The Same Sky(30)

As I neared the train, it shot hot sparks at me, burning my skin. The lowest ladder rail was above my waist. Ernesto leapt, and I understood this was my chance.

Adrenaline ignited my arms; I grabbed the ladder with all my strength, pulling up, reaching for the higher rung, my feet flailing desperately. But then I found the bar, and I was aboard.

Below me, Junior ran alongside the train. “Come on!” I yelled, clinging to the ladder. He grasped for and then caught the bottom rung of a boxcar behind me.

“Help me!” he said. He was sobbing, and the air rushing underneath the train began to pull his legs under.

“Don’t let go!” yelled a man.

“Heave yourself up, boy!” screamed another.

“Help me!” cried my brother. “Please, God, help me!” A group of strangers scrambled toward Junior. They reached down, risking their own lives, and wrenched him slowly aboard. He collapsed, and I climbed the boxcar I had boarded. Our journey on The Beast had begun.





22




Alice


“YOU JUST LET yourself into the trailer?” said Jake.

“It was unlocked,” I said.

He turned to me, his features dark with anger. I’d thought the story was morbidly funny, but Jake seemed angry. “Well, Evian asked me to check on her mom,” I said. “She needed me. I just … I thought it was the right thing to do.”

“You thought it was the right thing to do?” asked Jake. “To drive over to a strange neighborhood and wander into someone else’s house?”

“Well, yeah,” I said. “And it’s not really a strange neighborhood as much as a menacing one.”

Jake shook his head. He was having none of my feeble jokes. “So was the mom there?” he asked.

“No,” I said. “No one was there. It was really dirty, Jake. It was sad.”

“Poor girl,” said Jake. It was early evening as we walked with Pete along Lady Bird Lake. Pete was thrilled about every single item we encountered, sniffing babies in strollers, weedy plants, and piles of shit without discrimination. I reached for Jake’s hand, but his arms were folded over his chest.

“What’s the matter?” I said.

Jake stopped abruptly, causing hikers and bikers to swerve around him. He turned to me. “Alice,” he said, “I’m worried about you.”

“Oh, really?” I said. An old defiance rose in me, the same emotion I’d felt when my high school counselor had tried to pry into my feelings about my mom’s death and when my dad had brought home a nanny to take care of Jane. “I’m fine,” I said, as I’d said when I canceled sessions with the counselor, and when I’d convinced my father to let the nanny go. “I am,” I told Jake. “Truly.”

“Look, we’re both struggling,” said Jake. I breathed evenly, waiting for him to stop talking. “I’ll be honest,” he said. “I’m having a hard time, too. But I’m afraid that you’re … misplacing your love. You know? You want someone to take care of, but this might not be the right person.”

“Oh?” I said. “Then who is the right person?”

My husband stood before me, opened his arms. If I had looked at his face, maybe I would have understood. Instead, I stared at the lake. It shimmered in the evening light, moving slowly, seemingly untroubled by the dozens of pleasure boats it buoyed.


Later that night, my phone rang while we were watching House Hunters International.

I glanced at the Caller ID. “It’s Evian,” I said.

Jake shrugged, annoyed. I didn’t answer the phone. The couple on the television looked at a modern Croatian house on the outskirts of town and a historic one near a bustling plaza. Neither house had enough closet space. Jake said, “Go on, listen to the message.”

I picked up my phone. There was no message. The couple on the television looked at a third house, situated on a hilltop with a fabulous view and totally enough closet space but kind of far away from restaurants.

I held my phone like a grenade. I bit my lip. After the commercial break, the couple chose the hilltop home. They were well on their way to a bright future in their new home, Zagreb! Three months later, the couple had furnished the living room and filled the closets. They chopped vegetables side by side and toasted their fabulous view. The credits rolled.

“I don’t know why I love that show, but I love that show,” I said.

“I prefer Pawn Stars,” said Jake.

“I know,” I said.

Jake stood and stretched. “I’m going to hit the hay,” he said. “The Bon Appétit reporter arrives tomorrow.” I smiled. A profile in Bon Appétit was thrilling.

“I’m so proud of you,” I said.

“You’re in the story, too,” said Jake.

“Really?” I said.

“I am pretty happy,” said Jake. “I mean, holy shit, Bon Appétit!”

“I know,” I said. Jake kissed my forehead and headed into the bedroom. I tried to read an old New Yorker but couldn’t seem to focus. I cared about jalape?o peppers, but not enough to read a ten-page treatise. I read that issue’s short story, “Robbers and Lightning,” which was translated from Korean and left me confused. I went out back, but there were no lights on at Beau and Camilla’s. I felt sorry about Evian, not sure if I should call her back or not. Finally I sent a text: Evian, I saw you called. Hope all is well?