The Dream Thieves (The Raven Cycle, #2)(22)

“Yeah. I just … has she ever said anything to you about me?”

“Like what?”

A long silence. “About kissing, I guess.”

Gansey paused in his rolling. As a point of fact, Blue had confessed a lot about kissing. Namely, that she’d been told her entire life that she’d kill her true love if she kissed him. It was strange to remember that moment. He’d doubted her, he recalled. He wouldn’t have now. Blue was a fanciful but sensible thing, like a platypus, or one of those sandwiches that had been cut into circles for a fancy tea party.

She’d also asked Gansey not to tell Adam about her confession.

“Kissing?” he repeated evasively. “What’s going on?”

Another crash from Ronan’s room, followed by diabolical laughter. Gansey wondered if he should stop them before vehicles with strobe lights did.

“I dunno. She doesn’t want to,” Adam said. “I don’t blame her, I guess. I don’t know what I’m doing.”

“Have you asked her why she doesn’t want to?” Gansey asked, though he didn’t want to hear the answer. He was abruptly tired of the conversation.

“She said she was very young.”

“She probably is.” Gansey had no idea how old Blue was. He knew she’d just finished eleventh grade. Maybe she was sixteen. Maybe she was eighteen. Maybe she was twenty-two and just very short and remedial.

“I dunno, Gansey. Does that sound like a real thing? You’ve dated way more than me.”

“I’m not dating now.”

“Except for Glendower.”

Gansey couldn’t argue that point. “Look, Adam, I don’t think it’s about you. I think she likes you fine.”

Adam clearly didn’t like this answer, though, because he didn’t reply. It gave Gansey enough time to remember the moment he’d first approached her at Nino’s on Adam’s behalf. How disastrous it had been. Since then, he’d considered a dozen different ways he could’ve done it better.

Which was foolish. It had all worked out, hadn’t it? She was with Adam now. Whether or not Gansey had made a first-class prat of himself the moment they met didn’t change anything.

“No way, man!” Noah shouted, but he didn’t sound like he meant it. His words were most of the way to a laugh already. “No way —”

Gansey kicked the rolled print hard enough that it teetered crookedly out to its end, yards away, out of the circles of light. Standing, he walked to the windows on the eastern wall of the factory. Leaning an elbow on the frame, he pressed his forehead against the glass, to gaze on the great, black spread of Henrietta below.

Once, he had dreamt that he found Glendower. It wasn’t the actual finding, but the day after. He wouldn’t forget the sensation of the dream. It hadn’t been joy, but instead, the absence of pain. He couldn’t forget that lightness. The freedom.

“I don’t want things to get ugly,” Adam said finally.

“Are they ugly?”

“No. I guess not. But somehow they always seem to get that way.”

Gansey watched tiny car lights diminish as they left Henrietta, reminding him of his miniature version of the town. An early, illicit firework sprayed up in the foreground. “Well, she’s not really like a girl. I mean, sure she’s a girl. But it’s not like when I was dating someone. It’s Blue. You could just ask her. We see her every day. Do you want me to talk to her?”

This was something he definitely, 100 percent felt certain in his guts that he had no interest in doing.

“I’m really bad at talking, Gansey,” Adam said earnestly. “And you’re really good at it. Maybe — maybe if it just comes up natural?”

Gansey’s shoulders collapsed; his breath fogged the glass and vanished. “Of course.”

“Thanks.” Adam paused. “I just want something to be simple.”

So do I, Adam. So do I.

Ronan’s bedroom door burst open. Hanging on the door frame, Ronan leaned out to peer past Gansey. He was doing that thing where he looked like both the dangerous Ronan he was now and the cheerier Ronan he had been when Gansey had first met him. “Is Noah out here?”

“Hold on,” Gansey told Adam. Then, to Ronan: “Why would he be?”

“No reason. Just no reason.” Ronan slammed his door.

Gansey asked Adam, “Sorry. You still have that suit for the party?”

Adam’s response was buried in the sound of the second-story door falling open. Noah slouched in. In a wounded tone, he said, “He threw me out the window!”

Ronan’s voice sang out from behind his closed door: “You’re already dead!”

“What’s happening over there?” Adam asked.

Gansey eyed Noah. He didn’t look any worse for wear. “I have no idea. You should come over.”

“Not tonight,” replied Adam.

I’m losing him, Gansey thought. I’m losing him to Cabeswater. He had thought that by staying away from the forest, he’d keep the old Adam — put off the consequences of whatever had happened that night when everything started to go awry. But maybe it just didn’t matter. Cabeswater would take him regardless.

Gansey said, “Well. Just make sure you have a red tie.”