The Envy of Idols (Rich Boys of Burberry Prep #3)(61)

“They would if you’d just let your freak flag fly,” Miranda chides, pausing as Lizzie and Tristan appear, coming out the doors of the chapel building. Ugh. My heart pounds when I see them together, but I ignore it. Like I said, I have to let the pieces fall as they may. I’m not into sabotage.

On Thanksgiving Day, we all ate in The Mess together, and the academy kitchen team prepared a pretty traditional meal. Lizzie sat next to Tristan then, too, and it occurred to me that she really is seeking him out. She’s making an effort. And yet, she’s still wearing her engagement ring. She’s as torn as Andrew is, between reality and a distant dream.

I’m a bit of a plucky optimist: I always choose the dream.

“Tristan, are you going on the San Francisco trip or …” I start, trailing off and huddling deeper into one of Zack’s hoodies. He left it in my room on accident, and well, it’s big and soft, and I love the smell too much to give it back. Grapefruit and nutmeg, that’s what it reminds me of.

“San Francisco trip,” he says, and Lizzie bites her lip.

“I’m going to the winter formal,” she says with a small sigh. “My dad arranged for a visitor’s pass, so Marcel could take me.” She doesn’t sound particularly happy about that, and I notice Tristan’s shoulders get tense.

He moves past her and out from under the awning, so he can glance up at the dusky sky, and the swirling snow.

Zack comes out a moment later, spots me in his hoodie, and grins as he pops over to sit beside me. Even with the stolen hoodie, I’m still freezing, so I burrow into him and eventually end up sitting between his legs, his big, warm body draped over mine. I like it best that way, being swallowed up by Zack and his heavy winter coat.

“We need to get you a new jacket,” he says, but we both know I already have one that Miranda bought for me last year. I’d just rather wear his hoodie is all. “Not that I mind you wearing my sweater.” He chuckles and nuzzles against my ear, giving me serious butterflies, a whole swarm of them. His muscular arms are banded around me, squeezing tight, and I relax into them.

“You’re going on the San Francisco trip?” I ask, and Miranda sighs dramatically.

“Hey, you, crazy person,” she says, moving over to stand in front of me, looking like a model with her sheet of shiny hair, designer ski outfit, and bright pink jacket. She points at me and pokes me in the forehead. “I told you: wherever you go, the guys will follow, stop asking.”

“And you?” Zack asks, because Creed isn’t the only one who knows about the kiss between me and Miranda. Somehow, they all do, and they’re jealous as hell about it. Maybe they see her as a serious threat?

“Of course I’m going to San Francisco,” she scoffs, checking the time on her watch. “It’s a third year right to go.” She drops her arm by her side and gives me a look. “It’s almost time to get ready. That is, if you don’t want to get onstage with mussy hair and poorly done makeup.”

“Aren’t you so sweet,” I tease, scooping up a bit of snow and chucking it at her.

“We need to be on time for the talent show,” Tristan says, turning to look at us, his hands buried in the pockets of his gray wool coat. “It’s imperative.”

“You guys have something planned,” I say, glancing back at Zack, but he gives nothing away. His face looks like it always does, serious and deep and dark. I reach up and tug on a lock of his brown hair, but he just raises his brows and says nothing.

I guess it doesn’t matter.

I’m about to find out anyway.



The auditorium is packed, but there’s a general sense of irritation from the crowd. Attendance is compulsory, but everyone really just wants to dick around in the snow. Doesn’t bother me. I’m just using the show as a point of interest on my college application, and also to practice for the winter concert. Next week, I’m traveling for a cheer competition in Los Angeles, so I won’t be able to play the harp all weekend.

Part of me wonders if I should quit the team. I’m not particularly invested in or excited by cheering, or by sports in general really, but it’s a good way to stay in shape, and it does add some interest to my résumé. Anyway, even though half the girls on the squad are Company members that hate me and my guys, I can’t ditch Coach Hannah and the others just before our first real competition.

We’ve done a few local things, but we haven’t come back with any medals or trophies just yet. I don’t think this time will be different, but we’ve gotten a hell of a lot better since third year started, so who knows?

Zayd is one the first performers to take the stage, and he gets quite the warm welcome from the crowd. Part of that, I’m sure, is because of his outfit: these tight leather pants that cup his ass like a second skin, and a loose, torn tank with some old band logo on the front. He might be playing an acoustic guitar, but he looks like he’s ready for a rock concert.

I sneak out from backstage, and stand at the edge of the auditorium, my heart singing as he plays his song in front of the whole school. Becky calls out some bullshit from behind the curtain, but I don’t let her words bother me because they’re tinged with jealousy. That, and Zayd … he told me he loves me, didn’t he?

It’s a huge thing, those few words. They mean a whole hell of a lot.