Stillhouse Lake (Stillhouse Lake #1)(59)

One dead, horribly mutilated woman could have been an awful coincidence. Two have to be a plan. The police will be here soon, and when they come, I’ll be taken in. This time the questions will come in earnest.

I’m going to be arrested.

I’m going to lose my kids.

A text alert sounds, and I take out my phone to see it’s from Absalom’s anonymous number. I swipe to read it.

It’s just a link. I click it, and watch as the screen fills with the blocky design of a message board. I don’t take note of which one, I just blow up the text to read the initial post.

It’s about me.

FOUND: ONE MURDERING BITCH! YA BOY, I TRACKED DOWN MELVIN’S LITTLE HELPER! PICTURES AND EVERYTHING. SOLID INTEL. HIS SPAWN ARE WITH HER, SO SHE DIDN’T DROWN THE LITTLE BASTARDS YET. EVEN BETTER: THERE’S A MURDER!!! DEETS LATER.

There is a flood of replies, hundreds of them, but the original poster is teasing the info, giving nonanswers, hints, denying rumors. And then, about five swipes of my finger down the scroll, he drops one deadly piece of solid fact.

BITCH IS HIDING OUT IN THE VOLUNTEER STATE.

That must have sent at least half the readers scrambling for Google, but I know it instantly. He knows I’m in Tennessee. That means he almost certainly knows I’m at Stillhouse Lake. He likely has the same pictures that Melvin has seen, or he’s the original source of them.

My chess move didn’t work with my murdering ex-husband. He’s dropped the hammer, and right now I imagine him lying on his bunk, laughing. Imagining my safety being stripped away, like strips of skin. Masturbating at the thought of it.

The agony of it is breathless.

I feel weightless for a moment. Not quite falling, not quite stable. It’s out. We’re out. All my work, all my running, all the hiding . . . it’s done. The Internet is forever.

Trolls never forget.

I hear sirens in the distance. The police are on their way. The dead girl floats in steady dips and bobs, hair twisting and swirling like slow smoke. The rowboat is now moving away, making for the dock; the fisherman must have finally snapped out of his trance. When I look up, I see his face has gone a sickly, pre-heart-attack color, and he’s rowing with furious strength. His wife is slumped against him, looking nearly as bad. These are people whose safe, normal world has broken underneath their feet, and they’ve fallen into a darker place. The place where I live.

I can see the police car lights cresting a distant hill, heading out from Norton.

I text Absalom. Doesn’t matter now. I’m about to be arrested.

There’s an endless space before his reply comes with a sharp vibrating buzz to announce it, like an angry wasp before the sting. Fuck. Did you do it?

He has to ask. Everyone has to ask.

I text back No and turn off the phone again. As the rowboat bumps hard against the dock—almost a crash—I toss a line to the fisherman. It hits his wife, which I didn’t intend, but she doesn’t seem to even notice.

I sense someone else watching now, and I turn my head.

Sam Cade is standing on his porch, about two football fields away. He’s wearing a red-and-black checked bathrobe and slippers, and he’s staring at me. At the traumatized boaters. I sense his attention move to the body in the lake, then back to me.

I don’t look away. Neither does he.

He turns and walks back into his cabin.

I help the older woman out of the boat, then her husband, and sit them down on a bench nearby as I run back to the house for warm blankets. I’m pulling those around their shoulders as the first police cruiser scrapes to a halt a few feet away, lights strobing urgently but siren silent now. Behind it comes the boxy sedan, and I’m not surprised to see Detective Prester behind the wheel. He looks like he hasn’t slept at all.

I feel dead. Numb. I straighten up as he exits the vehicle. Two other younger uniformed officers get out of the cruiser. Neither one is Officer Graham, but I recognize them from around the Norton beats. There are more on the way, a whole stream of cars heading toward us now. There’s a feeling of inevitability about this dawn. I know I should be afraid, but I’m not; somehow, all that fear has gone away after seeing this poor woman in the lake, abandoned and destroyed. As if this has been coming all along, and on some level, I’ve known it.

I see Prester approach, and I turn to him to say, “Please make sure my kids are all right. Someone’s leaked our location to the Internet. They’ve had death threats. Real ones. I don’t care what happens to me right now, but they have to be safe.”

His face is set and hard, but he nods quietly. He pauses next to me and looks at the two unfortunates who were in the boat. I turn away as he questions them. I look at Sam Cade’s cabin, and before too long, I am rewarded; I see him come out again, dressed in faded jeans and a plain gray T-shirt. He locks his door—both locks, I notice—and slowly descends the steps to walk toward us. The patrol officers haven’t managed to set up a cordon yet, and there’s not really a need. Sam walks straight across and stops just a few feet from me. We don’t speak for a moment, and he puts his hands in his jeans pockets and rocks back and forth, staring not at me, but at the bobbing body in the lake.

“Want me to call anybody?” He asks it of the empty air, as if he’s asking the dead girl. I’m not really looking at him, either. It’s a conversation in which neither of us is willing to commit. So typical of both of us.