The Lost Fisherman (Fisherman #2)(19)
Chapter Ten
Sunday morning brought an unexpected guest to our house. I had just returned from my morning jog. Three long faces at the kitchen table greeted me.
Rory. Rose. And Angie.
“Hey,” I said with caution.
“How was your run?” Rory asked.
“Fine,” I replied slowly, filling a glass with water. “Is … everything okay?”
“Fisher suggested Angie move out and they date again.” Just Rose giving me the quick explanation made Angie cry. Again, I assumed.
“Oh.” That was the best I had, but I dug deeper for more. “Well, I’m sure that’s hard to hear. But he’s not saying he doesn’t want you. And it’s impossible for any of us to put ourselves in Fisher’s shoes. But I’d imagine he’s feeling overwhelmed.”
“And how do you think I’m feeling?” Angie cried.
Rory frowned at me like it was my fault.
“I imagine you’re feeling scared. Grateful that you didn’t lose him in that accident, yet you did lose him in many ways. It’s like the family of someone with Alzheimer’s. You realize that all the pictures and souvenirs from life mean nothing without the actual memories. You’re a stranger to the person you love most in the world. And falling in love with someone is like offering a part of yourself to them. If Fisher doesn’t recognize you, it’s like you’re missing a part of yourself. And you’re questioning who you are or who you will be if you never get that piece back. But honestly, I’d imagine your biggest fear right now is that Fisher won’t fall in love with you again.” I pressed my lips together for a few seconds. I might have gone too far. “At least, that’s how I would feel if I were in your shoes.”
Angie blinked a new round of tears as her face wrinkled. “Y-yes … that’s exactly h-how I f-feel.”
Rose hugged her. “He’ll come around. You’re a beautiful, kind, talented woman. He’d be a fool to not fall in love with you again.”
“W-what am I supposed to do…” she sniffled and wiped her face “…about the wedding? Do we cancel? We’ve put money down on a venue. A florist. I’ve bought a d-dress.”
Rory looked to me, her silent plea for help. Just because I read her mind regarding her emotions didn’t mean I had great advice for her wedding plans.
With wide eyes, I shrugged and turned my attention to the rest of the water in my glass, gulping it down. “I’m going to grab a shower. I hope it all works out how it should.”
Sadly, I thought it should work out differently than she did.
My first day with Holly could not have been better. She was the midwife I wanted to be. Patient. Calm. Caring. Encouraging. The clinic was an old house with the rooms converted into ‘exam’ rooms, if you could call them that. They were decorated with a Zen theme. Nothing cold and sterile about them.
The midwives scheduled two hours with every person to give them the chance to ask questions and express concerns or fears about … anything. One of Holly’s clients was three months pregnant and stressed over what car to get for their growing family. Holly grabbed her computer and helped search for good options for safety, gas milage, best value, etc.
Who did that at a routine prenatal visit?
That was what I loved about Holly and the other midwives at the clinic. Nothing they did felt routine at all. Every client had their own birth plan, no two exactly alike.
Different needs.
Different inherent risks.
Different concerns.
She respected their decisions without judgment.
“How was your day?” Rory asked when I arrived home a little after six in the evening.
As if she couldn’t tell from the grin on my face and the exaggerated bounce in my step. We spent the next hour eating dinner and discussing my first day.
“Enough about me, how was your day?”
“Interesting,” Rory said.
“Understatement.” Rose rolled her eyes as I grabbed her empty plate from the table.
“Do tell.” I carried our dishes to the sink.
“Hailey called me on my way to work. Apparently, Angie unloaded on her too. Hailey asked me to talk to Fisher. Then Fisher’s sister called me. Again, asking me to talk to Fisher. Then it hit me … I must be his only friend. Why does everyone think that I can fix this? That he will listen to me? And I don’t even know what I’m supposed to tell him because I know what it’s like to not be in love with the person everyone thinks you should love.”
My dad.
“Sorry, Reese,” she whispered as Rose kissed the top of her head.
I leaned against the counter and crossed my arms over my chest. “Dad died ten years ago. I think you can officially retire from feeling guilty for not loving him the way you love Rose. Okay?”
She nodded slowly. “Thank you.”
“As for Fisher, I think you can talk with him, but I’d listen more than preach to him. Think of what you wanted from people around you when you knew you were going to disappoint everyone for having feelings that only you could understand.”
Rory gave me a look for a few seconds. I couldn’t quite decode it.
“You sure have grown up. I’m so proud of you.”