The Devil You Know (The Devils #3)(36)

“I went to the ER the night you grabbed my wrist,” I reply. The trick, when lying, is to make yourself really believe it’s true. Right now, I can almost remember the hospital, late at night, fluorescent lights overhead, the smell of bleach. “The bruising is documented. I discussed the incident with several people at the time—the doctor treating my injuries was very adamant about me reporting the attack to the police. Drop the charges against Ben or I file for assault.”

“You think you can threaten me, you fucking bitch?” he demands. “You’ve got no proof.”

“I’m pretty sure I just told you I have proof, and I guarantee there was a camera that caught what you did outside the bar. But if you want to go up against me in court, let’s go. This kind of case is how I make my living. I will clear my goddamn schedule.”

He hangs up, which is when I stare at my shaking hands and admit, for the first time, how much this matters to me. That I didn’t go running to Fields’ office because it was the right thing to do. I did it because I don’t want to work here without Ben Tate.

I thought his presence at FMG was a glaring, obnoxious light.

But maybe it was simply the only bright spot in my day.





By eight-thirty, I’m too edgy and amped-up to work. I know I need to thank Ben, but it’s awkward, and my feelings at present are confused and chaotic, which leads me to avoid them entirely.

I’m running through a list of Ben’s greatest hits, trying to continue disliking him, trying to justify the fact that I haven’t said a word to him all day.

He stole my client.

He said “I told you you’d beg”.

But none of it holds the sting it once did, and I’m not sure how to keep my boundaries in place without that. Finally, I spring from my chair and begin packing to leave. Maybe I’ll go talk to him, but more likely I’ll sneak away like a coward. He’ll be in Charlotte next week…if I just avoid him entirely, perhaps things will be normal by the time he gets back.

I’ve slung the bag over my shoulder and am about to head out when Ben appears, looming in the frame of my door, looking at me without an ounce of his trademark certainty.

My stomach ties itself into a knot so tight it hurts. “Did Webber drop the charges?” I blurt out.

His mouth moves, a passing suggestion of pleasure. “He did.” He walks into the office, closing the door behind him. The sound it makes seems to echo through the room. “I thought you might have had something to do with it.”

I stare at my shoes before I look up to meet his eyes. “Thank you,” I say quietly. “For what you did. You didn’t need to, but…I’m glad.”

He’s moved closer since we began talking. “I’m so sorry that happened. I wish you’d told me.”

I fidget, hoisting the bag farther onto my shoulder. “We don’t tell each other things like that.”

His brows draw together, as if he is considering his next words. “Maybe we should start.” He’s close enough now for me to see the pale bruise under his eye. He got into an actual fistfight on my behalf, in public. I’m drawn to that small mark on his cheek, as if it has value, as if it means more to me than all my possessions combined.

“You got hit,” I whisper.

He gives me the smallest possible shake of his head. “That was just security, not Webber,” he says, as if that lessens the fact that he got hit on my behalf.

A thousand caustic responses come to mind. But what’s overriding them all is a single thought: I can’t imagine being here without him.

I close the distance between us and, on tiptoe, with my hands on his lapels, pull his mouth to mine.

For a moment he is still, shocked, and then—with a quiet grunt of surprise—his hands go to my hips and he pulls me closer. His mouth is soft but growing more determined by the second, and I’ve never wanted anything more. His low groan vibrates in his chest as he deepens the kiss, his hands sliding over my ass, tugging my body tight to his. The smell of his aftershave, his body hard and looming over mine, the heat of his palms gripping me—it’s both too much and not nearly enough.

There’s a dull thud as my back hits the wall. No part of him is reticent now, and I’m arching to get closer, to feel the press of him, hard as steel against my rib cage. I will contort myself into a thousand shapes to be the one that fits him best.

My hands are on his belt when I hear the ding of the elevator…and reality hits like a hammer. What the hell am I doing right now? I’m hooking up with a partner, putting everything I’ve worked for at risk, without a single guarantee.

I swear to God, I’ll never learn.

He blinks at me, as if coming out of a trance, his eyes dark and drugged. I slide out from the wall and stumble backward. Jesus, I have no idea how to get out of this. “Okay, well then, um…” I say, snatching my bag off the desk and heading for the door. “Good day to you, sir. Don’t beat anyone up in Charlotte.”

I saunter away, as if nothing happened here at all, but I’m dying inside as I hurry toward the elevator. Did I really just say, “good day to you, sir” like we are gentlemen in Victorian-era Parliament? I’m going to convince myself I imagined that part.

But the rest of it…God, the rest of it. Ill-advised, yes, but I can’t swear I’d take it back.