annie and Kennedy.

I can’t let this happen to my pack. For good or ill, this is my family. We rise and fall together, and that’s a lot harder, and a lot messier, than it sounds.

I have to stop my mate from slaughtering a dozen misguided males who don’t want my friends and I to have phones. Because they’re going to change. We’re going to make them. We’re not leaving them behind. Like I’ll never leave my girls.

But Killian is flying in with claws unsheathed. He won’t hesitate. There’s only one thing that’ll make him pause.

I really don’t want to do this. And I am going to regret it so hard for the split second it’ll take for the Byrnes to kill me if this goes south.

I can’t think of another plan, and time is running out.

Fuck it. I’m reckless in a tight corner. That’s my origin story.