The Chain(59)



“This is good,” Pete says. He likes this feeling. This little booze buzz. He’d forgotten what that felt like. It’s a completely different type of high than you get with the opiates. Heroin is a protective blanket you throw over yourself. The most beautiful blanket in the world, a blanket that eases the pain and lets you sink into an autumnal universe of bliss.

Booze brings you out of yourself. Or it brings him out, anyway. And yet he doesn’t quite trust these emotions.

“I’ll just check the doors,” he says, clearing his throat. He gets up abruptly, takes the nine-millimeter from his bag, patrols the perimeter, and locks the doors.

Task completed, he has no choice but to sit back down on the sofa. He makes a decision. Time for him to tell Rachel the truth about himself. Both big secrets. “There’s something you should know about me,” he starts hesitantly.

“Oh?”

“It’s about the Marines. I was…I was honorably discharged, but it was a close-run thing. I avoided a court-martial by a whisker for what happened at Bastion.”

“What are you talking about?”

“September fourteenth, 2012,” he says in a monotone.

“In Iraq?”

“Afghanistan. Camp Bastion. The Taliban dressed in U.S. Army uniforms and infiltrated the perimeter fencing and got onto the base and started shooting up planes and tents. I was the duty officer of the engineering unit at hangar twenty-two. Except, well, except I wasn’t on duty. I was high in my tent. Just pot. But still. I’d left a senior sergeant in charge.”

Rachel nods.

“When I got over there, all hell had broken loose. Tracers and RPGs and total confusion. RAF guards shooting at Marines shooting at army. There were these private security contractors who just happened to be there, and they prevented a massacre. Never in a million years would I have thought that a Taliban team could penetrate that deep into the base. Prince Harry from England was there that night. The VIP area was two hundred meters from the firefight. It was a complete disaster, as you can imagine, and I owned a big chunk of it.”

“Pete, come on, that was six years ago,” Rachel protests.

“You don’t understand, Rach. Marines died, and I played a part in that. They punished me under Article Fifteen, but it would have been a GCM if they hadn’t been worried about the publicity. I quit anyway a couple of years later. Six years before my twenty. No real pension or benefits. What a complete asshole.”

She leans forward and kisses him gently on the lips.

“It’s OK,” she says.

The kiss takes his breath away.

You’re very beautiful, he wants to say but can’t. She’s exhausted, thin, and frail but still gorgeous. That isn’t the problem. The problem is articulating the feeling. He feels his cheeks redden and he looks away.

She pushes back a strand of dark hair from his furrowed brow.

She kisses him again, this time more seriously. It’s something she has been wanting to do. She’s worried it will be anticlimactic.

It isn’t.

His lips are soft but his kiss is strong and powerful. He tastes of coffee, cigarettes, Scotch, and other good things.

Pete kisses her back hungrily, but then after a minute, he hesitates.

“What?”

“I don’t know if I can,” he says softly.

“What do you mean? Don’t you find me—”

“It’s not that. That’s not it at all. You’re incredibly hot.”

“I’m skin and bones, I—”

“No, you look amazing. It’s not that.”

“What is it, then?”

“I haven’t…for a long time…” he says. It isn’t really a lie. He’s thinking about the second big secret—the heroin—and wondering whether he will be able to perform.

“I’m sure it will all come roaring back,” Rachel says as she leads him to the bedroom.

She takes off her clothes and lies on the bed.

She doesn’t know it but she’s wildly sexy, Pete thinks. Brown hair, long, long legs.

“Come on,” she says teasingly. “Is that a pistol in your pocket or are you just…oh, it is a pistol.”

Pete puts the nine-millimeter on the bedside table and takes off his T-shirt.

When he drops his sweats, he’s somewhat surprised to see that everything is in full working order.

“Well, well, well,” Rachel says.

Pete grins. That’s a relief, he thinks, and climbs into bed next to her.

It’s pure we-survived-the-plane-crash sex.

Frantic, fraught, desperate, hungry.

Twenty minutes later, she climaxes and he climaxes.

A spectacular oasis after months of drought.

“So that was…” Pete says.

“Yeah,” Rachel agrees.

She goes to get the cigarettes and Scotch. “And also, you know, weird,” she says. “Even perverted. I mean, Christ, two brothers, who does that?”

“Just stay away from my father. I don’t think his heart could take it.”

“That is so gross.”

Pete gets up, walks to the living room, and thumbs through her vinyl collection, which is mostly Motown and jazz. Her CDs are all Max Richter and Jóhann Jóhannsson and Philip Glass.

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