The Truth About Alice(8)

Kurt

To state the blatantly obvious, I wasn’t invited to Elaine O’Dea’s party.

To tell you the truth, I didn’t even know there was a party at Elaine O’Dea’s, although I’ve always been aware that there are parties and football games and other social events going on around me. I’ve just never been invited to them, and even if I were to be invited, I wouldn’t attend. I see no need in taking part in forced adolescent social rituals that would do nothing but stir up emotions of dread for all involved. I would dread having to interact at such an event, and I know they would dread to see me show up at the door.

In an effort to be completely fair, I suppose it’s not technically true that I’ve never been invited. In elementary school, I was invited. That was back when all of us were students at Jefferson Elementary, and our quirks and strange rough edges hadn’t fully formed yet. We were just kids, and we all got along to a certain degree. What were parties back then anyway other than running around in the backyard and eating hot dogs off the grill? Besides, I think Brandon Fitzsimmons’s parents and Elaine O’Dea’s parents and all the other parents felt sorry for me. I was the orphan from Chicago.

Yes, it’s true. It sounds Charles Dickensesque, but I’m an honest to God orphan and have been since the age of five. My parents were driving the Dan Ryan Expressway in a bad storm one Saturday evening, and the next day I was an orphan, shipped off to Healy to live with my dad’s mom.

I have vague memories of my parents and Chicago. I remember I had plastic cereal bowls in every color of the rainbow, and I remember I liked to curl into my dad’s armpit to watch PBS children’s programming, and I remember when I hugged my mom she smelled of soap.

But then came Healy and the sad cluckety clucks from my grandmother’s friends whenever we ran into them at the Kroger and the licensed clinical social worker who was always asking me to draw my feelings with crayons. Accelerate through time and I’m a junior in high school, and it’s strange to think I ever lived anywhere else but here, with its oppressive summer heat and small town drama.

I don’t exactly fit into the milieu that is Healy life. Why not? First, I’ve been told I’m sort of a genius. I even take online classes through the university nearby because some of the high school coursework isn’t challenging enough for me. I’ll admit to trying to read in the shower and using my free time to think about black holes folding in on themselves, but honestly, it’s not like I tried to be a genius. I’m not even sure I am a genius, despite what the college counselor tells me. Maybe I’m just a genius by Healy standards.

Secondly, I do not play sports nor do I have an interest in sports at all.

Lastly, unlike my fellow citizens, I have the ability to recognize that Healy is simply an extremely small place in the middle of a very large place called the United States, and that the United States is itself also just a small place in the middle of an even larger place called the world, and that makes much of what is discussed in and around Healy inconsequential in the grand scheme of things.

So why don’t I mind living here? First, everyone leaves me alone. Which is to say they ignore me. Which is not as bad as it sounds. To be honest, it’s really rather nice to be afforded such freedom of time and of space to read, to think and study, and to be left in peace. When I sit by myself in the cafeteria rereading The Hobbit for the thirteenth time just because I want to, I don’t look out onto the sea of faces and wish I wasn’t alone. I simply acknowledge the sea exists and go back to The Hobbit. It isn’t difficult for me.

Secondly, I haven’t minded living in Healy because my grandmother is a loving and caring woman who has raised me with affection and compassion.

Lastly, Alice Franklin lives here.

Alice Franklin with the raspberry lips and the bad reputation and the faraway eyes. Alice Franklin with the short hair not like any other girl’s and the gloriously loud laugh and the body that curves like an alpha wave. Alice Alice Alice Alice Franklin.

Oh, yes, I am a genius, but I am still a man. A man who lives in Healy. And Alice Franklin lives in Healy, which makes Healy worth living in.

Before Elaine O’Dea’s party, I watched Alice Franklin from a very distant vantage point. I made mental notes. Not because I thought I would ever be able to achieve any sort of romantic relationship with her, but because taking note of the things she said and did made me feel like I knew her better, and this provided me with more fodder for my daydreams of walking with Alice Franklin, of kissing Alice Franklin, of holding Alice Franklin’s alpha waves close to my body.

Things I Noticed About Alice Franklin Before Elaine O’Dea’s Party

? Once when she was walking down the Foreign Language hall and a very skinny freshman boy dropped all of his books and some senior kicked them, Alice Franklin stopped and knelt down in her lime-colored pencil skirt and scooped them up in her arms and handed them to this boy and smiled at him. I remember catching a glimpse of her knees as she knelt down. They were like two peach-flavored candies. She has tremendous knees.

? She doodled constantly in class. Flowers, apple pies, lizards, clocks, cats. Every margin of every notebook was covered. But she could doodle and still listen because sometimes she would be in the middle of a doodle of, say, a fish swimming in a stream, and she would stretch out her hand and ask a question.

? At lunch, she always ate the same thing every single day: tuna salad sandwich, pretzels, apple, lemonade.