Good Rich People(59)

I throw the covers off, swing my legs over the side of the bed, hurry toward the door. The banging gets louder. The wood moans in protest. My eyes drift to the side table, the gun in the silver tray. I remind myself he’s my husband. I don’t need a gun.

I unlock the door, open it to find Graham ready to hammer it with his fist. Even in the weak outdoor light, I can see his hands are dark and pulpy. Tomorrow, they’ll be bruised.

His suit is torn. He reeks of cigarettes. I’m not surprised the boys got him drunk, even though they promised to take it easy. The party is tomorrow. He’s going to ruin it. Everyone is falling apart. First Margo, now Graham. The fountain glitters behind him, reminding me of what my housekeeper said. What if we really are cursed? But that’s silly. It’s like I said to Demi: Money is fate. We have money; we have fate.

He blinks at me, then speaks with a fat tongue. “Why is the door locked?”

“Why do you think?” I keep my voice even.

Graham kicks the stoop for no apparent reason. “Don’t be a bitch, darling.”

“We need to fix the gate.” If he thinks I’m a bitch, I might as well get a jab in.

“I’m never fixing the gate!” He raises a fist victoriously.

“Why not?”

“Because, darling, somebody broke it.” He calls me “darling” in excess when he’s drunk. “I’m daring them to come back. Break my house, kill my mother’s dog . . . Ha! I dare you to come back!” he shouts at the empty street.

“Let’s go inside.” I slip my fingers around his shoulder. Drunk Graham is annoying, but managing him makes me feel powerful, like I can hold a dangerous thing in my hands, catch a flame and not get burned. His breath is labored. He’s probably taken pills, too, or whatever designer drug his friends are currently peddling. “Come on, I want to tell you a funny story.”

He is winding down, dropping off from whatever hot plateau he wandered to. He flexes his fingers in and out, admiring their pain. “I don’t think anything is funny,” he says so hopelessly, I almost laugh.



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ONCE WE ARE inside, he insists on another drink. I open a bottle of Mo?t to keep him away from the liquor cabinet. He spreads himself on the sofa, kicks his feet up on the armrest, then struggles to light a cigarette with his solid-gold lighter. “Fucking lighter fluid!” he complains.

I’d better pour myself a drink, too.

He has his hand over his face when I bring the drink, so I can’t see his expression. I don’t see it coming, but then I never do. “You’re so boring,” he moans. “What did I ever do to deserve such a boring wife?”

“You’re drunk.” I hand him a drink. He takes it.

He takes a sip and makes a face. “I fucking hate Mo?t.”

“So do I.” I sip mine and take a seat on the far sofa, away from him. I should go to bed. I should leave in a huff and check into a hotel. But even now, after everything he’s done to me, after everything he’s put my through, I’m tied to him. I want him to like me, need him to love me. For his money, for his beauty, for my punishment—I don’t know. I’m a bad person, and he is the bad in me.

“When I married you, I thought, ‘This is a woman who will never bore me.’ But I’m bored.” He says it like it’s the worst thing in the world.

I wiggle in my seat. “Wait until you see what I have planned for tomorrow. You won’t be bored then.” I try to make my voice sound firm, powerful, but I am starting to doubt myself. Maybe Mo?t isn’t enough. Maybe blowing apart a mansion isn’t enough. Maybe murder isn’t enough.

“Whatever.” He downs the entire glass, then drops it on the floor so it shatters. “What-fucking-ever.”

I down my drink and stand up, straighten my pajamas. “I’m going to bed. Your birthday is going to be unforgettable. You’ll see.” I start toward the bedroom.

“You can’t even do a simple thing.” I stop. I always do. He slides his hand from his face. “Can you? I ask you to destroy some bitch’s life and instead my gate is broken. My mother’s dog is dead—”

“None of that has anything to do with Demi.”

“Of course it does! Of course it does! Demi’s haunting us. She does things without even doing them!”

I hold my ground. “Wait until tomorrow—or wait until you see your present. Then tell me I’m boring. Then tell me you’re bored.”

He puts his hands over his face again, speaks into his fingers so the words are muffled. “You’re not one of us. You have no idea how hard it is when everyone expects you to be like them.”

“I am one of you. You’ll see tomorrow.” I reach the door and check if he is going to follow me. He always does. He needs me as much as I need him. He has to.

“I killed her.” For a second I think he means Demi and I feel this wild terror shoot through me. I don’t know if it’s because I want or don’t want it to be true. His hands slip from his face and he looks so young, so beautiful, like this is the source of his beauty. “Elvira.” He shakes his head like a child who broke his toy. “I was so bored. I was just so bored.”

“I found her body.”

“Yes, you did so well with that.” His voice softens.