The Paris Apartment(14)

Penthouse



I’m coming up the stairs when I see her. A stranger inside these walls. It sends such a jolt through me that I nearly drop the box from the boulangerie. A girl, snooping around on the penthouse landing. She has no business being here.

I watch her for a while before I speak. “Bonjour,” I say coolly.

She spins around, caught out. Good. I wanted to shock her.

But now it’s my turn to be shocked. “You.” It’s her from the boulangerie: the scruffy girl who picked up the note I dropped.

Double la prochaine fois, salope. Double the next time, bitch.

“Who are you?”

“I’m Jess. Jess Hadley. I’m staying with my brother Ben,” she says, quickly. “On the third floor.”

“If you are staying on the third floor then what are you doing up here?” It makes sense, I suppose. Sneaking around in here as though she owns the place. Just like him.

“I was looking for Ben.” She must realise how absurd this sounds, as though he might be hiding in some shadowy corner up here in the eaves, because she suddenly looks sheepish. “Do you know him? Benjamin Daniels?”

That smile: a fox entering the henhouse. The sound of a glass smashing. A smear of crimson on a stiff white napkin.

“Nicolas’s friend. “Yes. Although I’ve only met him a couple of times.”

“Nicolas? Is that ‘Nick’? I think Ben might have mentioned him. Which floor’s he on?”

I hesitate. Then I say: “The second.”

“Do you remember when you last saw him about?” she asks. “Ben, I mean? He was meant to be here last night. I tried asking one of the girls—Mimi?—on the fourth floor, but she wasn’t too helpful.”

“I don’t recall.” Perhaps my answer sounds too quick, too certain. “But then he keeps so much to himself. You know. Rather—what’s the English expression?—reserved.”

“Really? That doesn’t sound anything like Ben! I’d expect him to be friends with everyone in this building by now.”

“Not with me.” That at least is true. I give a little shrug. “Anyway, maybe he went away and forgot to tell you?”

“No,” she says. “He wouldn’t do that.”



Could I remember the last time I saw him? Of course I can.

But I am thinking now about the first time. About two months ago. The middle of the heatwave.

I did not like him. I knew it straightaway.

The laughter, that’s what I heard first. Vaguely threatening, in the way male laughter can be. The almost competitive nature of it.

I was in the courtyard. I had spent the afternoon planting in the shade. To others gardening is a form of creative abandon. To me it is a way of exerting control upon my surroundings. When I told Jacques I wanted to take care of the courtyard’s small garden he did not understand. “There are people we can pay to do it for us,” he told me. In my husband’s world there are people you can pay for anything.

The end of the day: the light fading, the heat still oppressive. I watched from behind the rosemary bushes as the two of them entered the courtyard. Nick first. Then a stranger, wheeling a moped. Around the same age as his friend, but he seemed somehow older. Tall and rangy. Dark hair. He carried himself well. A very particular confidence in the way he inhabited the space around him.

I watched as Nick’s friend plucked a sprig of rosemary from one of the bushes, tearing hard to wrench it free. How he crushed it to his nose, inhaled. There was something presumptuous about the gesture. It felt like an act of vandalism.

Then Benoit was running over to them. The newcomer scooped him up and held him.

I stood. “He doesn’t like to be held by anyone but me.”

Benoit, the traitor, turned his head to lick the stranger’s hand.

“Bonjour Sophie,” Nicolas said. “This is Ben. He’s going to be living here, in the apartment on the third floor.” Proud. Showing off this friend like a new toy.

“Pleased to meet you, Madame.” He smiled then, a lazy smile that was somehow just as presumptuous as the way he’d ripped into that bush. You will like me, it said. Everyone does.

“Please,” I said. “Call me Sophie.” The Madame had made me feel about a hundred years old, even though it was only proper.

“Sophie.”

Now I wished I hadn’t said it. It was too informal, too intimate. “I’ll take him, please.” I held out my hands for the dog. Benoit smelled faintly of petrol, of male sweat. I held him at a little distance from my body. “The concierge won’t like that,” I added, nodding at the moped, then toward the cabin. “She hates them.”

I had wanted to assert myself, but I sounded like a matron scolding a small boy.

“Noted,” he said. “Cheers for the tip. I’ll have to butter her up, get her on side.”

I stared at him. Why on earth would he want to do that?

“Good luck there,” Nick said. “She doesn’t like anyone.”

“Ah,” he says. “But I like a challenge. I’ll win her over.”

“Well watch out,” Nick said. “I’m not sure you want to encourage her. She has a knack for appearing round corners when you least expect it.”