I Must Betray You(55)
I thought of the young soldier who warned Luca and me to leave. He was trying to help us. “How can we turn the military?” I asked.
“We can’t. The generals have to make that decision for themselves.”
We sat in the dark van, exhausted and frightened. Would the military turn on the regime?
Liliana’s voice pierced the darkness. “I’m Liliana Pavel and this is Cristian Florescu. We’re seventeen years old, students at MF3 High School, and live in Salajan sector three. I don’t know what will happen when we arrive at Jilava. If any of you are set free, will you please contact our families? Liliana Pavel and Cristian Florescu. Tell our families you saw us together and tell them . . . we were alive.”
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Jilava.
A sprawling monster the color of dry bones that lived south of Bucharest.
Brick archways. Thick metal gates. Grisly history.
I had said nothing in the van, but I was worried. Bunu had told me of Jilava.
“It’s the worst of the worst, reserved for political prisoners and people incarcerated for their faith. The inmates are tortured, mutilated, burned, and locked in frozen boxes.”
We were considered political prisoners. And we had been marching with a group of what looked like a hundred thousand.
The van came to a stop.
“Cristian,” whispered Liliana. “What’s going to happen to us?”
The fear in her voice pained me. “I don’t know. Stay close.”
The father of the two children issued warnings. “Stay alert and stay together! No matter what, stay together. Promise me.” The children nodded and whimpered.
Our van sat alongside many others parked at the prison; arrests had been plentiful. Guards appeared and marched us in a line down the drive. A decayed sign above the archway was illuminated by a red bulb. It was frightening in its simplicity.
FORTUL No13
JILAVA
We exited the van and guards jabbed at our backs with batons, corralling us into a tunnel lined with militia. A swarm of canes rained down upon us, smacking, as we tried to make our way through the corridor. We were herded into a large, damp cell, already packed with people. Questions flew.
“Where did you come from? Do you have any news?”
“Have you seen my daughter?”
“My god, they’ve arrested children. They’re covered in blood.”
“SILENCE!” boomed a guard.
People began whispering.
Another prisoner untied our hands. “Children and minors sent to Jilava? The regime must be desperate.”
“What are you hearing?” I asked.
“Rumors that Ceau?escu is arguing with the military. The soldiers don’t want to fire on citizens.”
“My friend, he was shot from above, from a window, not by a soldier.”
“Maybe a Secu sniper. You’re shaking. Are you okay?”
Was I okay? Was anyone okay? “I’m worried about my friend,” I told the man.
He nodded. “We’ll try to get you kids out of here.”
Liliana pulled me under a light. “Cristian, your nose is broken. You need a doctor.”
“Take a look around. We all need a doctor. What I need is to find Luca. Besides, it’s not my nose that hurts, it’s my head. And my ribs. It’s painful to breathe.”
Liliana pulled the purple scarf from her neck. “Take off your jacket.”
I removed my coat and she wrapped her scarf around my rib cage.
“Ow.”
“Sorry. It needs to be tight,” she said, tying a knot. It helped.
I rifled through my jacket pockets to find the papers. I quickly shoved them down the front of my pants. Liliana squinted, watching.
“Don’t ask.”
Men filtered through the crowd, collecting cigarettes. “We’re going to negotiate with the guards, give them cigarettes to let the kids out.”
Trading Kents for the lives of children. And he said it without hesitation, without the pain and shameful truth it carried—that the guards cared more about nicotine than humans.
Liliana and I moved toward the corner. The plaster on the cell wall had peeled away in patches, like dead skin, revealing raw bricks. Messages from former prisoners remained etched for us to see: Straw under clothes softens beatings.
Remember Richard Wurmbrand.
Tell the world—We’re innocent.
Liliana moved in close. “I’m scared, Cristian. I’m scared they’ll torture us, but I’m even more frightened the uprising will fail.”
“You heard the man in the van. There’s too much momentum. It’s only going to grow. But it was dangerous for you to be out so late. Were you alone?”
She shook her head.
“I was with Alex,” she said, then paused. “And Cici.”
“Cici?”
“She came to our apartment, looking for you. She was frantic, said you hadn’t been home all day and was terrified something had happened. She was going to search for you and asked Alex to help. I wanted to come along, and then we got separated in the crowd.”
Cici had betrayed me. How could she claim to care about me? I looked at Liliana’s tear-streaked face.