The Shape of Night(31)

     Our good fortune in this regard is courtesy of Mama’s cordial relations with our seamstress, Mrs. Stephens, whose husband serves as Captain Brodie’s first mate. She was kind enough to alert Mama about the bounty of silks that had just arrived, and we were invited to the warehouse to peruse the treasures on the very day they were unloaded.

Despite all the pretty silks and carpets, I admit I was quite distracted by another sight: the fine figure of Captain Brodie himself, who strode into the warehouse a short time after Mama and I arrived. I was crouching over a crate of silk when I heard him speaking to the warehouseman. I looked up and there he stood, framed by the light in the doorway, and I was so startled I must have looked like quite the codfish with my mouth agape. I do not think he noticed me at first, so I was quite at liberty to stare. When he last sailed from Tucker Harbor, I was but thirteen years old. Now it is three years later and I’m fully capable of appreciating a broad pair of shoulders and a fine square jaw. I must have stared for a good long minute before he noticed me and smiled.

And, dear Ellen, did I mention he is not married?

If he’d spoken to me, I do not think I could have managed to say a single word. But just then, Mama took my arm and said quietly: “We’ve made our purchases, Ionia. It’s time for us to leave.”

I did not want to leave. I could have stood in that cold warehouse for an eternity, staring at the captain and basking in the warmth of his smile. Mama was insistent that we hurry away, so I had only those few precious moments to admire him. I truly believed he returned my look with similar appreciation, but when I told Mama, she warned me not to entertain such thoughts.

“Keep your wits about you, for pity’s sake,” she told me. “You’re just a girl. If you’re not careful, a man will take advantage.”

Is it wicked of me that I rather like that idea?

     Next week, there will be a dinner party for the ship’s officers at Brodie’s Watch. I have been invited, but Mama has turned down the invitation! My friend Genevieve will be going, and Lydia too, but Mama insists I must stay home. Quietly knitting, I suppose, like the future spinster I will surely be. I am almost as old as the other girls, and I am certainly old enough to attend a dinner party with gentlemen, but Mama has forbidden it. It is so unfair! She says I am too innocent. She says I do not know the captain’s sordid reputation. She has heard rumors about what goes on in his house late into the night. When I press her on this matter, her lips tighten like purse strings and she refuses to say more.

Oh, Ellen, it is sheer misery to know what I will be missing. I think of that grand house on the hill. I think of those other girls smiling at him (and even worse, of him smiling back at them). I live in dread of some future wedding announcement. What if he chooses Genevieve or Lydia as his wife?

It will all be Mama’s fault.



I pause, my gaze returning to that sentence at the top of the page. Mama says I do not know the captain’s sordid reputation. She has heard rumors.

What rumors might they be? What could have so scandalized Ionia’s mother that she forbade her sixteen-year-old daughter from any contact with Brodie? There would be the age difference, as well. The year this letter was written, Jeremiah Brodie would have been thirty-eight years old, more than twice the girl’s age, and based on her description of him, a strapping man in his masculine prime. I think of the portrait I saw hanging in the historical society, and can imagine how he must have set every young lady’s heart aflutter. He was a man of the world, commander of a sailing vessel, and the master of this grand house on the hill. He was also unmarried; what young lady wouldn’t want to catch his eye?

I imagine the dinner party at Brodie’s Watch and picture the cooks and servants bustling about in this kitchen where I’m now sitting. And in the dining room would be ship’s officers and flickering candles and young ladies dressed in those shimmering silks that The Minotaur had brought from China. There would be laughter and wine and more than a few amorous glances exchanged. And at the head of the table would be Jeremiah Brodie, whose notorious reputation made him off-limits for at least one innocent young lady.

    Hungry to know more about his reputation, I turn to the next page of the letter. I’m disappointed to find only one final paragraph by Ionia.



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Please, can you speak to your mama on my behalf? Ask her to speak to mine? The times have changed, and we are not the hothouse flowers they were at our age. If I cannot go to the party, I must find some other way to see him again. The Minotaur is in need of repairs and remains in dock at least until May. Surely other opportunities will arise before my captain once again sets sail!

As always, Ionia



I don’t know Ionia’s surname or what became of her, but I do know that three months after she wrote this letter, Captain Brodie would set sail on his doomed voyage.

I set down the pages, thinking of what she’d written: She says I am too innocent. She has heard rumors about what goes on in his house late into the night. I think of him standing in my bedroom. I think of his hand on my breast. And his words:

Do you submit?

My heart is pounding, my skin flushed. No, he is not a man suitable for the innocent Ionias of the world. He is a man who knows what he wants, and what he wants is a woman willing to take a bite of a dangerous apple. A woman willing to be led into a dark game where he holds all the power. Where the ultimate delights begin with complete surrender.