The Princess and the Fangirl (Once Upon a Con #2)(55)
“You can’t be Jess forever,” he says, his voice thin and brittle, “and those people out there? The ones who cheered for you? The paparazzi who called out your name? They care about Jess, and no matter how much you want or try to be her, all you’ll ever be is a copy.”
His words feel like a Kamehameha wave come to incinerate me, stinging deep below the makeup and the pretty designer dress. Tears pool at the edges of my eyes, burning.
“Is that what I am to you?” I ask quietly.
His eyebrows furrow and he looks like he might say something, but he never does. The silence is all the answer I need. I duck around him and head for the door. “I’m going to my room. Have a good night.”
I slam the door behind me, leaving like a companion from the Tardis, because the doors close exactly the same, abandoning me in the universe.
Alone.
DAY THREE
SATURDAY
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“You were warned about me, ah’blen.”
—Princess Amara, Episode 54, “Nox and Forever”
I PULL MY—WELL, IMOGEN’S—BADGE OVER my head as I hop on the escalator and head up to ExcelsiCon. The showroom floor doesn’t open for another ten minutes, so that means I have time to grab coffee from the hotel café and find Harper’s—and my? Imogen’s?—booth. My cheekbone is still a little sore, but concealer has covered up most of the gross bruising. My face should hurt more and I should feel much sleepier than I do, but honestly bliss is the best pain reliever.
The last few hours feel like a waltz across the stars. I never want to come back down.
Harper and I stargazed until just after midnight, when she had to go check on the Stellar Party, and I ended up falling asleep in her bed before she returned. This morning, I woke up to her in bed with me, looking at me from where she lay on her pillow, the distance between us like one star to the next—lightyears traveled in a single breath. She smiled and I burrowed my head into the covers and tried to stop my heart from beating so fast.
Harper’s room was not quite as stocked as my suite—they didn’t even have coffee filters—and so she tasked me with a coffee run while she began setting up the booth.
That gave me time to hurry up to my suite in the other hotel and grab an extra pair of clothes; I didn’t want to wear Imogen’s again. I found Ethan asleep on the couch, his phone on the floor. I picked it up and put it on the coffee table and covered him up with a blanket.
Imogen probably stayed in her room for the night. If I’d been in her shoes, I would’ve too.
Without waking Ethan, I took a quick shower and slipped into a pair of jeans and a black hoodie I’d reserved for the plane ride home; I put on a pair of comfortable flats and tucked my hair into my SPACE QUEEN beanie. As I quietly left the suite, I slid Ethan’s glasses back on, the feeling of anonymity settling over me like a soothing balm. No one looked twice at me in the lobby; the morning was cool, the convention halls empty.
Maybe I don’t hate ExcelsiCon as much as I thought.
I decide to take a shortcut across the showroom to the café, thinking that I haven’t even gotten a call from Ethan yet, which is glorious. The Twitter leaker hasn’t posted again either. Everything is so calm.
And I am so, so happy.
Not even the towering Nox King on the corner of the aisle can ruin my mood.
“Monster!”
My feet slow to a stop. It’s a voice I don’t recognize—not Bran or Milo or any of the people I met last night. I glance behind me.
Approaching me is woman with long black hair, dressed in a lacy black evening gown with butterfly sleeves and thigh-high boots. Her nails are like cat claws, her eyes dark with thick makeup. And then those dark eyes widen. “Oh, I’m sorry, you’re someone else.”
I blink at the woman and then, remembering the warning, I look to the Nox King statue. Then back at her.
This must be one of Imogen’s mothers.
Cursing, I quickly angle my face away and fold my arms over my chest to hide my badge. “Um, it’s fine.”
When I begin to leave she adds, “Your aura is very troubled. Come to Figurine It Out and we can—”
“That’s great, goodbye!” I hastily escape the aisle, grateful that she doesn’t follow, and breathe a sigh of relief. That was much too close. Harper said that Imogen’s parents were fun, but that was just bizarre.
I shake off the encounter and grab our coffees, arriving back at Artists’ Alley right before the floodgates open and con attendees rush inside. I slip behind the table just as people emerge from the escalators, on their way to panels and signing lines and meet-and-greets. I sit with a relieved sigh and hand Harper her coffee.
“The nectar of the goddesses,” she says, and sighs happily. “You know, there’s something lovely about coffee in the morning when you’re running on four hours of sleep.”
“Four hours? You should’ve gotten at least six.”
“Well someone kept kicking me out of bed.”
“Well there was an entirely other bed that your roommates didn’t use last night.”
“It was cold in the room. We needed to sleep together for warmth,” she points out slyly.