Nero (Made Men #1)(85)
After she saw a big red “A” at the top, Elle flipped through the pages until she got to a paper she clearly hadn’t written with Nero’s name at the top of the paper. She quickly shut her eyes.
Elle took a deep breath and made sure her off switch was shut tight before she opened her eyes and started reading.
Nero’s paper began of him talking about his mother, of how much he had loved her and still did. He talked about how he had never been the same after her death. Elle stopped reading at the next sentence.
She bit her lip, and then she started reading once more.
At the beginning of the semester, when you asked who I loved the most, an image of my mother popped in my head. When you asked me who I loved the most for the second time, it wasn’t an image of my mother. Instead, it was replaced by an image of a strawberry blonde with big, blue eyes.
It took me a long time to figure out the exact moment I fell in love with her, partly because I denied that I did until it was too late.
I fucked up so badly and did so many things wrong, to the point of no return, so I let her go. The selfless part inside of me wants to say I did the right thing, and the selfish part of me thinks I made the biggest mistake of my life. I guess the selfless side won out because, every time I look at her and see what I did, I realize I don’t deserve her.
I was never supposed to fall in love with her, but that was the best mistake of my life. I will always love her; I have ever since I purposely bumped into her in the hallway.
Elle stared at the big red “A+” at the bottom of the paper. She closed her eyes and held the switch down perfectly in her mind. After a moment, Elle was able to open her eyes.
She stood and went back to Mr. Evans, putting the paper on his desk. Then, Elle went to walk away.
“You know, I stand in front of the classroom every day, and all I see is you with your nose in your books and your papers.”
Elle turned around. “Isn’t that what I’m supposed to do?”
“Yes, but you don’t get to see him.”
Elle looked down at the ground. “Why are you doing this?”
“I know you’ve had it pretty shitty in here, Elle. I’d hate to see it just as shitty out there.”
Elle looked back up at Mr. Evans and nodded. She headed out the classroom door and started walking to her next one.
She continued the day and couldn’t help picturing what Nero had written in her mind. The light switch in her head started to flicker, wanting to come on.
When the lunch bell rang, she knew she would have to see Nero, and seeing him right now was something she wasn’t going to be able to take until she had control. She wanted to think this out, sleep on it and decide if she wanted to go down that long, hard road again.
Yes.
No.
They got halfway to the cafeteria before Elle couldn’t go any farther. “I need to go to the bathroom.”
“Uh, Elle, are you sure?” Chloe asked her.
“Yes.” Elle and Chloe hadn’t gone to the bathroom at school in years. They would hold it in no matter what because the scariest place on Earth was the girls’ bathroom.
Elle practically ran in and went straight to the sinks. She ran the cold water and stuck her hands under.
Chloe stayed right by the door. “Are you okay?”
Elle didn’t answer; instead, she leaned her head down and started splashing water on her face.
A stall flew open.
Elle’s head was shoved hard into the sink, the faucet hitting the top of her head. Elle’s hair was pulled back and she stood, looking in the mirror to see Cassandra standing behind her.
“Chloe, run!” Elle screamed.
Elle’s head started to throb, but her adrenaline kicked in. She grabbed for the hand behind her head and started to dig her nails in. Her other hand went for Cassandra’s hair, and she started to pull as hard as she could. When she heard Cassandra scream, she used all her body weight to shove Cassandra from behind, knocking herself loose.
Elle flew around and immediately felt dizzy. She wasn’t able to move fast enough before Cassandra ran forward and jammed her into the sink, making Elle fall to the ground.
Cassandra stood over her, just like she had years ago. “Nero is not here to protect you now.” She rammed her foot back and kicked her in the stomach.
Elle tried to fight her eyes from closing.
“He dumped your ass because you are fucking nothing but a waitress.” She rammed her foot back into her stomach.
She felt the puddle of blood soak under her face just as her tears on the pillow had done.
“This is for Sebastian.”
Light switch off.
*
Chloe’s hands landed on the bathroom door before she swung it open. Her legs ran as fast as she could with the image of Elle’s face in her mind. Chloe’s brain couldn’t think, yet her body knew what to do.
In what felt like a split-second, she was in the cafeteria, heading straight for the other side of the room to the table that held the only people in this whole entire school who would help.
Chloe hadn’t spoken a word to any of them in months, let alone the one who clearly had destroyed her best friend, but that didn’t matter anymore.
“Nero!”
The whole table stood at her words, and Nero’s worried face looked her in the eyes. When she saw his eyes—the visible pain and worry—she wondered whom had ended up destroying whom.