Hockey With Benefits(73)
Oh.
“Today wasn’t about you.”
“Friends, Mara. Friends. Do I need to spell it out to you? You’re going somewhere for a social activity, you call your other friends and let them know. Wanna know where I was? Taking care of Race because he’s sick. Guess where I would’ve loved to have gone?”
“To the bar?”
Her hands went wide and moved in an arch. “Yes! You’re getting it now.”
I shut the door. “You want me to invite you the next time I go to the bar without your boyfriend?”
“No, but let me know. I’m fun. I’m game for anything. Literally. Or, well maybe not literally anything, but for a lot. And if you’d known Race was sick, then I could’ve told you how he’s been a baby all day long.” She went to my kitchen, and opened the fridge. “He swears it’s food poisoning, but between you and me and everyone else, he’s hungover. He and his roommate went out with some guys from one of his classes.”
“Good to know.” I watched as she helped herself to my juice, then my rum, and held it up to me.
She asked, “You want a drink?”
I had to smile, a little. “I’m good.”
“Good.” She brought it over and plopped down on the couch. “Okay. I heard Cruz beat the shit out of Kyle Ruiz, and it was over you. Tell me the truth and I’ll tell you the rumors going around. Some of them are a doozy, but that’s why you have me now. I’ll weed out the truly insane ones, like the fact that you and Ruiz have a secret child that your mother kidnapped, and Cruz thinks it’s his.”
“I could see why he’d be upset.”
She snorted, sipping her drink. “Me too, but you don’t need to hear that one. Sit, Daniels. Spill. We’re besties and it’s time you start accepting it.”
I sat. I spilled. I did not spill everything, but it felt good. I had to admit that.
Then, when she was leaving, she offered, “I can go downstairs and let Sky and Z know the truth, if you want? You’re prime gossip channel material, and trust me, you’re going to need a few of us on your side. If we know the deets, we can shut down the absolutely crazy pants ones.”
“I’m okay.”
My phone began ringing after that, and Taz gave a wave before leaving. “Okay. Offer’s always there. Fair warning. I’m going to text you tomorrow. You will have to respond to it. Also what friends do. They text about just general stuff. Rarely are threats involved. Real threats. Take note.”
I was answering as she shut the door. “Hey.”
It was Cruz. “You got back okay?”
I settled back down on my couch, a blanket over my lap. My computer was still next to me, but since Taz’s arrival, I hadn’t reopened it. “I did. How’s your head?”
“All fine.”
“That’s good.”
“Yeah…”
I had to laugh. “We suck at phone calls.”
He laughed. “I was just thinking that. Why are we doing this again?”
“You know why.” My stomach clenched, and my phone dropped.
“We’re doing the actual friend route? Like the kind where we talk and share how our day went? Shit like that?”
I was playing with the edge of my blanket. “I guess. Taz was just here and said kinda the same thing, but I don’t really do this with anyone. I typically don’t trust anyone for this stuff.”
He was quiet. “That’s kinda messed up.”
I sighed, sinking lower in the couch. “I know. I blame my mom.” That was half of a joke, half not.
“Has she reached out again?”
“No. I mean, yeah, but she’s blocked. A weird number started calling this last week. They won’t leave a message. I mean, they do, but it’s just heavy breathing.”
“That’s creepy. Could be her other friend?”
“Could be anyone.” I went back to playing with the edge of my blanket. “How’s your sister? Your mom?”
“Uh, they’re good.” A brief pause. “Sorry, not used to being asked about them either.”
“Is this new for both of us?”
“I think so. I mean, I never had a girlfriend in high school. If I had sex, it was just that, you know. And my friends, we talk about hockey or stupid shit. Sometimes they ask about you, but not in a nosey way. They aren’t like that.”
“I know. I appreciated how they all were quiet about me coming over. That doesn’t always happen.”
“A lot of girls like sex. Guys too. No one should be judging.”
“You saying that is probably part of the reason you and I were doing what we were doing.”
“Were?”
My breath halted in the middle of my chest. “I mean… You know what I mean.”
“Right.” He didn’t sound like he did.
I sat up. “Look, with my mom how she is, I lived life keeping two worlds separate. My home life and my social life. That shattered in January, and now there’s a weird mix where people in one world know about the other and I can’t change that. I’d run like hell in the past if that had happened, but I’m not this time. I can’t, but I also don’t want to. I think, I think I need to do this.”