The Dollhouse(73)

“You’ve been experimenting with spices.” She took another spoonful. Delicious.

“I have. Sam’s book inspired me.”

She gestured around the room, a mixture of modern furniture with a few antiques. “How did you end up here?”

“My grandmother lived here for years, and she left it to me. I moved in after my mother died.”

“I had a feeling the china cabinet wasn’t your pick.”

He looked at it and laughed. “No.”

“My father’s going to die, isn’t he?”

Jason didn’t answer.

“He hit his head, broke his hip. How can he recover from that? I have to face the facts. That’s what the doctor hinted at, right?”

“That is what he said. I’m sorry, Rose.”

She was glad he was there. That she had someone near to confirm the underlying message the doctor had given her, the tone that seeped out from under the inventory of body parts and injuries.

Jason continued. “They’re going to keep him on heavy sedatives, he won’t feel any pain, and he won’t be confused. He seemed very peaceful by the time we left, remember that.”

She nodded. And burst into tears.

He came around from the other side of the counter and stood close, wrapping his arms around her. Her head fit perfectly into his shoulder, and she wept. When she was done, he passed her a napkin to wipe her eyes.

“Sorry about that.” She balled the napkin up in her fist.

The heavy weight of his hands pressed on her shoulders. She wanted to be tight against him again, to feel the body of another person with its muscles and contours. Several years ago, she’d read a book by a woman with autism who had invented a “hugging machine” that pressed against her on all sides and offered a relief from anxiety. That’s what she wanted from Jason. To be enveloped and enclosed, to shut out the awfulness of the day.

She put the napkin on the counter and placed her hands around his neck.

He gently removed them.

“Have you ever covered a war and fallen into something because you felt so bad, and it made you feel good? Have you ever done that?”

He shook his head. “I don’t think you’re in the right frame of mind for this.”

“You know what I’m talking about, though, don’t you? Where it takes away some of the pain?”

“I do know.”

“Then let this be that.”

She pulled his head gently toward her and kissed him. He stayed very still but didn’t pull away. She continued, enjoying his lips against hers, reaching her tongue out, rewarded when he parted his lips and gave a short intake of breath. Rose moved her hands to his waist and pulled him into her and he took her face in his, his tongue exploring her mouth and moving to her neck. She gasped as he teased the curves of her ears. He knew his way around a woman.

And that’s what she wanted. He led her to his bed, asking if she would regret this tomorrow. She insisted she would not and knew she wouldn’t. Jason was an unexpectedly graceful lover. He savored every inch of her, relished bringing her almost to the edge, then retreating and teasing her, his eyes sparkling with a delicious cruelty. His technique was unlike that of any other man she’d known, and for moments at a time she was transported. She returned the favor, enjoying the satisfied look on his face afterward.

“So there’s that, then,” he said, rolling onto his side to trace one finger along her belly.

“Yes.” She thought of Bird. “I should be getting back.”

“Are you sure?”

“I am. Thank you.”

“I aim to please.”

She kissed him lightly. “I bet.”

She grabbed her phone and called the nurses’ station at the hospital. “He’s resting peacefully,” she reported to Jason.

Rose slipped on her panties, turning away slightly, then yanked on her jeans. “I’ve really got to go. Back to real life. And we should probably lay low until the Barbizon project is finished up.”

“Worried about the ethics of this?”

She sighed. “Always.” If he only knew how unethical she really was.

“What happened with Gloria Buckstone?” He sat up and put a pillow behind his back, as if he had all the time in the world.

The vision of Gloria’s black leather boots, which hugged the shin and ended right below the knee, flew into her head. Rose closed her eyes, remembering the look on Gloria’s face as she leaned against her desk, her mouth set into a firm line. It was what had made her the star she was, her way of incorporating the coyness of a twenties film queen with the granite determination of an undertaker.

Rose’s sweater was lying on the bedside table. She pulled it over her head. “What rumors have you heard?”

“Rumor has it that Buckstone set you up for a fall.”

“Nothing that glamorous. The banking documents we got on Senator Madden seemed suspicious. I told Gloria we should wait to make any accusations, that they might be false.”

Jason nodded, encouraging her on.

“I cared more about the facts than being first. But she didn’t want to wait.”

In fact, Gloria had laid into Rose when she’d expressed her concerns. Told her she was smart and capable and if she wanted to rise in the company, she’d have to be more sure of herself. Take risks. Her words had stuck in Rose’s head, like an anti-mantra: “The only person who’s scared is you,” Gloria told her, “and it shows. If you want to report the news, you have to be the one in the driver’s seat. Now, drive.”