Posing for the Omega (For the Alpha #2)(11)

“Not trust you? The males think you’re the best thing since they found their dicks! Hell they want to have a repeat of last time.”

“Seriously?” I hadn’t expected that. Besides I’ve steered clear of most of the pack. I figured they needed time to simmer down. “Even after watching me change?”

“What did you feel right before you changed?” Koda persisted for the millionth time that day.

I groaned as I lay outside my den with my brother. Granted I’d complained about not knowing how to control the shifts and that I’d wanted to learn, but I’d meant that more in theory than actual practice. I really just wanted to eat constantly and figure out how I was going to tell my alpha that I was keeping a really big secret that could ultimately make him hate me. So no, learning how to shift into my itty bitty form was not on my priority list at all.

“I felt my alpha’s knot thrusting into me Koda. Anything else you’d like to know?” I narrowed my eyes at my brother, daring him to ask more questions. Koda opened his mouth, then shut it again, and then opened it again before he shut it again. He seemed to be having a dilemma with whether he should actually say what was on his mind or not. I’d give him about five more seconds before he finally popped. Three… two… one….

“Maybe it’s his dick?” He said with complete confidence. Seriously, was his brain completely formed in his head? “Seriously, hear me out.What if your mutant body changes for the alpha’s dick?”

Oh mother help me, he actually sounded like he believed his theory. My ears flattened against my skull and I rubbed my belly praying my poor unborn pups couldn’t hear the shit he was saying. Really? I mean really? “That doesn’t even make sense! I changed on my own once in the woods when I went to find Zora, and once when Naga scared me. It has nothing to do with me and alpha tying. You’re a pervert.” I said, exasperated.

He huffed.“Whatever, it could be possible.” Koda looked around us to see if any pack members were listening, his green eyes scanning the dens before he pointed his muzzle back towards me. “Have you told Zora about anything yet?”

Yeah, about that. It had been a week since the orgey -for lack of a better word-and I still hadn’t found it in myself to talk to my alpha about what I’d saw in the woods or what I’d heard from Dey. I know that made me a slimed-belly-toads-stool, but I was terrified of the consequences. What would I do if he blamed me? What would I do if the pack banished me? How would I protect my pups if I was alone? To make it all worse I still felt lost and confused about everything I had learned so far. Was I like those monsters? I definitely looked like they did. I didn’t know where these wolves had come from, or what they knew that I didn’t, but I couldn’t deny they were a major threat.

I shook my head slowly, not looking Koda in the eyes. “I don’t know how to tell him. What if he blames me for everything?” Wasn’t that the core of the problem? Pain lanced through my heart as I imagined my mate not loving me anymore. My eyes watered as I thought about my alpha exiling me like Vey’s alpha had done to him. A pathetic whine slipped out of me as I looked at my brother.

Koda’s green eyes narrowed and a disgusted look made his wolf face contort into a hilarious mix of grimacing teeth and a scrunched up nose. “I didn’t think you could be anymore of a freak, but mother green nature Ira, you are really gross pregnant and crying.” Koda said dully.

Another hiccuping sob escaped me. “I can’t help it!” Moose farts what was wrong with me? I wanted to sob uncontrollably while eating my weight in food - particularly squirrels.

“You need to pull yourself together. You’re being stupid. Your alpha worships the ground you walk on, and besides none of this is your fault.”

I sniffled and took a deep breath through my clogged nose trying to breathe again, but it came out more of an awkward cough hack combination. Sounded like I was snoring really loudly while awake. Koda was right, I was a mess and I couldn’t help the emotional breakdowns I was having, but I could start thinking of how I could help my pack and my alpha. I needed to tell him the truth to start. The stress of everything I was hiding from Zora was eating away at my insides. It was a bitch to admit Koda was right — A really big-ugly-rat-faced bitch. “What should I tell him? That his pack is being killed because of monsters that look like me?”

“You should tell him the truth! It’s not your fault the blood wolves are here, but he needs to know Ira. These wolves are bigger and meaner than you, the pack isn’t even aware of what they are!” Koda growled.

For once he actually sounded like the adult in the situation, and yet again I didn’t like the change in our dynamic. If Koda was being this serious I really needed to tell my alpha. Problem was I already knew I should, but the fear was eating me from the inside out. There was so many what-ifs that I wanted to keep it all inside instead of let it out and poison the wolf I loved. “I need to tell him—”

“Tell me what?”

Squealing like a dying pig I turned to see my mate standing in his glorious second form right behind me. How long had he been there? My heart was pounding so hard I could hear it in my skull. How had he snuck up on us so easily? I don’t even think he had been trying to. “A-alpha, I w-was going to—”

Zora chuckled and leaned forward to nip along my muzzle, and like always I melted into his attention. Nothing was comparable to having this amazing wolf treat me like I was the center of his world. I closed my eyes and laid my ears back as I soaked up his affection like moss did the early morning dew.