The Golden Couple(67)
Marissa slumps and closes her eyes briefly.
“It was awful. I was really worried that he—”
“Talk to Matthew directly, Marissa. ‘I was really worried that you…’”
Marissa turns to face her husband. They’re so close that the tips of their noses are just inches apart. “Matthew, I was really worried that you wouldn’t make it.” She swallows hard and her voice trembles. “That we wouldn’t get a second chance. I’ve hurt you so badly, and I was terrified I lost you just when it seemed like we were finally finding each other.”
Even though Marissa’s words sound a bit Hallmarky, I believe they are sincere. She truly wants a deeper relationship with Matthew; something more than a curated Instagram marriage. If Marissa had had that connection with her husband in the first place, she would never have sought it with another man.
Maybe it’s the naked yearning on Marissa’s face or perhaps it’s my earlier remembrance of Paul’s final moments, but I feel my throat tighten, as it always does when I’m about to cry. I look down at my notepad and pretend to jot something down.
“Marissa,” Matthew begins.
Then Marissa’s phone buzzes with an incoming call. She looks at her purse, then back at Matthew. Her face twists as she says, “I’m so sorry. Bennett is over at his friend Charlie’s house and I need to grab this. Just in case.”
She lifts the phone to her ear and listens for a few seconds as her expression morphs. A minute ago, she was gentle and vulnerable. Now, a kind of darkness has come into her eyes. Her moods seem to shift like a body of water on a windy day.
“Wait, I’m here with Matthew. Let me put you on speakerphone. Can you repeat that?”
She lays her phone on the coffee table and a deep voice begins, “We need Matthew to come to the station. We have a suspect in custody and want Matthew to try to identify him in a lineup.”
CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
MARISSA
MARISSA PAUSES AT a stop sign, taking an extra moment to ensure the cross street is clear before she presses down on the gas pedal.
She’s so worn-out that even the extra cup of coffee she gulped this morning barely made a dent in her exhaustion, and though she’s cutting it close in getting Bennett to school on time, she is careful to drive under the speed limit. The last thing they need is another accident.
Back at home, Matthew is still asleep. True to form for her hard-charging husband, he overdid it yesterday afternoon by going to the office for a couple of hours and retrieving his car from the garage, then meeting her at Avery’s for their fifth session. Marissa had suggested postponing it, but Matthew insisted he was fine.
He might have been, but the visit to the police station, even though it was brief, seemed to put him over the edge. She couldn’t recall the last time Matthew had taken a sick day, but he was doing so today.
Matthew couldn’t identify anyone from the lineup. I never saw his face, he explained to the police detective. It appeared to be a random attack. Yet Marissa couldn’t stop thinking about how Matthew’s assailant ignored his expensive watch and wallet filled with cash and credit cards.
The attack felt personal.
“Mom?” Marissa looks in the rearview mirror and sees Bennett playing with his Rubik’s Cube, twisting around the colorful pieces of plastic. “Can we have pizza tonight?”
Bennett’s timing is exquisite; ordering out has never sounded so appealing.
“You know what? Maybe not pizza again, but we can definitely get takeout. Let’s check with Dad, too. He’s going to rest at home today.”
Bennett nods. “’Kay.”
She tries to gauge his tone, but it’s hard to decipher how he feels. Bennett knows Matthew got hurt—there was no hiding the bandage on Matthew’s forehead—but they’d simply told their eight-year-old that his father had been in a minor car accident. Revealing Matthew had been assaulted would only have worried Bennett, even though Marissa is sure he would have loved to hear about Matthew’s going to the police station and looking through the one-way mirror at suspects in a lineup.
“I’m going to be late,” Bennett frets.
“No, you won’t. We’ve got ninety seconds until the bell, and we’re just about there.” Marissa pulls into the loop that will take them to the South Entrance, where the third-graders disembark and shake the hand of the lower-school principal.
Then she sees Natalie’s familiar figure striding toward the main entrance.
“Damn it,” Marissa mutters, suddenly remembering the auction meeting she’s supposed to attend this morning right after drop-off. Luckily Bennett is too focused on his puzzle to mention the curse jar.
“Okay, sweetie. Time to get out,” she nudges. “Don’t forget your lunch box!”
“Love you.” Bennett slides out of his seat.
“Love you, too.” She feels the truth of the words down to her bones.
She drives to the visitor parking lot and finds an empty spot, then glances in the rearview mirror and swipes on some lip gloss. She looks down at her leggings and faded sweatshirt and shrugs. They’ll have to do, even though they don’t fit the unspoken uniform of Rolling Hills mothers. Wearing exercise clothes to a parent-run meeting is acceptable, as long as it’s an appropriate brand and doesn’t have mysterious stains, such as the coffee dribbles Marissa sports on her right cuff. She rolls up her sleeves to hide the dark marks and fluffs her hair, wishing she had time to put on mascara and concealer. She feels so washed-out.