If This Gets Out(91)

“Let’s just agree we both messed up and move on. Deal?”

“Done.”

We take the coffees, and go over to the coffee table. Cleo hops up and sits between us. I scratch the top of her head, and she stretches out.

“So,” my mom says, sipping her coffee. “Have any boys visited you backstage?”

I almost choke on my coffee. “Mom!”

“Come on, fill me in. What made you figure it out for sure? Or, should I say who?”

I drum my fingers on my legs. “Er, so you know how Ruben is gay?”

Her mouth drops open. “No.”

I grin. “Uh-huh.”

“Shut up. Zach, he’s hot.”

My mom calling my boyfriend hot is kinda weird, and I hope it never happens again. But this time, I’ll let it pass.

“I know.”

She nestles down, getting comfortable. “Go on, tell me ever-e-thing.”

I wasn’t expecting to do this now.

But you know what?

I think I’m going to.





TWENTY-THREE





RUBEN


I pounce on Dad the second he gets back from work.

“They finally told us something,” I say as he removes his coat by the front door. “Apparently it’s the Armstrong Center they checked Angel into. They said it’s too early to know if he’ll be back up and running when he’s out, but he is having daily physical therapy there, so, that’s something, right?”

It’s not much information, but compared to the vague updates we’ve gotten from Chorus over the past two weeks since arriving home, it’s practically a gold mine. Much more helpful than “Angel’s doing well,” and, “we can confirm narcotics rehab will be going ahead,” and “we’ll be back up and running as soon as possible.”

As for Angel, we all FaceTimed him a couple of times from his hospital bed, but the last time we spoke, right before he was discharged, he was almost as in the dark as us about how long his recovery would take. Then, once he left the hospital, we stopped hearing from him altogether. Logically, I know it was because he was checked into rehab somewhere, but without knowing exactly where he was or how long he’d be there, it’s felt a little like he’s been “disappeared” by Chorus.

Dad quirks a bushy eyebrow at me. “Hi to you, too. My day was great, thanks for asking.”

“Sorry. Hi.” I walk with him through the spacious, clean-lined hallway to the living room. “I got excited. What do you think?”

Until now, the perks of having a physiotherapist for a father have mostly involved having a useful set of warmup exercises to stay safe during dance training. But having him here to offer his uncensored thoughts on Angel’s recovery makes me appreciate his knowledge bank in a whole new light.

“What do I think?” he repeats. “It’s not much to go off.”

“But we know he’s been out of the hospital for a week, and he’s already started working on getting his movement back,” I press.

Dad shrugs and flops onto the sofa as Mom comes into the living room to greet him. “It depends on a lot of factors,” he says. “How extensive the injuries were, how they heal, whether he follows the hospital’s instructions, if there were any injuries missed in the initial screening…”

“But if he was really, really injured, he wouldn’t be up to therapy yet, right?” I ask, lowering myself to sit beside him. “So, he must be okay?”

Dad takes my hand and squeezes it. “Yes. It might take a couple of months or longer, and I would imagine it’ll be a long time before he’s back dancing with you all, but…”

“But he’ll be okay,” I finish. The relief makes me feel lighter, brighter. Sure, Chorus has been assuring us he’s been doing better, but they’ve been in denial about the severity of things enough times now that their platitudes are worthless.

“So, three weeks until he’s out,” Mom says.

“How do you know?” I ask.

She just gives me a wry smile. “I must be psychic.”

Ask a stupid question, get a stupid answer, I guess. I know how she knows. She spent half her career choreographing movie musicals before opening her jazz studio here after I was born. You can’t work a job like that without hearing about a few rehab stints. Or, more accurately, a few dozen.

“I can’t imagine he’ll need longer than twenty-eight days, from what you’ve told me,” Mom says. “The bigger concern is how you’ll resume the tour with him out of commission. Media sympathy will only get you so far, and it can’t replace the publicity you’ll lose here. Or the ticket sales, for that matter,” she adds.

“I dunno,” I say.

“I guess you’ll have to stand Angel in the middle while he has a cast. But it’ll look odd once the casts are off and he’s still not participating,” she adds.

“I guess. But people will just have to understand.”

“You can hope they’ll understand,” she says. “But the general public have a short memory. They might not be forgiving of a lack of showmanship for the next year. If you ask me, you’d be better off replacing him for the next year while he gets his full range of movement back.”