The Rake (Boston Belles #4)(93)

I find fresh wrath in me when I hear the word condom. I manage to turn around and claw my nails into his eyes. Momentarily free, I scream for help again. With his vision blurred, he pounces on me, tackling me to the ground. His first blow lands on my jaw and stuns me into silence, even when the rest of my body still struggles to break free.

“Fine, never mind about the condom. Bitch.” He spits on my face.

I continue fighting, even when I know I’ve lost the war.

When all my soldiers are dead, and my horses are gone, and my land is swollen, thick with blood.

I keep fighting when he breaks me.

When he takes me.

When there’s nothing left to fight for.

I keep fighting, because that’s the only way I know how to survive.



The morning after my argument with Devon, I padded barefoot to his bed to apologize, but at six-thirty, he wasn’t there.

I brushed my teeth, slipped into a white mini-dress that highlighted my calves, and ate a piece of avocado toast. Afterwards, I drove to a different police station from the one I previously went to, and, the good girl that I was, filed another complaint, this time with a policewoman who seemed much more competent and much more freaked out about it, which oddly made me feel better.

By noon, my schedule was clear and my ass was bored. I knew Sam Brennan, whom I was planning to corner and demand he take me on as a client, wasn’t going to be in Badlands before eight in the evening, so I still had time to burn.

I stopped by Madame Mayhem to go over a few files and check on the staff. Devon didn’t want me to go there, but I had my gun, Krav Maga skills, and Simon.

As much as I hated to admit it, having a bodyguard the size of a politician’s ego wasn’t such a bad thing.

I showed up at the back office of my own club, armed with my laptop and a smile.

“Honey, I’m home!” I announced to Ross, whose eyes bulged out of their sockets on impact. He rushed to me, shaking his head and fist simultaneously.

“Holy Cody Simpson’s abs on a poster! What’re you doing here?”

“Working?”

“Under these circumstances?” He cradled my belly—the belly in which a person was now fluttering and flipping and doing all kinds of amazing things, especially at night—and gasped.

“Yeah. You expect me to just drop my responsibilities and dip?”

“I’m expecting you to look out for your wellbeing as well as your child’s!”

“I’m just going to do a couple hours of spreadsheets.”

“Bitch, you’re not an accountant. The world’s not going to collapse into itself if you don’t check on the Belgian beer supply today. And, sorry to break it to you, we’re doing swimmingly without you.”

Simon appeared out of nowhere, as if by magic, the minute my voice carried from the backroom.

To say he didn’t look happy to see me was the understatement of the century.

“You’re here.” Simon stopped at the door, disappointment rolling from his body in waves.

“Hello to you too, Si!” I smiled broadly.

“Mind if I work alongside you in your office?” he asked me but looked at Ross, as if to say, I’m knocking down her door if she refuses.

I waved him off with a smile. “Sure, whatever makes you and your uptight boss happy.”

“You’re your own greatest health hazard. I’m on the verge of quitting.” Ross slapped the back of his hand to his forehead before stomping off back to the bar to unload a shipment of alcohol. “Oh, and I’m telling your beau!”

I settled in front of my desk and popped my laptop open. “Go ahead, traitor!”

Ross popped his head back through my door, grinning like a loon. “So he is your beau. Girl … so jealous!”




I was putting a real dent in my workload, securing an out-of-state burlesque act that was visiting from Louisiana for the summer and negotiating a contract with a new liquor distributor, when there was a knock on my office door.

Rolling back in my chair, I stretched. “Thank God. I could use a distraction. Maybe it’s food. Do you think it’s food, Si?”

Simon, who sat a few feet away from me, dutifully pretending to do some filing even though there was very little to be filed in my office, stood up from his spot on the floor and dusted off his jeans. He motioned me with his hand to stay seated, heading for the door.

“Has anyone ever told you you’re anal-retentive, Si? You could use some loosening up.”

Baby Whitehall fluttered in agreement inside my belly, and I cradled it for a moment.

“Yeah, fair point, Baby Whitehall. I know. Mommy’s not perfect either. But you have to admit at least I come close.”

“There’s a woman here to see you,” Simon said tersely, blocking my line of vision of who it was with his Robocop shoulders.

“My, my, my, a visitor.” I laced my fingers together. “Is it Pers or Sailor? Ash is at work, so it can’t be her. Either way, they aren’t allowed in unless they come bearing edible gifts.”

“I think you should pass on this meeting. It’s not a social call.” Simon’s face was so tight, I thought he was going to explode.

“Who is it?”

“Miss Penrose …”

Why did he still insist on Miss Penrose when I called him Si? Why couldn’t he be less uptight? Where the heck did Devon find this guy anyway?