The Startup Wife(75)
Since I resigned from the board, Cyrus has been sweeter to me than ever. He is at pains to let me know how much he loves me, how much he wants me. He passes me little handwritten notes when I turn up at the office. I try to enjoy it, but I suspect it’s one big consolation prize when what I actually deserve is a seat at the table. But I never dwell on this thought for very long.
I want to go home, I text Cyrus after the petits fours and the bad coffee.
He comes around to my side of the table, leans down, and kisses the top of my head, and then he says to the old and older men on either side of me, “If you’ll excuse us, Ned and Jerome, I’d like my wife all to myself now.”
In the taxi home, we make out furiously and then I tell Cyrus I’ve been thinking more about the mentorship program. We’ll launch it at WAI and then get other companies to sign up. When women are hired, they will be paired with someone senior, someone whose job it is to help them cut through all the invisible walls that might hold them back. I’m thinking of calling it Sister Outsider, after Mira’s favorite book. “I love it,” Cyrus says. “You have my full support.” We go home and finish what we started in the taxi and then we drift off into a sweet, spooning sleep.
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A few weeks later, I am headlining the Girls Who Boss Festival. My name is printed all over the posters along with a photo of me looking nerdy yet sexy. In the brochure I am described as the visionary co-founder of WAI. I’m surprised by how much it pleases me that this word, normally attached to Cyrus, belongs to me too. This morning, when I was looking through my closet, I picked out a jumpsuit, remembering one time it took Cyrus an entire hour of fumbling to get it off me, how I just lay there and laughed and let him keep trying.
When the day arrives, I am informed that Cyrus has made the cover of a well-known tech magazine. The story has been in the works for weeks, a crew coming to the office with recording devices and cameras. They’ve interviewed Jules and me extensively, talked to everyone at the office, and flown themselves out to California to interview Crazy Craig. They’ve even tracked down the first wedding Cyrus ever officiated. The couple, Gillian and Michael Rushmore-Smith, live in Boulder, Colorado, and run a no-waste grocery store where you bring your own containers. For them, Cyrus designed something called a Wetting: their guests brought water from all four corners of the country and anointed the couple, after which they all jumped into the Boulder Reservoir. They are still very happy together.
The story is coming out in print tomorrow, but it’s online today. IS THIS MAN THE NEW MESSIAH? the headline says. I’m in a tent in the middle of Washington Square Park, which has been rented out for the festival. In the greenroom, there are red fabric armchairs and plastic flutes of champagne. A young man with a beard attempts to attach my microphone, but I have no waistband for him to clip it to. I’m thinking of a book I read recently, about how seatbelts and kitchen counters and spacesuits are all designed for men. “This contraption is made for a person wearing pants,” I say. The bearded young man nods solemnly. His face smells like CBD oil. I really, really hate him.
I try not to, but I can’t help reading the article about Cyrus. I see a photo of Cyrus against a dark blue background, his hair draped across his shoulders. The implication is not that Cyrus is a messiah, it’s that he is the Messiah: the Jesus, Abraham, and Mohammed for our age. I scroll through. More photos. Cyrus looking up at the sky. Cyrus with his arms out in the middle of a field. The organizer calls my name and I am nudged onto the stage. When I look out into the audience, I see a large crowd of hopeful women staring back at me. I attempt a confident wave. Destiny is onstage too—the organizers heard we were friends and they’ve paired us up. I’m happy to see her and trying not to think about the forty-five hundred words all about my husband, the Second Coming.
“Welcome, Asha Ray, we are delighted to have you here,” the moderator says. She’s the same woman who interviewed Manishala Brown all those months ago, a kind of Smart Barbie, bleached-blond hair, big smile, oversize glasses. Right now she’s in millennial-pink everything and holding on to a set of index cards with her gleaming manicure. She introduces me, pointing out all my excellent accomplishments: “Your platform needs no introduction. Many of us have become frequent users of WAI. Tell us, how did you and your co-founder Cyrus Jones come up with the concept?”
“WAI was totally Asha’s idea,” Destiny says. “She’s a genius, plain and simple. For the rest of us, things aren’t as straightforward.”
I shoot her a grateful smile. “Destiny is being overly generous. I’m here because my friends and I decided to take a chance on a crazy idea,” I say. “Cyrus, Julian Cabot, and I were just experimenting with the idea of using AI to give people a different social platform—we never thought we’d end up here.”
Pink Fingernails asks a few more questions about how we got started. I tell her about the s’mores, about working long nights at Julian’s house, about dropping out of Dr. Stein’s lab. Then she flips to a new index card. “And do you personally come from a business background? Are your parents entrepreneurs?”
“They are, actually. They came over here from Bangladesh in their twenties, right out of college. And now they run a small chain of pharmacies.”
“What a sweet story. So I guess you’re used to mixing business with family life? For those of you in our audience who don’t know, Asha and her co-founder Cyrus Jones are married.”