His & Hers(89)

“Exactly. You’ve done a really good job.”

“It’s just that it doesn’t look like our home anymore.”

“That’s the whole point, it isn’t supposed to. Another family is going to live here now, but it will always mean something special to you. Nothing is going to change that, and it meant so much to your mum that she didn’t have to sell the place.”

“You’re right, I’m being silly. It’s just a pile of bricks.”

“It will be okay, I promise,” I say, kissing her forehead. “Besides, you have a new home now, with Olivia and me.”





Her





I never thought I’d see my mother move out of her home.

She said she’d rather die than leave our old house, but once I understood the real reason why, I knew what I needed to do about it. I don’t know if I really believed her about killing my dad, until I dug up the vegetable patch and started finding bones. Nobody is going to find anything they shouldn’t buried in the garden now, at least not in my lifetime. What happened is all covered up with a brand-new patio, the past buried underneath for good.

I don’t feel bad about it.

My father got what was coming to him, and my mother did what she did for me, as well as for herself. The things we will do to protect those we love know no bounds.

The retirement village Jack managed to get Mum into is quite beautiful. It costs a small fortune, but I had a little money left over from the sale of the Waterloo apartment, which helped secure her a place. Plus the rental income on her house—now that tenants are about to move in—will just about cover the monthly payments. Besides, her cancer is an aggressive variety. In many ways she seems well, and certainly happier than I can remember seeing her before, but the doctors say she doesn’t have long.

“Wow!” says Olivia from the backseat.

It’s one of her new favorite words, and also appropriate as we make our way up the long private driveway.

The communal gardens are immaculate, with a series of little fountains and subtle lighting among the pretty, color-coordinated flower beds. The reception looks like a five-star hotel, and the facilities include a choice of restaurants, a library, a swimming pool, and even a spa. Mum has her own ground-floor apartment and, most importantly, she has her own private yard, with a view of Blackdown Woods. Albeit from the other side of the valley.

“Hello, Mum,” I say, holding her close, breathing in the smell of her familiar perfume.

She looks well and has put on a little weight. I can see that she has had her hair done, and her clothes are clean and ironed just like they always used to be. Someone else cleans for her now, something I still don’t think she’s gotten used to. So many years of letting herself into other people’s houses, to do their dirty work while they were out doing something else. I found a drawer full of keys in her old bedroom when I was clearing out her home; she must have had one for almost every house in the village.

Someone else pops by to give her medication twice a day now too, although I’m not convinced she always takes it. There are emergency buttons and cords in every room, so that if she feels unwell, or needs anything at all, help is close by. She can choose to eat in the restaurant, or they deliver fresh, organic food along with recipe cards for her to cook herself. Mum took a little convincing, and it’s obvious she misses her beloved vegetable garden, but I think she’s adjusting to her new life well. Albeit slowly.

The apartment is decorated in neutral tones and it’s all very minimal, but I can see some of her old familiar things from home. There are pictures of me when I was fifteen for starters, but also a more recent framed photo of me, Jack, and Olivia, which makes me happy. She isn’t holding on to that teenage version of me anymore; she sees me as I am today and seems to love me anyway. Parents spend their youth trying to understand their children; children spend their adulthood trying to understand their parents.

My mother insists on making us some tea. She disappears into her little kitchen and we hear her opening the cupboards and drawers. I enjoy the familiar sound of cups being put on saucers, and metal teaspoons on china. We wait for her old-fashioned kettle to boil on the stove, and I experience a brief involuntary shudder when it screams.

She shuffles back in a few moments later, a pretty silver tray rattling in her shaky fingers. I notice that she has bought some organic honey in a squeezable bottle, as well as a jug of milk and bowl of sugar. It makes me smile. She’s doing well, but still has moments of confusion.

“The bees are alive!” squeals Olivia, on seeing the honey. We’ve been reading Winnie-the-Pooh stories to her, and she’s become a little obsessed with the stuff. “Your bees live with us in London now, Nanny Andrews, and they came out of the hive today!” she says, beaming at my mother.

“They survived the trip?” Mum asks, staring at me.

“Yes, Mum.”

“Did they find the knife inside the hive?” she asks.

I hid it there after leaving the hospital; I didn’t know what to do with it. I should have known she would find it—she’s the only person I know crazy enough to stick their hand in a hive. Luckily everyone else presumes it’s the dementia talking.

I smile and pick up the knife on the table to cut the cake we bought.

“No, Mum, it’s here, see? Bees don’t need knives to spread the honey, they can do that all by themselves. Now, who wants a slice of chocolate cake?” I ask, starting to unwrap the big white box from the bakery.