The Girl Who Survived(25)

The snow had stopped falling, a deep blanket glittering from the muted light of her window. She shivered, pulled on the terry cloth robe she’d left on the back of a side chair covered in other wrinkled clothes. Cinching the belt tight, she dropped back onto the bed and dropped her face into her hands.

This had to end.

This torment.

There had to be a way to make it go away.

Maybe once Jonas’s release faded to the background becoming just another forgotten news story when some other tragedy took control of the press, maybe once then she could find a way, somehow, to finally put this all behind her.

Oh, sure.

What are the chances of that?

“Shut up,” she said aloud, hoping to still that horrid little voice in her head, the one that reminded her she would never be normal, always be labeled a freak, forever looked at as the survivor of an unimaginable event.

Her cell phone vibrated, humming beneath the twisted bedding. She tossed off the duvet and found it in a tangled sheet.

A text.

From an unknown number.

Kara read the message and the hairs at her nape stood on end. She dropped the phone onto the floor, but it landed faceup.

Across the small screen, the words glowed bright: She’s alive.





CHAPTER 7


Kara stumbled back from the bed, tripping on a pair of boots and catching herself against the wall. Who? Who was alive?

It’s just another prank.

Immediately she thought of Jonas. He was out now, right? Had he gotten her number and what? Texted her in the middle of the night?

No way.

Quivering inside, she returned to her bed and picked up the phone, noticing a voice mail from the same number, a call she’d missed when she’d been asleep.

You mean passed out, don’t you?

Ignoring her stupid conscience, she picked up the phone and listened to the voice mail message.

For a few seconds there was nothing, just some ambient noise. The wind? Air rushing outside a moving car? Labored breathing?

She swallowed hard and pushed aside her racing thoughts as a whisper-thin voice came onto the call.

“She’s alive,” the person said, the voice a raspy whisper.

Was the caller male?

Female?

Impossible to tell.

Click!

Whoever it was had disconnected.

An hour later, the text had come in.

Heart hammering, she texted back.

Who is alive?

She waited.

One minute. Two. After three, she wrote again.

Who are you?

She was sweating though the room was cool. Rhapsody snored softly, and she heard the quiet thrum of the heater pushing warm air through the house over the pounding of her pulse in her ears.

No response.

She looked at the clock. 3:17.

Her stomach knotted as she punched out the number, held the phone to her ear and closed her eyes. One ring, two, three . . . no voice mail box where she could leave a message. Just ringing over and over in her ears.

She imagined the caller on the other end of the connection, staring at the ringing phone, seeing her message and not even bothering to pick up.

Her eyebrows drew together.

Why?

It’s Jonas. You know it is. He’s out and he’s still angry with you, so he’s playing a game. Get ready, Kara, this is going to be bad.

“No,” she whispered aloud, and clicked off the phone. Lying on the bed, her head propped by pillows, she stared vacantly to the wall where the picture hung, a photograph of her entire family, caught in a moment in time. They had all been gathered at the cabin, and Mama had insisted they sit for a family picture, outside near the lake, a professional photographer hired.

It was supposed to show the blended family as happy. Normal.

But it hadn’t been. Nor would it ever.

She blinked against a spate of tears and studied the photo that she knew by heart.

Backdropped by the lake in summer, the entire family was strung out on a log.

Mama standing behind Donner and Marlie, who sat next to each other on the mossy downed tree. Daddy had his hand on his two sons’ shoulders, a relaxed left hand over Sam Junior’s, while the fingers of his right were tight over Jonas’s upper arm. Kara was seated in the middle between Jonas and Marlie, and everyone smiled at the camera while the sun set. Everyone but Jonas. Even then, he was somber, his eyes, beneath the shag of dark hair, narrowed, his lips compressed, his arms crossed over his chest. He looked as if he would rather be anywhere else in the world.

Her eyes returned to her only sister. What had Marlie known? Why had her clothes been folded neatly on the edge of her bed when she’d never been particularly tidy? Why had she spirited Kara up to the attic? She’d been scared. Frightened out of her mind. And yet she hadn’t hidden with Kara up in that dark garret. Instead, she’d insisted she’d return.

But she hadn’t.

Not ever.

A lump filled Kara’s throat and she felt the sting of tears behind her eyes. What had happened to her sister? And could it be worse than what had happened to her brothers? She remembered inching down the stairs, the dread pounding in her brain, her fingers trailing along the railing as the Christmas carol whispered up the stairs—

“Stop it!” she screamed, and felt her heartbeat pounding in her skull. This was insane! She couldn’t do it anymore. “You are not a victim. You survived. Remember. You are not a victim.”