Night Film(55)

She looked stunning as usual in a cream-colored wool coat and jeans, a sweep of blown-out ash-blond hair. She was a dealer at an exclusive contemporary art gallery on Madison Avenue and often scrutinized oddly dressed strangers as if they were 99-cent airbrushed Elvis portraits.

“Hi, honey,” I said to Sam. “Mrs. Quincy. To what do we owe this pleasure?”

She turned to me. “You didn’t get my messages? Jeannie’s in the hospital. She’s come down with mono and has to go home to Virginia until she’s better. It’ll be six weeks at least.”

I looked down at Sam, tightly gripping the handle of her Toy Story suitcase and staring, wide-eyed and opened-mouthed, up at Nora.

“Sweetheart, did you meet my new research assistant?” I asked.

She didn’t answer. She tended to become speechless out of pure awe when encountering a stranger. She took a shy step behind my ex-wife.

“Can I talk to you in private?” Cynthia asked me, smiling thinly.

“Certainly.”

“Sam, I want you to stay here. I’ll be right back.”

Cynthia led the way down the hall. We entered my office, and she closed the door behind me.

“Who is that?” she asked.

“Nora. She’s helping me out with a story.”

“How old is she? Sixteen?”

“Nineteen. And extremely mature for her age.” I’d have loved to imagine Cynthia was jealous, seeing me with another woman, but these questions had nothing to do with me. She was worried about Sam.

She looked around, frowning at the papers and notes piled all over the floor, doubtlessly thinking, Some things never change.

She was still beautiful. It was awful. I’d been waiting for Cynthia to venture deeper into her forties so she’d wake up to wrinkles like a maze of molehills screwing up a legendary lawn. But no, her green eyes, those cheekbones, the expressive little mouth that broadcast her every mood with the diligence of a UN translator, were still youthful and bright. Now Bruce woke up every morning to that face. I still couldn’t believe that man—fifty-eight, with a paunch, hairy wrists, and a yacht in Lyford Cay named Dominion II—was allowed to live daily with such beauty. He had a knack for spotting deals in the marketplace, I’d give him that. When Cynthia sold him a Damien Hirst called, rather aptly, Beautiful Bleeding Wound Over the Materialism of Money Painting, Bruce noticed she, too, was a work of art to look at for a lifetime. That she allowed herself to be bought along with the painting—that I didn’t see coming.

When I met Cynthia our sophomore year at the University of Michigan, she was flighty and poor, a French studies major who quoted Simone de Beauvoir. She wiped her runny nose on her coat sleeve when it was snowing, stuck her head out of car windows the way dogs do, the wind fireworking her hair. That woman was gone now. Not that it was her fault. Vast fortunes did that to people. It took them to the cleaners, cruelly starched and steam-pressed them so all their raw edges, all the dirt and hunger and guileless laughter, were ironed out. Few survived real money.

“So, you and that girl are only working together,” Cynthia said, turning back to me.

“Yes. She’s my research assistant.”

“Well, research assistant to you can mean any number of things.”

I let that one hit me square in the gut. It was true, after our divorce I’d ended up in a slight relationship with my last research assistant, Aurelia Feinstein, age thirty-four—though, let me state for the record, it was not as hot as it sounded. Making love to Aurelia was like rummaging through a card catalog in a deserted library, searching for one very obscure, little-read entry on Hungarian poetry. It was dead silent, no one gave me any direction, and nothing was where it was supposed to be.

“It’s all very G-rated around here, so what’s really the problem?”

“You didn’t even remember Sam was coming today.”

“That’s not true. She’ll have a great time. If there’s any trouble, I’ll call you and you can airlift her out by Black Hawk.”

“What about Nancy?”

“Nora. She’ll be out of here by ten.” It wasn’t the time to mention Sam had a roommate.

Cynthia sighed, a familiar look of surrender on her face. “Have her home by six on Sunday. And Bruce and I rescheduled our Santa Barbara trip for next week, so you’ll have Sam for a long weekend.” She eyed me skeptically. “Unless you can’t handle it.”

“I can handle it.”

“We’re going with friends, so you can’t suddenly change your mind.”

“You have my word. I want the extra time with her.”

She seemed to accept this, sweeping her blond hair over her shoulder, staring at me expectantly, waiting for me to say something more.

This had been one of the great enigmas of our marriage. In the sixteen years we were together, Cynthia often waited for me to say something more, as if there were very specific words that would unlock her, state-of-the-art vault that she was. I never came close to deciphering the combination. I love you did not work. Neither did What are you thinking? or Tell me what you want to hear.

She’d wait for a minute, maybe longer, and when she understood she was going to remain locked until further notice, she’d walk away, lost in sealed-tight silence. This was what she did now, opening the door and striding back down the hall.